My Little Girlfriend

42. Getting Angry Without Aware

Of love? isn't that feeling present when we miss him even when we don't meet him? Feeling happy just by imagining it? and feel beautiful even if you just think about it? Why is there pain every time you have it?

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In his study, with a few piles of files waiting for him in front, Bian was again stuck in his confused mind. Although trying to stay focused on his work, again Bian thought of the words Dimas.

"She said, is this a gift?" Bian's grin was in disbelief staring at Dimas's bullpen, "Are they that close, to be able to share gifts?" He said grunting annoyedly at the bullen, "Wait, why am I so upset, huh?" Said awake.

Bian just threw Dimas's bullpen that he was holding. Snorting in disbelief at his sudden sense of regret.

As he was feeling troubled by his thoughts, a message entered his cell phone. The successive messages from Adel who again asked him about it and what he did today, really made Bian inexhaustible with Adel's attitude.

"It's totally unpredictable, isn't it?" He muttered looking at the screen of his phone, and thought with an unusual attitude Adel.

Bian stared at the old screen of his phone, looking again at the message Adel sent for him. After pensively staring at the screen of his phone, Bian tried to reply to a message from Adel.

Put his phone back on the table, and resume the unfinished work. Placing the files in front and side of his seat still looks a lot, which looks like it will make him come back overtime today.

"It looks like it'll be overtime again today..." His sighs at the pile of his files.

Although a lot and a little complaining earlier, Bian remained focused on his work, because the responsibility is more important than his complaints. Because things like this are part of her daily routine.

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Tok. Tok.., the sound of knocking twice from outside his room now, again stopped his activity. He just stared straight at the door, without trying to open it or approach it.

"Sorry sir, I brought you lunch." Said from outside by a female staff who was carrying food for her.

Hearing this, Bian tried to stare at the watch in his hand which had shown almost 1 pm. He almost missed his lunch hour again. Because of this, Bian immediately let the staff into his room.

"Are you told by Dimas to bring me some food?" Ask Bian who is still sitting in his chair, to a hotel staff who is putting food on the table in front of him.

As if already understood with Dimas, with Pekanya Bian can know that the food was brought because it was told by Dimas, because considering he who did not order anything before.

"real sir. Mr. Dimas told me to bring you some food, because he was worried you'd miss lunch again." Obviously the staff.

"Well, thank you then. But.. did you bring coffee too?" Tanya Bian tried to walk towards the table.

"Ah sorry, I didn't bring it. If you want, I'll make it and bring it here soon." Said the staff feeling guilty not bringing the thing Bian wanted, and immediately offered to make coffee for him.

"Can, please huh? because my head's a little dizzy, so I need it now." Reply Bian.

"Well, I'll make it soon and deliver the coffee to you." Said the staff resigned from before Bian.

When only alone, Bian stared at the food that had been prepared for him with a flat expression. From his expression like reluctant to eat it. Even so, he remained seated and tried to eat the food that had already been prepared for him.

"I don't really have appetite anymore." Said Bian staring at the food in front of him. However, because it was prepared for him, inevitably he tried to eat it. Although only a little eat the food, leaving quite a lot because it is not tasteful.

"I appreciate it bringing me food, but all I need now is coffee." He said he finished his meal.

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"The answer is short and a little bit cranky, not like him." Her speech felt chaotic with Bian's change of attitude. "Is he still angry that I rejected him?" Reciprocity.

Adel felt frustrated himself when he thought about it. He remembered his meeting with Adnan a few days ago just after Bian left. He recounted all his complaints to Adnan during Bian's departure.

Unlike when he went to Canada, somehow this time more sad and painful, because Bian who did not say goodbye to him before leaving.

Not only Adel, but now Adnan is still thought of by his meeting with Adel in the cafe after Bian's quick departure to jogja. He still did not expect things that he had never imagined before, not in accordance with his guesses and predictions that assume that Adel and Bian will soon unite as a couple.

At that time, he left the two of them to give them space to chat more closely, but apparently did not get any progress on their relationship until now. Makes her feel weird on her own.

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Flashback meeting

"Nan, it looks like Bian is mad at me?" Adel put on a sad face in front of Adnan.

"Well! why do you think so?" Adnan said he did not understand, because considering yesterday they had just met and expressed feelings for each other.

The two met again at a cafe near Adnan's office. Although his heart was still sad, because it still could not accept the relationship of Bian and Adel, but Adnan still came when Adel called him to meet.

"I haven't answered her feelings yesterday, because it's possible she's angry with me, so today she just left without saying the same to me." Adel said he was sad.

Adel's words certainly made Adnan surprised, because he did not expect the answer.

"You haven't answered? why?" Ask Adnan curiously.

Adel quietly got the question. "You think I can answer that, if you say the same thing like this. I'm so confused." Adel looked at Adnan.

"Well.." Adnan understood what Adel meant. Because Adel must be confused to get a confession from his two close friends at the same time, "But... aren't you like the same Bian?" Adnan.

"Well, what do you mean?.."

"I mean, aren't you more interested in Bian huh? is that why you waited for him all this time? But..why didn't you answer yesterday, when Bian expressed his feelings again?.." Adnan was astonished.

Adel fell silent, he could not answer Adnan's question, because he also felt confused by himself.

"That's because I don't want to lose you both." Answer then.

After hearing Adel's answer, Adnan thought that Adel thought of himself and Bian, so until now he did not answer the feelings on one of them, because he did not want to lose both.

"I get it, but Del, you don't have to think about my feelings or Bian's, just do it with your heart, I don't mind." Adnan said, "If you like Bianpun, I have no problem. My feelings for you, let me take care of it myself, so you don't have to worry.." He tried to accept it with a smile.

The flash is still ringing in Adel's heart. After Adnan said such a thing, made Adel rethink his feelings for Bian. However, not to forget he also thought of Adnan who was always beside him.

"I have to how? Bian or Adnan? they're equally valuable to me?"

Adel threw his phone over the chair, shuffling his hair in frustration at both problems. Right now, he was even having trouble contacting Bian and Adnan. After the departure of Bian, and his last meeting with Adnan a few days ago, made it like the two were keeping a distance from him, even he was difficult to just contact them.

"They haven't forgotten me, have they..?"