My Little Girlfriend

98. Bian's Plan On Kinan

The day of departure arrived, now Bian will return to his parents' house. After saying her farewell before leaving for Kinan last night, I don't know why today makes her so much quieter. During the flight, he was only pensive with his facial expression that tended to be uninspired.

"Sorry, sir. Are we going straight to the house, or to the apartment?" Asked Dimas who was sitting next to him.

"We go to my apartment first, because I want to take a short break before I meet papa. Last night I couldn't sleep about it." Bian, who was still pondering, turned his head for a while towards Dimas who was sitting next to him.

"Good."

The conversation between the two was interrupted, and the atmosphere again became quiet between them. On his way back home, after almost more than 3 months he was in the city, for some reason his heart felt uncomfortable when he left the city.

The conversation he had with Kinan yesterday, seemed to keep Bian in mind, until it kept him out of focus. The sentence he kept thinking about was about the statement Kinan told him, which was about marriage.

A wedding? Hm...

Bian continued to reflect on the marriage during his trip back from the city of Jogja.

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He wants to enter the age of 30. The age where it is mature enough for him who is now well established in work. Having never had a story with a woman before, the wedding plan had never crossed his mind.

Because he continues to be together with his two friends, and focus on college and his work, making Bian not think about his future plans. Because to get the person he likes, he chose to improve his position by stabilizing his profession first. However, his steps turned out to even keep him away from people he liked, until finally ended with a clap of one hand.

When his feelings of joy were unrequited by Adel, who was his friend from childhood, had made him think he would not be able to like someone again, because his feelings at that time he believed were so sincere, he was so sincere, moreover, he had been waiting for an answer from his joy for quite a long time. However, suddenly Kinan's presence could make him change his view. With the identity of Kinan, who is his little girl friend who he knew first, has been able to bring himself closer to Kinan and reopen his feelings that had been hurt because of his unrequited feelings.

Which makes him finally find out about the meaning of the difference in his likes on Adel and also Kinan itself, which turned out to be quite different meanings and feelings. Although the feeling was too late he knew because he still did not believe his own feelings, but so knowing made Bian more sure of his feelings that he had doubted it.

"I really like Adel, but I just found out that I don't love him."

In his reflection, he recalled his feelings of joy to Adel, who he used to like so much and waited for an answer from him. However, he did not think that it was not the love that he had been thinking about all this time. He likes it, but on the one hand he doesn't want it.

"Any, when I thought it was love?"

He also remembered his feelings for Kinan who had now made him continue to feel thoughtful. Feeling the feeling of longing for the first time in a woman, is a feeling that he believes is a feeling of love, because strangely, it was never felt in Adel first.

"Love? Right, I love him, unimaginable even though I only knew him for no more than 3 months. Can feelings grow that fast, right?"

Although his feelings are so complicated himself, but Bian believes his feelings of interest in Kinan is the real thing and not just a mere curiosity.

"Before that, I had to make sure papa meant to call me back here." His words finally ended his sense of dilemma on his feelings that had been upset.

After a tiring journey, Bian finally returned to his apartment that he had long left alone. He laid his body for a moment on the bed where he slept as soon as he got into the room. Let go of the moment of fatigue, grief and anxiety that is currently engulfing his heart and feelings.

"I'm tired.." He was trying to close his eyes for a moment.

Although trying to close his eyes, but still can not make him fall asleep, and re-open his eyes that are not sleepy.

"Damn, I'm going to take a little nap before I see you." His words began to rise from his sleep while holding his forehead. Feel a little bit of dizziness in his head that since last night can not sleep well.

A lot of things he had been thinking about the night after Kinan's return and since his departure. Unceasingly thinking of the answer from the indirect rejection Kinan had made of him. Especially on Kinan's greatest desire to do marriage.

"Why am I confused? Aren't I just serious?"

Not a few seconds he was excited, but again reminded of the biggest reason Kinan refused so firmly on it. About Kinan who felt a little burdened with his current social status and position.

"He's really too demeaning to himself." Said Bian who was a little dislike for Kinan who liked to humble himself.

"When she became a great woman." Praise him for what Kinan achieved in his youth.

"How can you convince him?" Bian looks back on the continuation story in relation to Kinan going forward.

Married huh? Maybe that's where I can start thinking about it.

Bian chose to get up from his bed, and walked towards the bathroom. After pondering the things that made him upset, he chose to refresh his brain and body with a bath water wash. He decided to immediately meet his parents to discuss the things asked by his father for the continuation of his relationship with Kinan in the future.

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At exactly 8 p.m., he visited his family home. This time he did not come alone, because there was Dimas who was with him. He brought her home to his parents.

"I've given the news to your papa and grandpa's secretary about you coming today." Dimas explained it to Bian.

"OK." Bian's reply was only short and seemed uninspired. As if she had to and refused to go home.

Although he was dressed neatly, but Bian's expression did not look happy enough when he wanted to meet his family. Although his relationship with his family is not too bad, but because of the absence of warmth in it, sometimes makes Bian lazy to go home, and therefore he also prefers to stay in the apartment alone.

"Didn't you ask me why you called me home?" Ask Bian.

"I'm sorry, I didn't ask you about that." Reply Dimas with regret. However, Bian did not seem to mind it and went back to silence.