My Little Girlfriend

108. Guilt

What Kinan was hearing right now felt confusing to him. With Bian increasingly aggressive showing a sense of attraction to him makes him even more in an uncomfortable position.

"Dating? Is that possible?"

Kinan was still quietly fixated on the invitation made by Bian. His body froze, with an expression that revealed a feeling of confusion, but also felt thumping at the same time.

"What's with this, my feelings haven't been conveyed to you yet?" Bian tried to invite Kinan back to talk, seeing Kinan who no longer heard his voice.

"Actually..what do you expect from me? I can't give you anything?" Kinan finally opened his voice after locking his lips that were in a state of shock.

Bian was silent at Kinan's reply.

"Who said you couldn't give me anything? What I wish was that only you could give it to me." Said Bian later.

"I'm sorry, I don't understand what you mean." Kinan was still somewhat confused by Bian's ambiguous words.

"Your heart, I just want it from you." Said Bian who made the atmosphere instantly become silent.

"...."

Kinan was increasingly unable to control his feelings that were increasingly pounding incoherently. His body seemed to freeze, with his expression increasingly misbehaving.

"W-what would you do if I could give it to you?" The confused Kinan ventured to reply to Bian's words, though hesitant and cautious.

While Bian, who was currently in a different place to Kinan, was precisely inside the headquarters, felt a sense of surprise when he heard Kinan's words, even though he was in a different place, it was as if he was getting a positive signal from Kinan, until he subconsciously made him slightly excited with a smile that was suddenly engraved on his lips.

"You ask me what I would do if you gave me your heart?" Said later.

"Yes." Yeah." Answer Kinan.

"You and I will be lovers." Bian said with confidence.

"Is that all you expect from me?" Said Kinan again, as if he still doubted the confidence of the feelings that Bian had aimed at him.

"No, because I want more of it. You see, what do I mean by that?"

Kinan's eyes widened, being so shocked to hear Bian's words.

"I..,"

"How about you live with me for 1 week, then you can know how you feel about me. If you're not interested in me, then I'll back off. How's it?" Said Bian trying to give an offer to Kinan who still looks doubtful.

An attractive offer from Bian, had made Kinan waver, but there were doubts that made him unsure to do so.

"Wouldn't that be a waste of time for you? And it's not profitable for you?" Kinan was like trying to push Bian who was about to get closer towards him.

"You're so cold Kinan, when I've told you my honest feelings." Bian who felt constantly pushed by Kinan, showed his sadness.

"Sorry, sir. But.., that's.I just want you to have no regrets." Kinan felt a little uneasy when he heard the tone of voice shown by Bian through his phone connection. Looks disappointed, sad and a little restrained in anger.

"I think I should meet you as soon as possible." Said Bian, who this time gave a serious-sounding tone intonation.

"We'll talk about this again later, because now I'm out of business." He then closed his phone connection.

And tuut. tuut.., the voice of the phone was immediately cut off. Kinan who heard directly the disconnected phone sounds looked so agitated. His anxiety at Bian's angry attitude towards him could not be hidden in the expression he was making right now.

"Am I putting too much limits on him, huh?" He stared at the phone that was closed.

....

Time goes on, turning second by second every minute. Kinan who was still agitated, continued to look towards the clockwork that had been pointed at 4pm.

"Surprisingly I always stare towards the clock that keeps turning." Her mutter who kept trying to control her still unwell feelings towards Bian.

As the time kept turning, Kinan still felt a bad feeling because of Bian's disconnected phone, making him continue to feel thoughtful with his guilt towards Bian who looked disappointed in him.

"What should I do when I see him?" He said that he thought about his attitude when he had to meet with Bian later.

"Should I call her back?"

Kinan looked increasingly unsettled at the thought of Bian, as it was his first time in this situation.

"If I call him, what will I say to him?"

Kinan sighed in frustration at the thought of his guilty feelings. For a moment he realized something, in the words of Bian who wanted him to try to live first with him for a week.

"I couldn't do it any more, for fear of playing it." It was his words that finally closed his mind.

Resuming his work that is still piling up to slightly reduce the burden of his mind by shifting himself to the work he is doing. Although the anxiety still followed his feelings, Kinan, who was full of responsibility, remained focused until the end to finish his work.

Until time goes on, Kinan tries to focus on his work, without realizing that the day is getting darker.

"What time is it?" His words were staring at the direction of the clock in front of him and seen the clock has shown at 6 pm.

Kinan began to tidy up his belongings on the table. Before leaving the hotel, he headed somewhere first to put something down. The place he was headed to was the room Bian used during his stay at the hotel.

With something on both hands, Kinan headed towards Bian's room. Because it was dark when he arrived, he tried to turn on the lights and immediately walked towards the table and beside the bed, to put a room fragrance before he finally stepped away because his task was over.

However, upon opening the door when it was about to come out, someone shocked himself who suddenly stood in front of the door. That person is none other than the owner of the room. Bian who had come suddenly and without prior notice had shocked Kinan who saw him.

"Sir, Bian." Said Kinan with a surprised expreai.

"I'm lucky to meet you now." Bian said along with his simple smile looking at Kinan who was standing before him.

"Can I come in?" He said to Kinan who was still glued.

"Ah, sorry, please come in." Kinan, who was still quite surprised by Bian's presence, tried to give Bian space to enter the room.

"Can we talk for a second?" Bian's hand restrained Kinan who was about to leave.