Let Me Choose

Prabu's Anxiety

After the death of Intan and Dr Imam to Bandung. Dr. Prabu pensive himself in his office room is very comfortable cool is also very clean, but all that does not make him calm, comfortable his feelings are always hesitant and not calm.

Alya's shadow was present before him like a ghost that at any moment could shock him and was ready with his most feared confession.

Alya was a mistake in her life in the course of her love. Why is all this happening? why am I so easy to do that? why don't I think long about the consequences that arise from the momentary act without feeling it?

Only anger was holding him back then.

Aaaaaaah.fuck everything! dr. Prabu wanted to cast away the shadows of those moments that were now beginning to be like parasites stuck to all of his limbs.

I'm a leader, a doctor, an educated man, but why do I act without thinking and calculating? like street people. Where was my patient leader at the time? where was my wisdom then? All outside my logic and my common sense.

Just like Alya who is without calculation and common sense. Indeed, Dr. Prabu did not want to remember it again, wanted to throw it away if possible and remove the name Alya from the travel record of his life.

Retno's smile flashed before her. A smile that was so heart-piercing to his heart probably permeated all the way to his marrow bones, the smile he had always missed and the years waiting for him.

O Allah. Will I turn that smile back into her sadness, into the most painful feeling back for Retno and her family, as well as my family.

Dr Prabu couldn't imagine everything. Yes, just imagine not being able to and in fact Dr. Prabu until now still choose the time, whether until when he can be frank in front of Retno while all that must be done.

Dr. Prabu stared at his lying mobile phone. All his work looks neglected no ammunition that can give the spirit of the moment other than the presence of Retno on his side.

It took about 6 hours for Dr. Prabu to be able to see and meet face to face with Retno. Deep down he wanted to change everything but what the force of all had happened and was now the problem.

There should be good discussion and consultation friends to solve the problem, not Dr Imam nor his parents or Intan his sister, he said, but he needed the courage to be honest with people who like to provide solutions to his life problems his love problem is dr. Burhan and the chief Sister Harni.

Wanting to call and listen to his voice just to release the burden of his feelings, but Dr. Prabu glanced at the wall clock on the sofa of his guests when it still shows at 10:15 surely Retno is still working and she should not interfere while working.

Anxiety surrounds dr Prabu. Just weighing his phone, and finally writing a coincidental message Retno's phone again looks online.

Kangen.

??????

Seriously, I miss...

I-i didn't.

Meanin?

I can't lie, I'm the same miss!

Look out, I'll kiss!

Want to kiss you all menace?

I'm working again, I really miss! You like to make me not focus.

That's not my problem.

But about yourself.

Why get caught?

Alah, the answer is long, not your thumb that wants to answer it on your phone keypad, but your lips that are without distance in front of me.

Yea!

Hii?

Dr. Prabu smiled in response to the message he sent and replied to Retno jokingly as a representation of his feelings. Retno finally chose to close the conversation, maybe start work again or fear being caught again by the work of opening her phone. Retno began to change and began to organize herself and her future now, all seemed so happy.

Behind the happiness shown by Retno there is a pain that is so slicing in the bottom of her heart, why all the problems come when Retno began to look well at me?

It is all unfair, but to whom is this rebellion of the heart directed? The fear of losing trust, the love of Retno makes Dr. Prabu nervous extraordinary.

Tok tok...

The knock must be at the door to disperse the daydreams of Dr. Prabu, hastily dr. Prabu changed his position and attitude as if he was doing something bad to be caught by Sister Miranti, when alone in the room daydreaming just friends lonely and dumbstruck alone.

"Yes, come in."

"Pak Prabu what's the news, he said he did not feel well yesterday."

"Heeee..the new feeling of hearing such pain."

"Masa? it means that the sisters are not following the development of diseases today."

"Yes yes, maybe only Mr. Prabu who was convicted of having such a disease."

"It's still a merry anniversary event at that tournament?" dr. Prabu instead averted the question of Sister Miranti who led to his personal research.

"The more festive, of course, sir, will be the afternoon Mr. Prabu who will go down."

"Yes sister, but I seem to lack spirit."

"Lho why?"

"I'm too tired, and busy with work."

"What work? busy Pak Prabu is still as usual Pak Prabu too busy winning back his heart sister Retno times?"

"Maybe."

"Kan, now it's better to be peaceful sentosa, right?"

"Yes, that's it."

"Why not get excited? will be later in the afternoon also meet the encouragement of Pak Prabu."

"Yes sister. Even Retno wants to apply for a job move here for her good and that's my advice."

"What's? seriously Mr Prabu?"

"Yes, we want to take our relationship in a serious direction again and bring it to both sides of our parents."

"Waaaah, congratulations Mr. Prabu May everything be smooth, also if Retno moves here I can be more free to apologize for yesterday's incident."

"For that matter, Retno understood."

"Once again congratulations Pak Prabu hopefully this time the ideals are achieved and can bring Retno here as well as become the mistress of Prabu."

"Thank you for the nun's do'a-do', may everything be as we hope."

"It looks like there are two doctors in this hospital who are happy again."

"May we be right to look happy, sister, not just pretend."

"Why should you pretend, sir? If we are happy, others should know that if we are sad, we may not have to expose ourselves, because maybe people will feel sorry for us."

"Yes sisters should be. Well I'll always look happy, let people see and see our minds happy."

"Everything should be happy especially later playing in front of the crowd. If dr Prabu wins, surely it must show a happy face, when yes win in a game feel unhappy?"

"Yes sister, how is Retno's attitude now towards Sister Miranti?"

"So far, there still seems to be heartache and hatred towards me, even though I have basically revealed the truth before her, it still takes time for Sister Retno to forgive me."

"Do whatever it is. I am sorry for Retno's attitude towards possibly hating Sister Miranti. Because it's gonna be team work, Miranti's head nurse here."

"Oh, with pleasure Mr. Prabu."

"It's all beyond our expectations."

"That's what I was afraid of from the beginning Mr. Prabu, I was not wrong very much right from the beginning?"

"Yes yeah yeah, I take it wrong."

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