Be My Soldier Forever

Ep. 68

I've been avoiding Adrian for a week. I feel ashamed and want to avoid. I felt embarrassed and humiliated, I didn't even want to talk to him. After we almost kissed that time, I was always on my guard, whenever he tried to look at me or tried to talk to me, I felt strange and went straight away to avoid him. Alan felt that something was not right with the two of us, usually me and Adrian chatting and joking but, lately we did not talk to each other, Adrian tried to do it but I ignored him. He kept asking me if I was mad at him or not, I was mad at him for trying to kiss me back then

I'm glad that she likes me that way, I don't have a man who shows interest in me yet and erus pursues me to get me, usually after an initial conversation with a man, he said, they'll disappear or avoid me, because they don't like my nature of not wanting to let them get close to me, but Adrian is different from them, he really keeps trying and doesn't give up on me, the diding that I had built so high over the years began to collapse just because of one military man who was slowly stealing my heart.

Alan and Kenny will be out mini mala, go out both leave Adrian and I both at home, I stay in my room, while Adrian watches TV in the living room, and I'll be there, that's our normal routine now.

It was almost seven o'clock in the night that I heard a knock on my door, Adrian coming in with confidence radiating on his body.

“Let's go out. I'm tired all day not talking to you, I'm tired of sitting all day.” He said, I would reject his offer, but he gave me a bold look as if asking me not to refuse him, I gave up and went to my closet, he was satisfied with my will and then left the room.

Ten minutes later, we were already on top of the car, he was driving to some restaurants and I was just looking out the window of my car.

“I'm sorry.” He asked for maf. I looked at him and saw his eyes were so seriously driving.

“There is no reason for you to ask me for maf.” I whispered. Look out the window again.

“Yes clear, I have to. I know you feel upset or angry with me, so I apologize.”

“Stop apologizing, I'm not mad at you anyway.” I said with annoyance.

“But I see you feel that way to me. Sorry.” He said again, I curled my lips and clenched my hand.

“I'm not mad at you! I'm mad at myself.” I screamed, we stopped in front of a stop that had a light so he could see me. He looked surprised to see me yelling at him.

“You don't understand, do you? I'm mad Karen I let you almost kiss me! I'm mad because I let you in my head! I'm upset because I'm starting to like you.” I whispered the last sentence, I knew he heard me, I could feel tears start to stab me in the eye, and my throat started to hurt.

“I don't want to like you.” I choked. “But I did.” I let tears run down my cheeks, no matter what feelings and emotions were open to her and let her hear me.

I could feel the car engine dead and the door open, his strong hands reaching out to me and taking off my seatbelt, then helping me out of the car and hugging me warmly, his strong arms encircling my body. It was like he was trying to help me turn things around, I was crying in his chest. His hand slowly rubbed my back and poked me, his soft lips dropped and he kissed the top of my head, his actions comforting me.

“You also want something?” she asked, she didn't give me time to respond.”I also like you.”

The feeling I felt when I heard his words made me so happy, it was amazing. I grabbed the front of his shirt, pulling myself closer than his warm body. We stayed that way for a few minutes, saying we would draw attention to others, but we didn't care. Adrian bowed to my ear.

“Let's go inside and eat.” She whispered, her breath expanding around my neck, making me geil. He took me to a crowded but not fancy restaurant, but it was suitable for us to have dinner together.

 The two of us were escorted by a waiter to our table and then ordered a drink. After the floater left, we both looked at each other, I started to get scared, questions started popping up in my head. What do we have to talk about? We'll continue to feel awkward like this. I think Adrian looked at the worry in my face, he moved to the spot right next to me and held my hand.

“It's okay Alice, no need to rush and don't worry anymore.” He said as he braided our fingers by squeezing, reassuring me, then raising my hand to his mouth and kissing my hand, my heart felt like it was hitting my chest as he tried to look at me from across the table.

After that, our conversation seemed to flow out of us, we started talking about all the things he wanted to ask, about my favorite favorite, we talked about it most of the night, we don't even eat our food. He made me laugh too, throughout our dates, he kept making me laugh, ranging from silly jokes or funny stories he'd experienced since childhood. It turns out that she has a little sister who is only nine years old, named Raisa who is living with her grandfather who is sickly taking care of her.

As we were getting ready to go and go home, Adrian paid the bill, I looked around the place around me, paying attention to the layout of the restaurant as well as the paintings hanging on the walls, I looked at the door and someone was looking at me, his mouth was ringing and grinning and his evil eyes started to pierce my eyes, I clasped the end of the table, grabbed him. Adrian put his hand on my hand, my head turned sharply at him, his face mixed with panic and worry. I quickly looked back to see the person, but he was gone, my breath was so fast and my hands were shaking, my eyes darting to every corner of the restaurant trying to find where the person was going. My vision began to blur, and I could vaguely hear Adrian calling my name, I felt the pressure on my shoulders and a trembling feeling taking over me, I blinked my eyes but it only made the obscurity worse, the black dots immediately blurred the small scene I had and I found it hard to breathe, I felt my limbs numb and then I was unconscious again.