My Little Girlfriend

87. The New and First Thought

At 10 p.m., they arrived in front of Kinan's boarding house. The awkwardness had approached Kinan who wanted to enter his boarding house.

"Thank you for taking me home, sir, then I'll go inside." With a slightly slow tone, Kinan looked hesitant when he said it to Bian who accompanied him to the front of his boarding gate.

"I'm sorry for taking up your time into the night, but thank you for coming with me today." Said Bian staring at Kinan's face in front of him.

Kinan did not reply, he only nodded in response to Bian's words by turning his gaze to Bian who was currently standing in front of him. For a moment the atmosphere between the two became quiet and quite awkward with each other. In the spotlight of the boarding lights that are highlighting the two at this time, there is confusion that strikes those who are now trapped in an atmosphere that is quite advanced.

There are no sounds and sentences spoken between the two who are now just standing still facing each other, causing a little uncomfortable and confusion for themselves. Kinan tried to look at Bian who now turned out to be looking at him closely. Highlight the eyes that are now staring at him like piercing into his eyeballs. There was a momentary pause as their two eyes faced each other.

"It-it-it's. Then I'll go inside first." Stuttering at the sight of Bian and at the look of Bian's eyes on him, Kinan tried to get into his boarding house immediately.

"Em. Come in, it's night too." Replied Bian who gave Kinan permission to enter his boarding house, although the look on his face seemed reluctant to let Kinan go, because his expression that shows as if he wants to say something but he holds it and prefers to let Kinan go from his face.

With a slight look down on Bian's goodbye sign, Kinan entered his boarding house after hearing Bian's reply. The two eventually separated, after spending time together for the rest of the day.

From morning until midnight, the feeling of the two seemed to be made to continue thinking and feeling a confused feeling. Both for Bian, and for Kinan himself.

Everything was all new and first for Kinan, as well as for Bian himself. From the kiss, the feeling that kept bothering her, to the heart that kept her anxious was new to her now.

Bian did not stop thinking about Kinan, so often he worried unconsciously, to do things that were out of his control. Like when he suddenly kissed Kinan to make sure his feelings were things he really never imagined before. While doing so, his chest did not stop pounding and continued to tickle his heart. Something very new to him continues to haunt his mind, making him even more confused.

"What feeling is that really?" Bathing at the new thing he felt. Something he never felt before, including when he was with Adel before.

Bian became reminded of Adel, when with Adel he never experienced this feeling, so he was so curious about Kinan that he did not stop to think about it. There was a pounding in his chest, so it was difficult to control his own way of thinking.

Although now he already knows the answer to the feeling of urgency, but he still does not stop to calm down, considering his feelings that have not been avenged, plus the feeling of longing that continues to haunt his mind when he does not see Kinan.

"I think I'm crazy." Bian's grunt was currently in his hotel room.

With his long breath and the shirt he was still wearing, he sat limp on his bed with a facial expression that showed he was thinking about various things, especially about the meeting with Kinan earlier.

He who had just returned from Japan, without changing his clothes first or taking a short rest, he immediately looked for the existence of Kinan upon arrival at the hotel. Come to his boarding house, and take him on a road together. There were many surprising things in this one day, about him suddenly kissing Kinan just like that, without the prior consent of Kinan, he said, he who is jealous of Bayu who is close to Kinan and he who returns to express his feelings to invite Kinan to date. Remembering that would make Bian could only ruffle his hair, then lay just like that on his bed.

"Crazy.." Her cap that gave up would be the humiliating attitude she felt today.

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No different from Bian, Kinan also experienced a feeling that was as confusing as Bian felt at the moment. This is the first new thing for him. About the first kiss he finally did at his age, then about Bian's overt attraction to him, and on his own feelings that now feel confusing. Everything he experienced today was new to him, and again, it was a matter of great burden to his own feelings, especially regarding Bian's expression of feelings to him.

Until this moment, Kinan was still wondering what happened to him that felt like this dream. Every waking from his sleep he hoped it was just a dream, but when he knew it was not a dream, he made his heart again feel anxious and unsettled.

"What do I have to do now?" He was in a dilemma with what he thought.

He did not stop thinking about the events that he experienced all day with Bian. All are still imprinted in his memory and it is so difficult to forget him from memory, especially on the kiss that Bian made to him while in the library, also on the invitation to courtship from him that so surprised him. Not to forget at Bian's request to her, who asked her to call him sister if only two, as he did while in the orphanage first.

"How about this, I'm confused.." Kinan did not stop feeling a dilemma about it.

He wanted to forget it and think of it then, but everything felt confusing to him. Everything feels new and first for him, making it so difficult to make a decision.

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There is turmoil in the chest, causing vibrations that exist. It feels tickling, pounding until it is difficult to explain for both.

Foreign feelings, confusion, dilemmas, and difficulty sleeping are things that mess with the feelings of two hearts that are now being hit by the same turmoil.

All is new to both, so both are so difficult to find answers. Can only guess, feel, and expect it, but it does not make both feel happy and calm. Keep looking until finally the disaster was finally answered.

Of love? Isn't that the answer?...