Be My Soldier Forever

Ep. 85

LETTER TO 8

From: Evan

For : Jericho

Hello, uncle Jericho.

I'm Evan, uncle. I am 15 years old now. I hope uncle still remembers me and you're not mad at me because I haven't written a letter in four years in a row.

I know that, I'm sorry, there's a lot I have to say, sorry.

First, because you didn't send a letter to yourself.

Second, because it disappointed everyone.

Third, because I yelled at my mom yesterday, I was really sorry and I accidentally yelled at my mom.

Fourth, because it doesn't help much.

Fifth, because not being a real man, it was very difficult to be a little boy, unable to do anything and helpless.

Sixth, I'm sorry for being rude to Leo today, he's my best friend and I can't hate him forever, tell him I'm sorry.

Seventh, for not realizing how sad everyone around me was, and I could only think of myself.

Everything was wrong, uncle Jericho, my heart felt so heavy on my chest, I barely breathed.

Mom was getting thinner and sicker, but she didn't say anything about it, she didn't complain at all, she thought I was too stupid to realize she was dying right in front of me.

Some robbers have come to steal our money lately, the three of us are trying to save, you know uncle how many cars I have to wash, fix, fix, and deal with their abusive drivers to earn money? Did you know that mom sold everything she owned and worked hard from morning to day and night? Did uncle know that Anita had to deal with an abusive customer who dropped flowers on the ground for money? And work late whenever he can? Did you know that Anita Taylor couldn't continue her schooling anymore, achieving her dream because the robber stole all the money we saved for her college. Does uncle know how devastated we are.

I haven't eaten a decent meal for two days because of that, we're all not eating anything, we're not even hungry!

But mom has to eat, she really has to eat, we can't afford her drugs anymore, I don't want to see mom like that!

I want daddy! I want to see dad! I want to chase you, to heaven!

I don't want to see my mother dying on a cold road in front of me.

Anita has a new habit of slicing her own hands, Alan's uncle and Kenny's aunt are out of town and I'm tired of taking care of them again.

Others have the guts to mock us.

Today, they pushed me up the stairs, I rolled on the stairs, blood dripping and my face full of bruises.

Of course, I'm in the hospital, on the other hand mom looks very worried about me.

You know what the worst thing is? I can't even say anything to them, I can't sue them, I can't reply to them, or the account will risk being kicked out, and with that I couldn't get into some college to accept myself.

I didn't ask for food, or new clothes, or even dad to come back, all I asked was to save mom.

See you later, though,

Evan

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LETTER TO 9

From: Evan

For : Jericho

Hi, uncle.

I just want to thank you for the money that uncle sent, we've saved it for the mother's treatment.

Shhh, don't tell him well, it's our secret.

I wrote this letter from the hospital, mom is currently sleeping, doctor says she is fine now.

Anita was trying to find a job and she told me to work even harder because no one helped me when we got robbed, so I had to help myself.

Again, thank you very much for what uncle did for us. I will do my best to raise money.

I've found another job. I became a shopkeeper at night.

I usually work there after I finish washing and fixing the car.

Leo and I have been best friends since we were kids, but sometimes he can't come out with me because Cathy for a while and will be annoying, I feel like a third person. I always end up like a fool because I can't keep up with new things. Because I have to work, I have to study, sometimes I even have to cook for us to eat.

Well, I'm not writing this letter because I'm complaining, I'm writing this because I want to thank you for coming with me to talk about the things that I should have talked to my father, because you can't have a chance to explain it to me anymore.

Mother woke up, I could see her flickering her eyelashes to adjust to the light. I do that every time I wake up.

Oh well uncle, I have to go and make ends meet my family now, like it or not, it was not my choice to grow up and get stuck in this life, this life where I have to borrow money.

I never wanted to grow up, even when I was a stupid little kid. That's the first one, I thought.

See you later, though,

Thank you again,

Evan.