BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

inhabit a new home

Me and the group got to my destination city, to the new house I was preparing for the children. Unfortunately, my son who is still in school must be left behind at his grandparents' house because he has to finish his school.

"mom later on pick you up?" said my son no 2, among others the child no 2 who is closest to me.

"definitely dear mother promised" I said when I would leave her

"later om who will come to pick you up" said kang tristan who made the face of mas rian look soft

"gold I go first yeah, I nitip kids" mas rian also smiled as I shook off my fan kiss his hand

"be careful, baby, if you're on the phone?" I nodded and smiled as I waved my hand at her with a smile today I am so happy to be able to bring my child into my home.

Along the way rantings rang from their tiny lips until all slept in the back seat. I deliberately put the three of them behind so as not to be disturbed by me who often paced back and forth to take wind oil. That's me if everywhere always mabok travel, while every day my work paced on the road then he never wanted to use the car.

"it's up baby wake yu,," I woke the kids. Until my house was welcomed by 2 children's sisters and my household assistant

"alhamdulillah mother arrived" said my ART

"yes mba, very cape mba" I replied "sorry mba please sleep them in their respective rooms yes. Let me sleep in the kids' room"

"yes ma'am,,,"

We went into the house because as soon as our group came to our destination city at night and the children would fall asleep until tomorrow morning, so I could rest for tomorrow morning for my activities back.

"yan,, back home first yaa" said kang tristan after dropping all my stuff in his car

"gave a break?" ask me, "i'm making coffee?"

"it's malem not good with the neighbors" said his "lagian cape want to rest"

"yes already, oh, thank you kang" I said to her "have a minute" I went into giving her the food that I had deliberately bought for her. "ni kang bring her, later if you want to eat angetin or tomorrow morning for breakfast"

"thank you, ngerepotin?" her word

"ga also even me who ngerepotin said he did not want to come along because of me" he said I gripped his talk

"ga also I even seneng ko" replied "already yes bye..."

"be careful on the road" I said he nodded his head.

The one that did not want to come even come, I feel bad because of her. I know she was super busy then her earlier I did not say in detail.

"mom, is the father gone?" asked my ART as I sat on the porch she accompanied me

"already mba" answered me "already malem mba ko not sleeping? Wh why? Not a feeling, huh?"

"ga ma'am, kerasan ko is only 3 days ma'am ya don't know" he answered. whether it's a reason or what not understand, ga ngti, I just free them to work as well as I can do not want to chat because what I focus on children I want them to team up in the care of my children who are old again wayward.

"if there is anything less pleasing because of my attitude, I'm sorry mba I was like that if I talk I can't cover up my heart if angry ya angry talking nyablak where aja, I'm sorry, sorry I said gini is not what mba to understand and understand when my condition. What else if cape I like do not want to be disturbed mba." I explained about my personal to them let's not be surprised I want them to feel at home working with me I make them as comfortable as possible. Why did I choose ART and baby sitters who are very experienced because I don't want to explain much about homework I want them to know what they have to do while working with me. "the other MBA's asleep?"

"the rich is already mom" after sleeping on her dede they're not out again "mom still wants to sit here?" I just nodded when tired I was always hanging out on the back porch sometimes until late just to repel the saturated taste that sometimes comes without time. "yes I have made coffee or tea yes..." her permission

"i don't like coffee or mba tea, in the fridge there's a chocolate pack if you want to brew it" my order was that he entered the kitchen shortly after coming out with a cup of hot chocolate and a snack. "thank you, yes. If you want to sleep, sleep tomorrow will have to take care of the children" I said to him

"anything ma'am let me accompany mother, I also have not drowsy this afternoon sleep all day about her until mother came" he said to me

"it's okay to relax I just go, tomorrow where can be relaxed again mba will have to be with the child's understanding of such a small child again his wayward-bandel mba so must be extra careful ya mba"

kriiinnnggg my phone rang from kang tristan "sleep yet yan?"

"yet kang" I replied "sampe?"

"it's so new, it's a slap on the sofa" he said

"cape right?" ask me "sorry about nicotine? I've been told not to come too keukeuh follow."

"yes ga any time, it is cape but seneng can also nemenin you, the same streets you and your children"

"but I'm distracted, I'm not good at kang"

"which is not good for cats, I'm not anything." he replied "lagian ga every day I skipped, even almost never an impromptu holiday."

"that's because I'm truant, right?" cetusku to kang tristan "i bring bad influence to akang, I don't want my reputation so down because of me"

"yes no also yes, yes, kekemaren is a regular meeting "for his "lagian kan minggi day also, it is natural that our Sunday vacation."

"but have I already agreed to meet kang, if later they are even angry and keep his project failed how?" knock me on her

"it's okay to say it too, calm down I know more of my clients yan" his words made me silent a thousand languages earlier because I felt bad for him just because I he was willing to cancel the promise that had been agreed. "yan..."

"hmm" I replied

"who was this guy this morning?" her question turns out she's just a phone problem mas rian only "from yesterday she always came nyamperin you?"

"oh...mas rian kang" I replied I should be able to speak as if there is no wedge in my heart "have you met kang?"

"yes, I know his name, which I want to know who he is?" ask her "special?"

"it used to be.." I explained.

"keep it still?" her questions kept looking at my personal problems but I did have to be open so that there would be no mistakes

"you know what, he's like to stay away when I get close, but when I'm far away he's as if he's getting closer" I replied

"but from yesterday he kept meeting you and you look comfortable when near him"

"maybe kang, I don't know myself" I replied "back when I was in need of help when she was present in my life filling my day she was always trying to make me smile and support me, but over time we became often lost contact whether I was wrong or was deliberately away, and when I was away sometimes he felt closer. I don't know if I myself also don't understand his attitude and nature lately it's up to me to not care about anything now, I'm better off like this than dizzy thinking things aren't obvious"

After a few minutes of silence, I asked her "what is kang ko diem?"

"ga yan just thought, to be honest I yesterday felt jealous even earlier, wanted to feel her I imbued you when both but I always told my heart to always calm down." I just keep quiet when kang tristan tells himself not knowing what to answer because my heart becomes not because of CLBK is I? But I think I'm too lazy to accept a man's love. "yan, have you slept?"

"yet kang?"

"yan, if you want to know that I've known you for a long time, I pray in my heart to see you again, whether you are married or not I don't care if you have a husband I want to meet 1 time with you but if you are single I want you to be mine forever." kang teristan words "I look for you to every friend of your alumni, social media whatever the gap in order to meet you, until the end I find contact novi directly I contact, I contact, it just so happens that we're still one city, novi tells you everything you've been through and adds to the flavor I have for you."

his words made me full, just can not penetrate the heart space that has been cape with the sweet mouth of men who are not clear.

"i've found what I'm looking for, when I'm defending what was lost to me" she said again "regardless of your past I will accept you and your children as sincere as you would accept me as your companion."

I fell silent without being able to answer or say anything in my heart. Maybe my heart has hardened because of the successive events that have befallen me. I only rely on Him because he is the best at giving madalah without anyone hurting each other.