Let Me Choose

Honest setting

"Jeng try to look at me, if you still want to be angry please do not mind but I want you to hear one thing if I am also an ordinary human like you, I have a sense of humiliation, I have a sense of humiliation, hurt and hurt also want to avenge all the heartache, also you should know that we have been waiting and missing each other."

Retno did not budge in the slightest and still did not want to see the face behind her, the face pretended according to her heart and the face full of falsehood, also the face had no heart, heart and others as much.

"But I don't think it's fair to take out my heartache on you, which I still am and always love you, actually, your journey and your struggle in your solitude to walk through life as you tell me and your family until your father is sick I am deeply sorry, it makes me feel even more guilty"

Feeling all the images again in his memory with the words of Dr. Prabu, Retno could only cry and cover her face with her palms, she said, and Dr. Prabu rubbed the base of Retno's arm that was vibrating up and down because of the sobbing.

"I'm sorry, I'm talking about not making a burden on your heart, but I just want your forgiveness and understanding, get well soon I miss you too." dr. Prabu hugged Retno from behind as if to release the burden of his heart that has been weighing on him for so long.

"I want to wipe away your tears with enough happiness over the years you shed the tears."

"Go away! I don't want to see you anymore and I assure you I don't love you anymore, it's over it has become our past, let me look at my own future, I'm used to this not to be so weary of my life, our meeting here is the answer for me to be able to start a life without your shadow and expect again your presence, he said, I resigned from this KKN I want to go back to Bandung."

stammered Retno spoke without seeing Dr. Prabu and kept her back.

"Jeng try to look at me once, I have realized and regretted it will you torture me even longer? should you also torture yourself? till when?"

Retno is still emotionless and explodes when talking and wants all her uneg-uneg heart to be spilled all.

"Rethink everything, KKN do not be a burden again for you whatever you want to continue want not also, if you want to go home to Bandung let me take you."

"I no longer want to be here in the midst of hypocrisy."

"I'll have Dr. Imam and chief nun Miranti apologize to you, I promise! but you have to forgive them because they're the setting I told him to."

Retno turned around to look at the face that had been in her heart all along.

"I've expected it to be Dr Prabu! so heartless, so vile and hypocritical are you treating me and humiliating me, harassing me like in a toy bunny that pleases your heart, and so your spectacle is very pleasant if you don't catch your lies, don't know what else you're gonna do to me, you still want to apologize to me? don't expect all that! go with your spoiled woman that you took care of that afternoon, forget me for ever we make sure we end it all up here!"

"Retno, Ajeng you misunderstand already I'm not talking anymore, because all will be in vain you are still sick, also still emotional."

Dr. Prabu tried to hug Retno but as hard as possible Retno pushed him while wiping her tears, and Dr. Prabu did not give up still gently treating Retno, in his calm with a swab on his shoulder and back.

Dr. Prabu kissed Retno's head without cueing and rubbed her cheeks, Retno was only flabbergasted at her never having time to dodge and evade her all in realized when dr. Prabu opened the door and exited the room.

Retno rubbed her cheeks, wanted to wash them immediately and remove the warm palms of Dr. Prabu on her cheeks, Retno wanted to shout as loud as she could and let out a burden that stuck in her heart, why do I have KKN here? why meet in this way? why is everything like this? aaaaaah.all so annoying all so sickening.

Retno tried to get up and sit feeling upset, and took her phone to look at the clock and call.

"Hey, honey how's it going?" the typical voice of Sister Harni at the end of the phone line there, and Retno just sobbed and so hard to complain out of nowhere she had to tell all the stories so complicated to tell.

"Well, how are you even crying? it's been mengingan, right? please cry first to let his heart airy and do not need to tell a story that is okay I will listen when sister Retno can tell a story at any time."

"Buuuuuu...What should I do?" At last only that word came out of his mouth with a sobbing.

"Retno dear one heal your pain first, if your pain because of the problems you are facing forget and ignore everything first and try to get well and healthy, two do not take any decision in a state of pain, emotion, anger, hunger and fatigue because all the decisions you take will not be wise, and will instead bring regret later, hear what Mother said, Mother, gotcha?"

"Yes Ibuuuu..."

"Mom can't visit you because of busyness, but I understand your situation, I understand all the problems that exist in you you can certainly get through it all, you can get through it all, sorry Retno I already know everything from Dr. Prabu himself when talking with Dr. Burhan here some time ago, for the story is actually quickly healed and reactivates."

"I want to go home to Bandung Bu immediately."

"Yes yes.Just don't think a lot of thoughts of eating and taking medicine rest that's all, don't think about your job so that Mother who takes care of it and Dr. Prabu himself who asked permission for you to Mother yesterday."

"Yes, Mom."

The chief sister Harni is like a mother to Retno, there is a winding journey in the story of a little Retno when deciding to rebel on her family, Retno, and at the house of the chief nun Harni, Retno hitchhiked from her personal and family problems, and worked side by side while studying in her decision nursing at that time, she said, gradually graduated D3 work received at his internship and the recovery of relations with his family now Retno continue his studies until S1 and now again KKN program.

His journey and life story are shared only with Bu Harni and his solitude, a million of Bu Harni's advice is always his priority, but for his personal problems Retno can not agree, from yesterday always Bu Harni advised not to be too loyal to the past start with yourself, do not torture yourself with uncertain waiting, all also have a past and other advice, he said, but Retno remained in her stance and was sure one day would meet with Mas Prabu and indeed not long ago there was input from sister Aisyah to find answers and go to the residence of Dr. Prabu's parents, and all has been intended Retno completed KKN later but this incident changed all the answers of the questions answered already.

_ The author revised this story a bit to make it more imaginative!

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