BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME
back home
when he came, today I ventured to go home to my parents, and, a thousand questions in my heart there is a sense of rakut enveloping but I must be able to I must be able to show that I am a child who can be relied upon, kejafian then make me understand about independence. From childhood I was not educated to work, until married mas imam did not let me work and after the events that befell me, I tried desperately to achieve my success, I didn't think I could be like this.
"ready ready?" asked my husband, I nodded my head.
my husband put in the things that we will carry because everything has been packed from last night, I helped her clean up the goods in the car deliberately use my car because of its capacity more to quickly finish.
"ummi, we go together" take me to my in-laws
"do not go between ummi until home" he replied to me "until the terminal, let ummi go home alone. We'll have our own duties, so let's settle down"
"yes" said my husband
"you be careful on the road, if cape do not force mending rest" said my in-laws reminding "tris eart, you bring children"
"iya ummi" replied tristan
"ummi also be careful on the road kabarin us if it has arrived" I said to my in-laws. "or ummi ride a trip, so it is safe"
"no need, it's okay to use public buses that are cheaper" he replied affirming.
"sure ummi" I asked
"sure" answered ummi "don't worry too much ummi ga anything really, doain ummi aja"
"certainly ummi" I replied
"all of you?" ask ummi
"it's ummi" my husband replied as he closed the trunk of the car
"yes we have left now mungpung morn" said ummi
Shortly after we checked the state of our house and left the house, we drove our mother-in-law first to the terminal, after which we separated from our respective travel destinations. I was with my husband to continue my journey with my children, I deliberately did not tell anyone about my return, he said, besides what I have to say anyway I went home or never had a problem with them, the evidence was that no one ever asked me or my kids while I was here.
"abba, if it fits later until there is something wearing I'm sorry yes" said I try to pull out what became my burden. "to you also if there is nothing that is not considered yes, which is important to you"
"why is that mom?" ask my husband
"sorry, one day I'll tell you everything just now" I replied "I don't want your day to be interrupted if I tell you now"
I reasoned that there would be no more questions from them, and hid my uneasy heart thinking about everything that would happen later on when I got there. May all be well God, I do not want them to experience something that is not fun when in my hometown.
We rest in the rest area, just unwind on the way, I have prepared all, just take what they want. My husband approached me with a suspicious look he asked me what really happened between me and my 2 parents.
"mom,, I'm sorry abba wants nanya" he said when approaching me "ga pantes anyway nanya here but abba can not be diem continue. Can you tell me now?"
"i'm afraid I cry" I replied
"anything, after all the children are still ants so will not know if the mother nangis.abba just want to know so if there the situation is not good abba can take a stand" said my husband
"where did it start?" I replied "all of it happens spontaneously, I just don't believe that I have to do the worst"
"starting from the important thing, why do you and your mother can be like that?" ask her
"because it's all my fault, honestly I don't want to experience something like this, who's the person who wants his life destroyed isn't there? everything is in line and I sincerely accept it" I told my husband.
I told the beginning of the incident that made my extended family hate me, until the incident that hit my household, no one wanted to experience something painful but this really happened to me. Starting from my business destroyed by helping my friend, until I owe it to some people to pay it off. It was the beginning of my life's destruction, I sold all the assets I had to cover the debt, at that time the priest continued to look for work because he could not get a job he went home to his parents' house no matter what happened after coming home from his parents' house, not intended to improve the relationship even he divorced me without saying anything I just brought him to sign the deed of divorce. Until the end of it I met with mas rian he who took care of my mental when I was down, he who accompanied me in my difficult times, he said, it was Mas Rian who helped me to be strong in the face of all my toughest tests.
When I was away from everyone, it was mas rian who was always by my side until I was like this, it was all because of mas rian. I can pay off all my debts, until paid off. I reorganized my life until the end I could achieve what I wanted to achieve, children are not lacking like before when I had nothing.
"did the priest not give his living to the children?" ask my husband
"still, every month mas imam gave me money for the needs of children, but at that time because I worked odd jobs often lacked for school fees" I replied "who often gave money to the eldest to go to school mas rian, my life was supported by him"
"why did you get away from her and pick me while Rian was always by your side?" ask my husband who seems jealous
"either, some time ago he had disappeared without news, I searched for his existence through his neighbors, his friends but no one knew until the end we were rediscovered ba" I replied carefully so that there would be no misunderstanding
"continue why you are still angry after the debt you close" he asked again
"well, I don't know if you're still mad at me or if I don't know" said I "in fact if I put forward the pain I'm also sick, I used to have a stall, he said, the intention of the heart of the stall I sold to pay off my transportation to people, until now the stall is a memory for me"
"yes it's no problem later if we are not welcomed properly, then we will stay at the inn" said my husband
"yes, but before that I'm sorry if we get there we're not welcome" I said
"there's a problem that obviously we're there just want to justify our marriage" she replied, clasping my hand I replied with a smile "but I think everything will be fine once they know what you've achieved"
Maybe it will be like that, because I don't want my problems to drag on too long anymore, maybe now is right. I also want to feel happiness with family as before, I have everything but as if my life is floating because my own happiness is not with the people I love, as a child I want to serve at the age of twilight to my 2 parents. Not only in-laws but my own parents I want to make her happy.
Just as I used to have my own business, I was able to make the people around me happy. I want it all to repeat itself like it used to, I want me to share it with them.
"but abba is sure they will welcome us, what else our children bring to meet them" said my husband "later abba who will talk directly to the father"
I smiled at my husband's seriousness, I hope it will be okay.
"don't ask for a strange dowry2 yaa" he said while joking
"the biggest concern is wanting a private plane" I replied while enjoying the meal I provided.
"elaaahhhh asked for his sultan" he replied as he pinched my nose
"you know, they have eyes they deserve to see anything" he replied.
that's how my husband jokes away my anxiety, he knows best when I think about problems.
"ba, ummi's phone is where it is now" I told my husband
"nii is connected" said my husband gave his cell phone to me
"ummi" said I "assalamualaikum mi, where have you been?"
I also chatted on the phone with my in-laws, I felt heartless to let my in-laws take the bus alone, considering his old age.
"it's okay" he replied, calming me down
"ummi's feet must have been hanging constantly on the bus" I said
"there will be a bag that can make ummi feet" he replied that always makes me feel bad.
"yes it is tomorrow if the business in the village is finished, be invited to pick up ummi yes" said I emphasized "ummi do not go home alone again"
"yes, are you guys almost there or are you still a long time?" ask him
"still a long time ummi, only kasian kang tristan is forced to drive continuously, this again in the rest area" I replied
"children aren't fussy, are they?" ask him
"engga Ummi, after all there is always light" I replied
"yes you guys have been careful on the road" said Ummi
"kalo already until do not forget the phone ya ummi" said I "assalamualaikum"
"iya waalaikum salam" replied Ummi ending my phone call.
"ba, it's yuu's rest" I said to my husband
"how ummi?" ask her
"his words are ready to arrive" I replied "great as ummi ba"
"yu kids get in the car again" my husband said to the children as well as his babysitter "yuu baby let me spit it out to the father"
my husband loves the youngest one the most, he carries it. The sound of carefree children will meet with their grandparents throughout their endless journey joking with each other over food all kinds of children's behavior. If the youngest is in front because my husband wants to be near her.
I don't know what is called an inner bond maybe this youngest is very close to his abba even though he is not his biological father. I just knew the inner bond was created because of the intense encounter with someone. That's how the youngest feels about my husband. She always tells stories along the way with her abba, even to the point of disturbing her abba driving.adem her car while they fall asleep and their nanny can rest.
"mba,, kalo cape rest aja yes,, usually change yaa take care of the children" I always remind them "so they can already play alone"
"mom, isn't it surprising that later the people there we bring troops this much?" ask my husband to joke
"their rich fainting times ba" I replied "increased a lot of their work, but we don't all charge to them ko we will shop for our needs there"
"mom, surely people will salute to mother" he said
"don't think about it, let them know enough about me now and I'm yesterday" I replied casually "at least I'm not taken one eye by them"
"during this time you are still in contact with friends in the village?" ask her
"ga at all, but I still keep their contacts" I replied
"teh, tell mama if you want to go home" said my husband to the firstborn "let's not too sudden"
"but no house number is active" answered my firstborn
"to the friends always uploaded so let there be one of them who said later" said my husband
"oh,, yes" replied the firstborn.
Sure enough the firstborn upload, when we were on the way directly someone asked about our whereabouts, the news of our return spread so quickly. It's good to have them ready because I brought so many people.
"really right?" my husband said "at least we don't take them seriously, about him we bring the kids with the nanny."
"later if it has reached the market we shop for our needs as long as there ya ba" said I
"all for our show?" ask her
"don't you first ba, it let those who take care of us his raw love, all of us deliberate in whatever abba needs there" I replied
"yes" he said, "we want to go straight or what?"
"keep going, if you often stop, the tip is not until after all sampe-sampe already this deket" I said
"wrapping another hour?" ask her
"about 2 hours" I replied.
all day we were on the road at the end until, my heart trasa deg degan felt reluctant to go down. The children immediately scattered after reaching the place where their grandmother and grandfather came down happily. Welcomed my father and mother and I also went down with the kang tristan who accompanied me.
