My Little Girlfriend

46. When Hearts Churn

I want to see her again, because then I can return the necklace that was given to me first.

The sentence was still clearly ringing in Bian's head. Arriving at the hotel, he kept thinking about that sentence. At Kinan, and their little interaction just now. There was awkwardness, but on one side he also felt something stirring in his heart.

"So, I was really just out of curiosity. But, why..." His words touched his chest with a strange feeling.

It seemed like Bian realized at his strange feeling today, he didn't even expect to be that brave to say hello and even drive him home, just because he was ignited by the story from Dimas.

"I've never been like this before, why am I like this now?" He muttered strangely and paced back and forth confusedly to himself.

When he found out that Adnan also liked Adel, and left him with Adnan after he went to study business, not once did he behave like this, although the anxiety sometimes exists. However, even though it was far away, the communication between them remained smooth, therefore he was immediately able to overcome his anxiety.

"What exactly has my tribe not been that big, huh?" He was confused after thinking about it. "Ah, I don't know, I'm confused right now." The link no longer cares.

Throwing his body on the sofa nearby, daydreaming in solitude and remembering the meeting with Kinan earlier.

"She just wants to see me again, because she wants to return the necklace? did I ever say that before, huh?"

Bian did not remember ever saying that to Kinan, just remember it so that Kinan kept his gift necklace.

"If it's been returned, won't he see you again?" Given that, somehow made him not like and also upset.

...

In line with Bian, Kian was also being overwhelmed by feelings of confusion in the face of his attitude earlier. Presumably, Bian's attitude had surprised him a little.

"Why doesn't he want his necklace returned now? and I just took it from kosan?"

Kinan felt confused, as Bian was reluctant to accept his necklace now. Also remembered the attitude of Bian who suddenly approached him, even drove him home.

"When my bike is okay, actually why is he like that?"

In his cost, Kinan couldn't help but think about Bian. Recalling he felt a little strange with his puzzling manner. He also became reminded of the question from him about the meeting back with his older brother knew him first, who was none other than himself.

"That's all with that kind of expression, makes me awkward and embarrassed. I swear, I was really confused." He mumbled with shame.

Looking slightly flushed, he held his face with both hands in shame to remember, at the intense gaze Bian had made on him earlier.

"Conscious Kinan, what are you thinking, you.." Pat him, on his face to wake himself up so as not to think too far. "But, I'm really happy to see her again, just now feeling confused because of her status." Continue with a moody mimic.

...

"Why do you say I'm family?"

"So big brother is family, do you not like being Kinan family?"

"Oh, not really. I'm happy to be a family to Kinan."

"Well, since you've become family to me, I promise you that one day I'll give you a gift if you meet again, like you gave me this necklace." He said while showing the kalaung he wore.

"When that? can't it be the present?

"If I don't have money now." Moody speech. "How about when I grow up? when I have my own money?" Say it again cheerfully.

"really? okay, I'll make that promise later."

...

"It seems I was wrong. My feelings for you were only a brother. Sorry."

"Sorry, Del. I don't seem to have any feelings for you anymore."

Adel awakens from his sleep in the middle of the night, because of a nightmare that comes and shows his two friends, Bian and Adnan stop to meet and like him again. Even the expression of the two while looking at him, looked angry and also hated at him.

"What dream is that? why do I dream like that? why?" He muttered with a scared expression. "No, that's never going to happen. Right, how could they possibly hate me. But.. What does it mean to not like me anymore?"

Trying to deny it with all his might, because he believed in his two best friends. Adel got up from his sleep to look for his cell phone. With a troubled face, he tried to contact someone. He squeezed repeatedly with anxiety and frustration.

"Damn, why not pick up." He was so upset that he slammed his phone into the bed. "They always picked up the phone from me, but now..?" He said in a nervous tone. "Relax Del, you have to think positively." While pacing back and forth unsettled, Adel tried to calm himself, then he saw the clock that still showed at 2 pm. He smiled "True, it's still night, they must be asleep by now." His words began to calm down.

Like he was not, he could no longer calm down with the situation he was in right now. In fact, he who is ordinary will always calm down and try to find a solution. However, now he was agitated at the thing that had not happened.

It seems that because the two friends who always contact him first, then rarely contact him make him frustrated himself to be unable to think clearly. Because their communication is not as intelligent as before, it is even very difficult to just reply to a chat from him.

"I'll never let you stay away from me. You two should always be by my side." He said with a serious face and an emphasis-filled gaze. "I really can't lose you both." He said again with a sad expression.

After returning to calm, he resumed his disturbed sleep. He quietly went back to sleep and closed his matan. Trying to think positively by not getting out of his anxiety.

......................

Each other churns, and tempests each other. In the hearts of those who are now beginning to change. The once great and blissful sense, slowly eroded away from unbelief.

"I wanted to calm myself down first, so I stayed away from everything." Adnan is now trying to calm his heart.

Likes, love or just plain pleasantries just want everything to be seen clearly, so no longer cause anxiety in him.

...

"I heard from Adel, are you okay?" He spoke to Bian from a phone call.

"Why what? I'm okay, not the first." Answer Bian calmly.

"I'm sorry.."

"Why are you apologizing? did you do anything wrong?" Bian confuses Adnan who makes a guilty note to him.

"The day before you say the feelings, I express my feelings to Adel, and maybe that makes Adel feel guilty and confused, to finally not be able to answer your feelings."

"Well..." Bian understands now. "Stupid, it's your fault what? I'm worried that you like Adel too, but that doesn't mean it's your fault, because your feelings are yours, and I don't have the right to control those feelings. But. for yesterday, thank you." He said to Adnan who gave space for him to chat with Adel in the cafe.

"Emm.." Adnan replied with a little discomfort.

"Because of you, I can have a conversation with Adel. Regardless of the answer, let it be my business, the important thing is that I said it yesterday." The answer is no longer to dispute that.

Although both harbored feelings, in fact both still think about their respective feelings, despite being rivals in romance affairs.

"It seems I'm running away right now." He often did not believe, after thinking back to his chat with Bian a few days ago.