My Little Girlfriend

105. It's OK, It's Love

Kinan covered his mouth with both hands when he saw the contents of the sentence from the novel he was reading. Surprised, fixated, in disbelief and hard to accept the feeling when looking at it in person. A sentence that so pierced his heart and feelings, that immediately made his body feel creeped.

"No way.." Kinan tried to deny the sentences he saw and read.

His body suddenly reacted, as his chest trembled uncharacteristically. Trying to catch himself, Kinan took back the book he had thrown earlier. Read him again a sentence that made him feel uncomfortable, because it looks so realistic to what he is experiencing now.

"It's just a story, so there's no way this is true." Trying to convince himself that it was not true regardless of the sentence he read earlier.

A thumping feeling, always remembered by his distant figure, and felt a strange feeling of not seeing his figure was love, right?

"Love? That's not possible."

Kinan could not believe that what he was feeling was a feeling of love. What makes him so hard to deny his own feelings is because of the figure of Bian himself, who is his own superior.

"This must be wrong! right, it's not possible that I could be like that, sir Bian?" Kinan continued to deny his feelings for Bian who he had just realized after all this time trying to find answers to what he was doing. After trying hard to deny it, Kinan was sitting limp, imagining in the future if he met Bian later.

"I have rejected it. Why do I feel this way." Returning to reality, Kinan recalled back to the rejection he had done of Bian pepper before.

"But this is the first thing I feel." However, when you think back about him feeling in love for the first time, making him back so upset and dilemma. Happy because he can feel the feelings that other people usually feel, but suddenly become sad when he feels feelings for people who look difficult to reach.

His feelings reawakened at the boundary between himself and Bian. Having previously only thought about his own feelings and now having clearly known his feelings for Bian, did not make him feel relieved, it was increasingly dilemma.

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Loving and being loved are certainly not the same, the feelings you feel will be a little different. Being able to love someone is a joy, but being loved by the person we love is more than happy. Because when we love someone, the ending is not necessarily in accordance with what we expect, because loving someone is not as simple as the sweet sentence.

When loving someone, what we feel is a thumping feeling, while hoping that the feelings of our loved ones are the same as what we feel. Although we hope, but we can not force the answer. Thrilling, but also feels so difficult, because getting the heart of our loved ones is not an easy thing to do.

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You said you loved me. Then prove it to me, so I can see your sincerity in me.

The words he saw while watching the movie with Adel, just kept thinking in Bian's mind. Makes him continue to be unfocused because he thinks about his sentence.

"Bi, what the hell are you doing? Just been quiet?" Adel asked when he saw Bian had not touched the food he ordered.

"Oh, this is to be eaten, really." Bian, who woke up from his daydream, refocused on the food he ordered.

"You're the boss of me."

"Eh, why did you say that?" Bian immediately looked towards Adel who was sitting in front of him.

"You're not excited about it anymore." Adel protests with a frown.

"Ah, no. Maybe it was the effect of the movie. I'm still a bit in shock with the genre." Said Bian with a little bit of malaise when he saw Adel's expression that looked sullen, although he had to lie a little to calm Adel.

"Is it really because of the genre of movie we saw?"

"Yes, really. You know I rarely watch movies." Bian said that he did not lie about himself, who rarely watched movies.

"Yes, it looked so good when you were watching." Adel, who was persuaded by Bian's explanation, chuckled at Bian's expression while watching a romance genre movie.

"Yes, so shocked, it makes my body goosebumps."

Suddenly Bian fell silent when Adel discussed his feelings.

"Never, right?"

"Eh." Adel gave a surprised expression as Bian answered his sentence.

Adel who was still confused, could only look at Bian who was eating his food. The corner of his heart felt like something was wrong.

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The two walked back after finishing their meal. Back to the original destination of those who want to shop for the needs of Adel's birthday event.

"Bi, are we going in there yuk?" Adel pointed to a store that sold various supplies for the party.

"You go in first, I'll follow. I'm going to the toilet for a minute."

"Oh, that. Yaudah, but not for long?"

"Ok, just calm down."

Bian walked in a different direction to Adel. Like he was in a hurry, he accelerated his foot. While Adel, choosing to go into the store and look around the contents of the store.

"Duh, stay here, I have to find a gift for Adel later." Bian, who was still not looking for a gift for Adel, decided to buy it now. Because he still doesn't know when there will be time.

"Necklace, huh? But, which one?" When he was in the store, he was confused.

Although he was confused, but because there was a recommendation from the store clerk made Bian feel helped.

"Thank you." Said the one who had found the necklace he liked. And chose to put it in his pocket, so as not to be seen by Adel.

Bian kept his promise to Adel after 10 minutes he left Adel.

"Kok, long time Bi? I almost wanted to find you." Adel who saw the whereabouts of Bian was seen asking for his late arrival.

"Ah, it was the wrong way." Reply Bian a little looking for an excuse.

"Well! how can?" Adel looked at Bian with a confused expression.

Duh, I don't think I'm good at lying.

"Em., yes, you can. I'm already here, aren't I? Oh right, you got what you need, haven't you?" Bian tries to distract Adel from asking him questions.

"At that time, just send it to the house."

"Oh, where are we going now?"

"Emmm.. Where ya? Oh, we're going to the yuk boutique, I want to see the dress I want to wear later at the party all I want to try also if the style is ready."

"Ok, let's go now, before it gets stuck."