Be My Soldier Forever

Ep. 52

Frans walked to his mother's room. The door's still closed. He looked through a small window and saw a group of doctors doing something to his mother. One of the nurses saw him looking and walked out of the room.

"Sorry, can I help you?" She asked.

"Yes, ada. Tell me, what did you guys do to my mom?" Frans asked.

"Are you his son?"

"Yes, of course." Frans answered proudly.

"Your mom talks about you all the time."

"And I love him so much and I can't let him die. What did you guys do to him?"

"I'm sorry, but I can't tell you."

"He's my mom! How would you feel if your mother was dying in front of your eyes and you couldn't do anything about it ?! You won't know if he'll live or die already some of the doctors I asked but they couldn't tell me either. This is bullshit!" Tears flowed down his face as his voice rose.

"Silent. Sir, I'm sorry, but whoever you are, I can't share that information with you. But maybe I can tell you that we are doing all we can. We'll do anything to save your mother."

"I still need it. Please.." Frans almost fell backwards because he was too weak to hold back.

"Vera Suster! Get in here! Now! We need you!" A doctor shouted from inside.

"Excuse me." The nurse walked back. Frans sat on the wall in front of her mother's room. His face was often in his hands because he was crying.

"France .." He lifted his head and looked at Vania. Frans lowered his head back. Vania sat next to him. "Is there good news?"

"No." Frans put his hand on his hand and put his head on his shoulder. "You think he'll survive?" His voice has hope.

"I knew you'd hold on. I'm still strong." He tried to keep his voice strong.

"Vania, I want to tell you something."

"Yes? What is it, Frans?"

"If you die, I'll go."

"where to go?"

"I'll go back to the military." He said without emotion.

"Why do you want to go? Are you trying to run away from all your problems? Frans, please don't. I'm not against you loving the army and going back there, but at this moment it's not the right time. You will only come out of pain. Everyone will be hurt because you left us like this" Tears streamed down his face.

"Sorry, but I have to." He tried his best not to wipe away the tears on his face.

"What about Bram? He'll lose his role model and now he might as well lose his other mother. He's counting on me and you, and now you want to go and leave us alone here? And what about me? You left me when I needed you most ? " His voice broke.

"Try to be in my position, then you'll understand why I want to go."

"Try to be in your position? I can't believe you just told me that! Look at me Frans, I've been through this! I lost my mother! I want to escape from all this, but I still have responsibilities. I have a little brother who needs me. So I got rid of all my pain and when I lost my pain my father left and I had to get rid of my pain again to stay put for Bram.” He stood up, his face showing anger.

"I want to go back." He let out his voice firmly. Tears were flowing down his face.

"Well, do what you want." Tears ran down her cheeks and she walked back to Bram. Frans had just realized what he had just said and he was thinking 'when can I think before I speak?'. He got up and was about to walk to Vania and apologize but suddenly the door opened. Doctor out.

"Are you the son of Anastasya's mother?" She asked.

"Yes, right, why?" Eyebrows wrinkling.

"I have news."

 

Fran walked towards Vania and Bram. Bram saw it and poked Vania. They both looked at him.

"First, I want to apologize to you, Van. I'm not fair to you. But I might still be gone because ... Mom's gone." Frans started crying. So did Vania and Bram. Frans grabbed them both and hugged them. "I'll be here for you. But still I have to go, not now but later" They all hugged and cried.

"Can we go see him?" Bram asked.

"I think so, come on." They all walked back to the room. 

"Excuse me?" Doctor turned.

"Yes?"

"Can we go see my mom?"

"I'm his son, this is my wife, and my brother-in-law."

"Didn't your mother just….." He asked, confused.

"Yes, but at least we can say goodbye? We don't have a chance when you throw us out of the room." He stood up straight, showing his anger.

"I don't know .." He looked to see if there were other people around.

"We won't be long.”

"OK please." The three of them walked in and saw Anastasya lying down. A nurse covered her head with a blanket.

"Wait!" The nurse turned around. "Let's say goodbye first." He nodded and walked out. Frans walked next to his mother and held her hand. "Bbb .." Tears flowed down his cheeks. He hugged her tightly. Bram and Vania walked to the other side of Anastasya and held her hand. "Mr ..." They all hugged him tightly.

"Sorry, but we have to take him away." Doctor interrupted. They all said goodbye for the last time and walked out. They looked at him for the last time and walked away. They got out and sat in the car for a few minutes. Frans put his head on the wheel, Vania's head was by the window and Bram was lying in the back seat. Vania looked at Frans and grabbed his hand. He looked at their hands and then looked at each other. He tried his best to keep smiling. A few minutes later, Frans put the keys in and they went home.

"Van, take Bram inside, I'll come see you later. I just want to be alone." He nodded and walked into the house with Bram. Frans took the key and walked in his house. He slammed the door and ran to his room. He screamed and took everything he could touch and slammed it. He punched the wall repeatedly. He was so angry that the only woman who was there for him his entire life was gone. It's not fair.The mother is the best person in the world. Happiness is always taken from him, but he remains strong. He never gave up. He doesn't deserve this. He looked at his knuckles, and cried more. "He can't leave! He can't!" She ran to her room, hugged the pillow tightly, hoping it was her mother and fell asleep in her bed. Vania walked into her home two hours later and shouted her name. He walked around looking around and found her in her mother's room, asleep. He walked closer to her and sat on his knees. Take her hand, then kiss her. He tried to stop the tears from falling, but could not. So he got up and walked to the bathroom next to his room. After washing his face, he passed through his room and saw the mess. Walking in, he covered his mouth with his hands. Her tears grew louder, she knew her mother's death was very heavy for her. The room was really fucked.

 

 "Don't it look beautiful?" Vania turned around, shocked to see Frans's confused face.

"I don't think you're doing all this." His voice was weak, but firm. It was one thing about him that he never understood. No matter how much pain he had in his body, he still remained strong. He reminds her of her mother.

 

“I cannot...” He walked to his room and could barely speak.

"Yes, I know, me too." He walked up to her and hugged her. "Is this the right time to tell you something?"

"What's that? Is it good or bad?"

"I think that's good news."

"Then I want to hear at least some good news today."

"OK, hmmm, I want to say..”.

"What?"

"I'm pregnant." She smiles.

"What?" Frans looked at him, surprised.

"Yes, I've been feeling bad lately, so I took a test pack and the results were positive."

"Are you sure?" A smile appeared on his face and for a moment, he forgot all the pain and anger building up in his body.

"I mean, I did some tests, but I think we should go to the doctor."

"You want to go now?" She's excited.

"Yes. But Frans, what if I'm pregnant?" He put his hand on his stomach.

"Then I'm gonna be the greatest dad in the world." Frans put his hand on his.

"Do you still want to go to the camp?" He hoped God would not do it.

"I'll be with you every moment."

"What if I'm not pregnant? Are you still going?" Frans did not answer. "That's what I'm afraid of."

"Let's go. I don't want to start any more debates."

"All right." They walked into the car. During the trip, they did not talk to each other. After they got to the doctor and got into the clinic and took the queue number, they were called after half an hour later. Then the doctor examined Vania

"Okay, so I have the answer." Said doctor.

"Are we going to be parents?" Ask Frans, smiling.

"You're pregnant and you're about to have a child." Vania smiled and happy tears fell on her face. He looked at Frans and smiled. Vania took his hand.

"We're going to have a child." Frans said with a smile.