BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

the Rian POV RIAN

I'm not leaving for no reason, I just want to think and be alone to calm my heart which is starting to fret with its success now. Not unsupportive but I'm afraid I'm afraid my social inequality is clear I'm just a temporary odd labor and, she's a career woman who is now her career level is rising soaring I feel unable to accompany her I'm afraid she's embarrassed by my social status that is far below her.

Every time he sends a message or a phone call, deliberately I did not respond because I doubt what I have to say to him is not funny if I'm honest I'm confused because now my business is falling because of the sale of goods that I wrestle uncertain prices, his, not to mention every delivery of goods always oper note kept my men there is one of them that is sneaky by selling his goods to other manufacturers at a higher price than me.

I started to move away little by little from the lampstand, I also felt the same thing 2 weeks I made her comfortable when I visited her at her boarding house, first there I was there I was amazed he had a maid and gardener he could pay 2 people at once, just 2 months of work and now I'm afraid he's ascending a new position 1 year of work is amazing. In contrast to me who just pioneered again need large capital to support my business in order to be stable.

On the other hand I also feel that he is not serious to me, sincere but not serious that is the expression of real language. Maybe she still hasn't moved on with her ex-husband, it seems like 16 years is not a moment to forget I know it but I can still fight for what I can not fight for is our social status which is very much different. I feel doubt in every body language when near me. whereas my intention is the same he does not want to play games I seriously married him.

Krrriiinngggg, dian again and again but many times also I did not respond I was confused. 'I'm sorry but I don't know what to say when I can't tell you' I whispered in my heart.

"mas if you don't want to answer ga what mas" he sent a message to me, the sense of not being able to treat him like this "thank you for letting me down" it was sliced when I read the message from her. What should be what now?"

"honestly mas if you don't want" message dian for me

"sorry, I've been busy lately" I replied

No more answers from her, maybe she is busy working again indeed her daily life is always busy with work, maybe, work problems I as a man lost the set with him either as a runaway or indeed the right work2 need financial problems Because the first time I knew him he was experiencing an acute financial crisis until at the leave of her husband and family at that time I felt sorry for her too.

Had he not gone to the city I might have married him without knowing his background maybe it was better than now I have to know who my future wife is that is, now that I know what the truth is even makes me hesitant to step forward with my relationship with him. I don't love dian, I still love her so much but I'm confused now as to her I chose to stay in place for a while before I decided all her.

"hallo yan" I said when I called her "why again?"

"normal, overtime. Why?" ask her coldly

"you just want to apologize, you can just let me know now" I said apologizing

"oh ga what mas" said his ketus and cold "I even forgot when we last communicated"

"don't you apologize so much you can call you" I tried to give understanding to him but like he did not pemubrisnya reasonable maybe my attitude that all this time never sent the news even his message I never reply. "yan mas really busy mas here there are obstacles that really have to focus to solve all of them" still no response from him makes me feel anxious, I feel anxious, how to explain situsi here to him so as not to occur misunderstanding.

"hallo yan" said I. I immediately called him "yan mas sorry I know you're angry, I accept it because I'm wrong"

"ga wrong mas" he interrupted as I spoke in a very flat tone. "i'm not wrong you're not wrong either. I just feel like I'm interrupting my time."

"ga yan, that, that's what" I had to think of the right answer so that there was no misunderstanding. "yan mas love you mas ideals to marry you still there just mas ask for more time to prepare capital for us to live together" there was no answer from him when I spoke.

"yan, you still hear, right?" ask me

" yes" answered briefly

"please tell me how to make you not angry again, mas," my review to him because honestly I do not want this situation to be more complicated between my financial condition that is not good. "yan sorry if it makes you angry, mas said same you a few months ago mas ga never contact you because mas there is a problem here, mas business here start colabs yan,,,,,, you know,,,one month ago mas ketipu same boss who nampung bagang mas, continue to exist among mas people who cheat so mas really-bu focus for the completion of all of it."

"why could that be?" her questions began to respond I can't keep her secret anymore because I don't want to always lie to her. I know he's very understanding of his high social soul he can't hear people near him feeling distress. "how's the story?"

I explained everything starting from the time I first went there to visit her at the boarding house 2 days after her until 2 weeks I was with her and only found out after one week I was at the money house millions I ludes in just 3 weeks I have to stabilize the capital again because I lost almost hundreds of millions there was a case of theft of shipping goods only oper notes there is also a delivery that is due to payment but fitting fall the tempo of the person is no longer in place not to mention from within the intern for example theft of goods by men, for example, my runaway men are a lot that I experienced all I told him so as not to misunderstand.

"why did you tell her before?" ask her "if I know you don't maybe I'm not mad at you"

"i don't want to disturb your concentration, I know you are very busy now after there is confirmation you are up in office." I replied to dian

"i don't think I'm macem mas" he told me "I think you're just as rich as others who can only hurt me."

I know she must think of me like her ex-husband, for me it doesn't matter I'm just confused to explain what's stuck in my mind because of social status issues. Dian is too high for me can I possibly be on par with her?.

"why did diem mas?" ask her "have not been too thought of mas, if you need her rich capital I still have savings earlier want to pay off the motor but if mas need to stay use only." he offered to me but I felt bad anyway I also did not want to owe me I was afraid I went slowly because many factors were burdensome to me. I'm afraid there will be inequality.

"ga yan,, do not mind that problem is also just the new mas itself that is resolved. You need something bigger, right? not to mention the kids, right? I don't want to burden you because I don't know when you can pay"

"mas, I want to help you because you used to help me a lot when I was alone in trouble. Who would you say to whose account?" ask him to me.

"do it yan,,, mas can still work here." answered me because I don't want to be diananya a lot of nanya the end of which I fell short if the biggest problem I faced her.

"yan, yes, I have a job first" said my daughter when my mother called me. "lagian mother called"

I closed the phone and approached my mother who was sitting in the living room watching television with her brother and granddaughter.

"why mom?" ask my mother

"lately you've been rich with a lot of burdens why?" mom asked me about my condition full of probing

"there's nothing ma'am" I hid what I was going through. But would I be better off being honest with my mom about dian?

"honestly why? What's up?" it looks like he doesn't believe me. It is true that a mother's heart is sharper to her child when her child has problems.

"who's the woman you always call?" ask her

"ga ko bu,," I replied in disbelief.

At the end I was confused and told about my problems together. I told you all from the beginning I met and the condition and situation of the lamp that time was very bad but now inversely the situation is much better than when he was here.

"where are his people now?" ask my mother

"in the city of ma'am, working in a big company there and occupying an important position every day busy even at home is still working for tomorrow" I answered questions about dian all from start to finish.

"when did you get to know an office girl?" ledek my brother to me

"i also don't know if he really lives in an elite environment" I replied in front of them "about him when I knew him at that time he was experiencing economic problems that were really complicated. I feel sorry to see her. I just found out when I saw her at her boarding house"

"when did you go there?" ask my mother "you live alone in her hostel?"

"mother thought it was a distance ma'am" answered me "ga ma'am at her boarding house there is a maid and there is a gardener too"

"in what boarding house is the contract?" ask my unbelieving sister

"exactly the employee mess said his mess was his place with his husband at work together there" I said what I know from his own dian.

"my little guy has a maid" my brother said

"iya is indeed a house similar to a contract but in front of it there are plants and synthetic grass that is deliberately planted. I didn't believe it at first but I needed all my helpers."

"great work can also have helpers and gardeners as well. His big salary must be his dong"

"definitely, about his debts to the people at what time of the month has all paid off"

"great too"

"but I'm confused now that he lives in a big house that has just been bought at a wow price, not necessarily I can buy it" I told them "there's even a maid, no maid, babysitters and gardeners too. Now even in the same recommendation of the office as a staff of directors or what I don't understand too much"

"mayunnn mother so want to know him, invite here sometime" said my mother was curious.

"that's why I'm less ma'am, I don't care about our social status" I told my mother and sister.

"yes, if he likes you, he can accept what's going on" my brother said

"i am afraid of social inequality later, especially now dian is not what it used to be but now his social slang is also higher." answered me in front of my mother and sister

"i don't think about it if women already have a taste to any guy directly given without exception."

but now it's different situation, if before he was like this I approached and immediately I invited to marry and still beya than now even as if I had to mediate.