Let Me Choose

Does this longing feel as well ?

Retno was laid on the bed in a state of limp dizziness and shivering, Dr. Prabu noticed dr. Panji inspecting Retno.

"It seems that the symptoms of Pak Prabu's thypes, from fatigue, and acute stomach, in the infusion of only the nurse so that there is nutritional intake, in the morning try to eat soft and so that it can enter the drug, so that it can enter the drug, it's okay just limp infusion in a little while longer he can rest."

The sisters return to the infusion of Retno who resigned in his powerless and Retno in his conscious do not understand why Mas Prabu so here? and Retno did not want to see his face, his eyes just closed.

"Anyway, who is Mr Prabu?" dr. Panji looked at Dr. Prabu.

"Oh, uh yeah this is still my family doc."

"Ooooh" Dr. Panji nodded.

"Suster with his friends KKN Retno please rest again Retno let me wait, it looks Retno began to sleep." Dr. Prabu spoke to the nurse and to Ismi and Ella.

"Okay sir, excuse me."

Dr. Prabu looked at the face that had not changed from before, always looking beautiful and attractive in his heart, the figure that makes his life can not go forward or backward is always in the shadow of the figure of Retno who is now lying helplessly in front of him, dr. Prabu kissed the hand that he had always held warmly, and kissed Retno's forehead and stroked her hair that had always rested her head on her shoulders with indulgence, there was pain in Dr. Prabu's chest, there was a lump of regret that was struggling in his bath.

Retno, who is fully aware of what Dr. Prabu is doing, wants her heart to rebel and scream cursing and pushing as far as possible the man who has made her heart bleed, he said, but what is the power now that he is weak in pain, rest is the best thing and can do it now.

Dr. Prabu clasped Retno's hand and once kissed her, only the details of the tears flowing one after another from the end of Retno's eyeball were closed, and Dr. Prabu rubbed it slowly with his thumb.

Retno was not willing to see herself let alone to talk, open her eyes and glanced at her never, let alone to explain all feels stiff and silent silence a thousand languages, he said, but Dr. Prabu quietly waited for her until Retno fell asleep.

The morning before Retno still felt dizzy and the pain in her stomach was weak but the energy seemed to be absent, O Allah, someone must tell Sister Harni that I cannot work today to be allowed.

The deg! Retno saw one figure sleeping while sitting and her hand was still holding one hand, her head was beside her waist, Retno pulled her hand slowly and it was enough to wake Dr. Prabu up.

"Retno you're awake? how's it getting a little better? what's it feeling now?"

Dr. Prabu rubbed and held Retno's cheek, but Retno turned her face to the left side.

"You do not be reckless, last night want to faint too, try to relax and relax your mind, rest well follow the advice of the doctor." want to feel like Retno gushed face dr. Prabu heard his words, from yesterday where to? if you are helpless like wanting to be a hero and pretend to be both selfish and hypocritical!.

"I know I'm wrong, but how long won't you talk to me?"

What's the talk for? to hear all that so much that it makes his heart ache? it is useless and useless.

"OK, I was wrong to treat you, the one word I wanted to say and tell you Retno, I'm sorry!"

"I'm just the same ordinary human being as everyone else, having grudges, pain and everything else, selfishness has taken hold, everyone can't contain it, even though deep down everything goes against my conscience, I admit and tell you I'm still waiting for you and still love you until now Retno!"

The deg! again what kind of words Mas Prabu said is not wrong with ? is he struggling because of lack of sleep? what hypocrisy will be shown to me? where is the woman who took him yesterday? still dare to say I waited for you and loved me? Masya Allah.

Dr. Prabu kissed Retno's forehead and Retno did not have time to dodge, just feel warm mouth and nose of Dr. Prabu on his forehead.

"Rest, I'll pray dawn first."

Retno opened her eyes and saw Mas Prabu's longed back open the door and came out, I want it to feel like Ella and Ismi are going to meet him immediately and get his cell phone to inform Sister Harni that she is not coming in today and maybe for the next two or three days.

"Yes, what's wrong with Sister Retno?"

the voice from there Sister Harni received a call.

"Oh, I'm sorry I'm not Retno but I'm Prabu, I used Retno's phone to convince you, I would like to inform you that Retno today was unable to enter work due to illness and is now being treated for recovery."

"Oh, is dr Prabu apparently? I think the one who called earlier sister Retno, it's okay to rest until it gets better don't think pain is normal."

"Yes the nurse."

"What's the condition now?"

"Much better Sister Harni, the lethargy, and the stomach is acute, so her direction towards the typus also longs and harbors a sense of also seems to be heee..."

"That's easy medicine is in sight."

"There is always the way of the doctor, the spirit yes and do not despair, congratulations on fighting to win his heart back, I entrusted Retno to the doctor also send greetings may quickly heal heee..."

"Yes yes, it looks like the nurse left it to the right person heeee..."

"Yes be the right person for Sister Retno."

"Haaa..please Sister Harni thank you for greeting dr Burhan."

"Yes yes, I'll tell you later."

Dr. Prabu weighed Retno's phone back and opened all the menus in it, starting from the contact clearly no number himself and dr. Prabu enter his own number and in the name love in his own type name ordinary Retno call him "Mas Prabu" then to the gallery there is no collection of photos that are strange just typical photos of women with her friends and her family and messages in the application chat regular with sister Harni also the same other friends.

One file that is joined with other files is a note that makes Dr. Prabu tickled to open it and with one touch only so much writing with the date and time of writing, and so on, if to read everything from the beginning it would take a long time and Dr. Prabu read randomly.

Where are you Mas, do you know only mas is always there in my prayers.

Mas Prabu, the only one who wants to know from you is your news, let me calmly organize my life and future .

Does this longing feel too?

I was thinking what would I tell you Mas, if we ever met? maybe I'm still looking for him.

Am I the only one missing?

I miss everything, Mas!

I do not feel this long journey I passed alone, do I have to end this wait? sometimes I want to let go of this ring but my loyalty and strong love hold me back as if tomorrow we will meet

Sad hearted Dr. Prabu read the outpouring of Retno's heart and did not feel his tears expand and his chest feels tight, we are as feeling Retno, only I was so selfish and follow my anger, I was so selfish, we are both tormented by a longing we cannot realize.

In Retno's treatment room.

"Don't Ella see you ? please try to find again."

"Yet Mbak has been hit a few times still nothing."

"Where is it? try telephon, misscall is there an active dial tone?"

"It was already Mommy."

"Try again, now again."

Ella tried calling Retno's phone and her tone was there and vibrating too but not in lift.

"Try you remember again last night where it was stored, in a jacket pocket or in a bag?"

"I forgot Ella myself."

"Have eaten first so that you can take medicine and think clearly."

"Yes Ella."

"What do you feel now?" Ella while opening the plastic lid of the slurry bowl."

"Still dizzy and limp."

"It looks like it'll heal quickly if someone's waiting like last night."

"Ella! what's that supposed?"

"Heeeeeeee..."

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