Let Me Choose

Many do not know about you

"So you're leaving now for Bandung?"

"Yes, Rendra."

"What time until Bandung is not overnight?"

"God willing no, two hours late or two hours and a half have arrived, now half five is still a lot of time."

"Keep your schedule?"

"I'll just wait to win in this preliminaries, I asked the committee and I went down again in the next round one day from now, I have business first in Bandung."

"As a friend I want to take you, but I have to play and the schedule will run out maghrib, I'm sorry Retno"

"Oh, it's okay, Rendra, I'm used to it myself and I've got a problem with my girlfriend again, thanks for the fear of even adding to our pointed problem, I hope you understand ya."

"You sure?"

"Nothing quiet, I just need to introspect each of us and we must see the problem between us with that cold head."

"Well, may there be a way out, it looks like you're the gentle and wise man of Retno."

"Yes Rendra thank you, and don't praise me too much yet you don't know who I really am." Rendra looked at Retno who was a bit embarrassed to get compliments and did not feel good about her heart.

"Come on, I'll take the bus."

Retno and Rendra walk to the front of the hospital, out of its mess and through the long hallway and into the parking lot, and, then towards the front gate of the hospital then out and the two stood on the side of the road and before long the bus that was meant to come Rendra intercepted him, Retno waved her hand with a smile, the bus drove Retno to her destination.

I feel like a fool in front of Mas Prabu and Alya the caterpillar itching itch, I really do not want to see the drama that was shown both, he said, what a hard thing to say and frankly the same itchy caterpillar that we have a relationship. Does Mas Prabu keep the image and good relations with the ruler ignore one hurt feeling ? indeed, all cannot be accepted by Retno and her common sense, especially when the emotions are like now, so avoid all debates, arguments and fuss Retno chose to calm down the best according to her heart.

Retno Anteng himself while looking and opening his phone and all wearing his headset, several times Mas Prabu phone call ignored him, for what ? earlier he ignored me, obviously I was angry, disappointed and hated this situation and his mood was so bad.

Still fresh in his memory when Retno said goodbye, and told his two roommates Ella and Ismi.

"Say want to rest and let it be relaxed when going down the field again tomorrow, why even the way to Bandung is what, what about Pak Prabu and Alya?"

"According to me Retno, it's a small problem and do not exaggerate, cancel what to Bandung ?" Ismi tried to restrain and seduce Retno so as not to go to Bandung.

"Yes, why is it taken by heart?"

"Keep, if I ask your guy what's the answer?" Ismi added.

"Jawab just don't know, or if you don't just ignore."

"Ignore how?"

"Yes Ma'am, we must be held accountable and definitely question the question that is corrupting." Ella was not willing if her best friend was leaving just because of the problem there was a girl who deletin her boyfriend.

"Yes already if it can not be disturbed again, be careful and khabari us if it has arrived and good rest do not forget the day after we become supporters again yes" Ella who wants to send ahead in retno so as not too many questions that average make mumet heart and feelings.

Rendra went back to GOR. Flashing in the eyes of Dr. Prabu and his eyes continue to stalk like the eyes of an eagle find its prey, and in the view of Dr. Prabu like getting a bright spot, he said, Alya and Desty who sat next to him again eating snacks and fun to chat, and from a distance Dr. Prabu saw two friends Retno without Retno made Dr. Prabu frowned, not with Rendra, and from a distance saw two friends Retno without Retno made Dr. Prabu frowned, not with her two best friends Ella and Ismi where is Retno?

"I'll come back later, Al, wait a minute I need to." Dr Prabu said he would come out first.

"Oh, yes doc please."

Dr. Prabu descended to the bottom and walked towards Ella and Ismi.

"His Retno where's La?" Ella and Ismi look at each other and look for the right answer to be conveyed to the giver of the question as said Retno is up to any answer.

"Do you think Mr Prabu doesn't know?"

"Know what that means?"

"If Mbak Retno went to Bandung earlier, and delivered Kak Rendra in the future."

"What's? to Bandung? yes ampuuuun did not say I really want to go to Bandung?"

Wrong itself in the hearts of Ismi and Ella, Ismi and Ella just kept quiet and did not see any more surprise in the eyes of Dr. Prabu because Dr. Prabu had disappeared from his view.

No matter Alya and Desty who saw it from since Dr. Prabu down and approached Ella and Ismi, dr. Prabu rushed with long steps out of the GOR which was again crowded with cheers when Dr. Imam SpOG showed his action brilliantly won his sets and Intan became the most excited on the sidelines fieldwork.

This serious Retno saw my problem with Alya. What is no compromise anymore anyway, all so messy and even go with no message and maybe with his angry feelings.

Retno admitted that she is currently so sensitive and also admitted that her attitude is too excessive ? especially when it comes to his feelings and the one he wants Retno to go far to avoid the commotion between himself and Mas Prabu.

The decision changes at any time that his condition is still not sure of his own feelings, he said, whether this is best for him is best for Mas Prabu and his future Retno wants to reflect and convince himself in his solitude.

What happened before his eyes was unprepared, being at Mas Prabu's side when someone else wanted it, when someone else is so jealous of him when our presence is desired someone obviously makes us uncomfortable.

Wanting Retno dr Prabu to understand and be able to take the right decision can also solve this problem and new Retno may feel appreciated and needed.

In solitude and long waiting has made his heart immune and strong to anything, but for this one discomfort heart dislike people against him want it all straightened out especially Mas Prabu who became the center of the problem.

I'm not a strong man Mas Prabu, I'm so tired I'm so weak I can't keep feeling pressure and right now I want to calm down.

Retno rubbed the tears at the end of her eyeballs, so difficult to create peace in her heart, so difficult for him to get a sense of wholeness that has been long awaited so long separated from Mas Prabu certainly many things that he did not know including his relationship with Alya, and whether with others, or not, and all is inversely proportional to him that no one fills his heart but Mas Prabu and if the person who likes him that's his own problem all have nothing to do and nothing in his heart.

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