Let Me Choose

Feeling neglected

Until Bandung time showed at half-eight pm and Sister Harni was a bit surprised when Retno came without preaching it first.

Feeling something is wrong again and sister Harni let Retno take the key and go into her room that has been a few days not visited.

Ecclesiastical times he contradicts his understanding and ego each Retno does not want to keep fighting is too tired of his heart and feelings that have always been the trigger, so far, and also his energy and mind are much drained to travel back and forth between his KKN place and his workplace.

I really don't understand Mas Prabu what you want, against me you are so jealous of every man close to me even as a friend, even if only as a friend, but your turn is so close so close to someone why are you ignoring my feelings why? why does such a deep love make us sick, when will peace come to us whether it takes a few more years or a step more?

Retno laid down on her bed and the uninvited tears always came together in her chest.

Sister Harni who saw Retno was lying down with her shoulders up and down could not see it, a Retno who was already considered her biggest child was sad again to make Sister Harni feel sad too, too, hesitantly wants him to give a little consolation and provide a solution to his problem.

Sister Harni sits on the side of Retno's bed and rubs her shoulders and back.

"Retno Ibu know you're in trouble, if the cry can make your heart relieved please cry first, then, I don't want to interfere in your problems but Mother as a parent just wants to straighten out your problems, what else is hemght...?"

There was no answer Retno just cried like a deep heartache, and looked back at Sister Harni and hugged her.

"Mom only knows you again KKN in the hospital, 1 week to 2 weeks you participate in the tournament enliven the anniversary of the hospital Mother and Mr. Burhan has given waivers to you, you can work out of work while there is a schedule you participate in the tournament, use your total time there as well as possible let you express yourself and hopefully can bring your own good name, that's all I know now what's going on? you come home alone in this sad state?"

"What's my fault, ma'am? why is it that when we learn to rearrange our hearts, each looking for a single confidence in ourselves, each of us has someone who doesn't like my presence?"

Sister Harni smiled still rubbing Retno's back and head, she had caught a conclusion from Retno's sadness this time.

"Retno dear if you are both in love there may have been a writing up there if you should be together. Whatever the obstacles will still be united, but if it is not part of the path of life and your destiny however we strive it still does not belong to us, it is not ours, now face all the problems both solve wisely do not even torture each other yourself do not you even avoid the problem, is not it solved sitting together better?"

There is always peace in every sense of his heart, when he heard the opinion that is not impartial one of the parts of the problem faced by Retno, Retno understood why she was so comfortable when close to Sister Harni.

"Retno, do you understand what I mean, son?"

Retno nodded her head while still wiping her tears, her face looked puffy and her nose reddened.

"The higher a person's social status the higher his ego prestige, and the higher the wind hit him, maybe that's what happened with Mr. Prabu, all cannot be avoided there will be people who love and hate it."

"You learn from the social status that your partner proposes, learn to love and let go."

Retno looked at Sister Harni with no understanding of the meaning of her other words.Perhaps Retno lack of focus.

"Yes learn to love and let your partner become public property at a certain time, Mr. Prabu absolutely belongs to the hospital, belongs to all its employees, and belongs to the community on one occasion of the relief, and yours if you have a family only in your house and room."

Retno was silent as if everything said by Sister Harni hit in her heart, she seemed to have not understood to that extent to look at Mas Prabu and now she understood why for the sake of an Alya who is the son of a mayor, Mas Prabu willingly ignore himself, it is for the sake of his good image and good image in front of his social colleagues and his environment.

"If everyone lives without problems, life will be quiet and all will be stiff and not so dynamic walk this life, he said, so learning to be able to understand your partner is not enough to just love and be loved, without an understanding of each of us."

The roar of the car stopping outside made Retno somewhat shocked and stunned as well, what was that Mas Prabu car that caught up with her? a bit of guilt in Retno who has made the anxiety of Mas Prabu's heart, maybe immediately followed him here but on the other hand it was good that he understood my dislike towards what he showed me this afternoon.

"Who is coming? keep with an adult attitude and do not show anger when the couple is tired again, let the rest first you can talk and forward solutions not emotions."

The door opened on tap, and Dr. Prabu smilingly nodded at Sister Harni who was still sitting on the edge of Retno's bed.

"eeeeehs... Pak Prabu let's come in here by chance Mother again chat with Retno, must be tired ya run out after months on here huh? let me get you a drink first or Mr. Prabu want coffee what tea maybe?"

"So, what are you there for."

"Yes yes, no drinking time guests are not in suguhi?"

Sister Harni moves out of Retno's room and heads to her main house, while Retno also dr. Prabu just silent and Retno turned her face to the wall and I don't know what is in search and seen on her phone so busy not to see the slightest in the direction of Dr. Prabu.

Dr. Prabu also did not dare to tease her let Retno with her position, there is a smile on the lips of Dr. Prabu may feel funny when he saw Retno in a state of anger at him.

Sister Harni came again with two cups of tea and looked warm, and kept it in front of Dr. Prabu.

"Thank you very much Miss Harni."

"Retno, I'm drinking!"

Retno nodded, without looking at Dr. Prabu's face.

"You drink this too, so good is warm sweet tea."

Retno did not flinch with her cellphone as if she did not hear that Dr. Prabu invited her to talk.

"Okay, let's both play cell phones and be safe here."

Retno stared at Dr. Prabu still without talking, and returned to her initial position engrossed with her phone.

Dr. Prabu grabbed Retno's phone and put it in her pants pocket and Retno did not have time to avoid it.

"Take come!"

"Mas!"

"What's? let's go play the phone all night?"

"Reverse!"

"No!"

"Iiiiiiiiih basic nyebelin."

"No need to talk about anything even though I am happy for you but still agangenin heee."

"Males."

"We're looking for food."

"No way."

"Watch movies?"

"Small."

"What do you want?"

"I don't want anything."

"But if you're in the hug?"

"Help aja tuh itchy caterpillars that stick, why did Mas come here who invited?"

"I don't have to be invited, I know the place is coming alone I miss you."

"I'm not!"

"Don't lie to the conscience, it'll all be excruciating."

"If it's not a lie, what does it all mean that is clearly visible in front of my eyes?"

"Retno where should I start to explain to you? please understand my position should I remove Alya and hardik from my side? I'd feel like I didn't know manners and manners if it was until I did."

"Say! am I wrong to feel ignored feeling excluded from your side? I'm sick too Mas, if I were in Mas's position what would Mas do?"

Happy re-in-place😘😍🙏