My Little Girlfriend

55. The Meaning of Family for Kinan

What it means to live without love and warmth. Not only must the relationship with the opposite sex, but also can be for friends, friends and family. Because of these two things, at least life is more meaningful and full of color.

"I didn't have a family from childhood. I don't know where my parents or close relatives are. Growing up in an orphanage was an honor for me who didn't have any family. Because even if you don't have family, there are friends who can be a new family to me."

Kinan loved the Bayu family so much, because every time he came to his house was like coming home to his own house. It was like he had two homes to go home in addition to his orphanage.

"I never expected much, but for some reason, the little hope of having a family that I had always been in from childhood, now comes back with them." Inner Kinan refers to the Bayu family. "I am happy even though we are not a real family, but being warmly accepted has been a joy to me." He said in his heart with gratitude.

Like his own biological child, Kinan was so welcomed in the Bayu family, like a child who had just come after a long time wandering. Every time he felt that warm welcome, his heart could not hide its joy, because it could gather in their midst and be a part of them.

Can chat casually, talk comfortably, and joke freely, make a scene that feels beautiful in his eyes, and a little realize his dream of childhood to chat with a family.

The very memorable chat was unfortunately only able to last a short time, because it was taken by the time of night. Almost at 10 pm Kinan was still at the Bayu family home, because so the nyama chatted, making him unconscious if the time had long passed.

"How did you come home after all this time?" Ask Bayu who drove Kinan back to his boarding house.

"I feel so moved, I'm happy." Kinan's reply couldn't hide his delighted expression.

"Although you are now busy working, just come if you really want to come home. Mother, father, Ayu and I will always welcome you, so don't hesitate." Bayu.

"Yes, thank you. Later if there is time again, Kinan will definitely come home. But, Kinan was now happy because he was grateful that his mother and father had improved." Reply Kinan, who also feels grateful for the stable condition of both Bayu's parents.

"Yes, that is also what Bayu is grateful for now.Thank you for coming home. If you see the same mother who is happy like that, make you feel grateful and happy because you came." Say Bayu was pleased with the presence of Kinan in his home.

"Yes mas, I also feel happy to be able to come again after almost 3 months did not stop there, and make ibuk same pak mas Bayu happy." replied Kinan who also felt happy to come to his house.

"Just consider your own house, so if you want to come often also gapapa you know." Chirp Bayu.

Kinan smiled at her, "Alright, I'll come back later." Answer then.

Not feel chatted casually in the car, now both have arrived at the kosan Kinan place.

"I went in first, thank you for being picked up and taken home too." Said Kinan after he got out of the car.

"Yes, Bayu also thanked you, for coming back home. Come in, it's night." Reply Bayu asked Kinan to immediately enter into his costs.

Bayu smiled, and returned a wave of Kinan's hand. As Kinan drifted away, he restarted his car engine, and left his room.

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His heart seemed relieved after his arrival from Bayu's house, to make him not stop to smile when he arrived in his boarding house. It seemed that Kinan was so happy after meeting Bayu's parents, as his expression was filled with a sense of haru and happiness.

"What words can express my love, huh?" He muttered with a smile, while stopping to pat his cheeks with happiness.

The expression made for him at this time was like meeting a lover, but only meeting the family of his acquaintances, who happened to be so close to him.

"Actually I'm afraid I'll love them too much, because I don't know when our relationship will last and stay close like this." Kinan was pensive to think about how he was already comfortable and affectionate to the Bayu family, so he was sad when he could not meet them some time ago. "I was sad when I chose to stay away, but I didn't intend to." He said again, referring to him who had stayed away because of his problems with Bayu's girlfriend.

Since hanging out and mixing with the Bayu family, Kinan felt as if he had a family, because he felt he had parents, brothers and sisters beside him. But the reality in front of him, at least made him realize his numbness, considering he had no blood relation with them. Therefore, he as much as possible to be aware of the limits, so as not to be too prolonged in the comfort, considering he who does not know until when they will remain in good contact like this. Moreover, yesterday's events made him realize that he could not meet again with the Bayu family, therefore he stopped to hope too far and just enjoy the moment that is currently happening.

"In the end, I won't be able to have a family." It was sad for Kinan to think about it.

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Staring at the moon in his bedroom window, Bian was alone in his room, as if he was resting for a moment his body and mind.

What made him get lost in the daydream? To not give an expression in his face, which looks so flat and cold.

"I didn't even realize I was sick anymore." His murmur remained standing in front of the window of his room, while staring at the scenery outside that only looks flickering stars in the sky with moonlight in the middle.

"It feels like here, nobody I know, can't even get out of the room either, because I don't really know this town." His murmur took a long breath.

Dropped him then on his bed. Bian looked at the ceiling of his room blankly and looked uninspired. The same as when he was in Canada. Alone with no close friends at his side.

"Am I going to keep stuck here?" He said to his routine in Jogja. "It feels like dying." His speech refers to the condition of his body that looks unhealthy.

Bian was looking for something in his bedroom drawer, "Damn, it's so dizzy." He murmured a pain to his head as he sat down to look for something in his room drawer.