Let Me Choose

Praise the heart

Love will bring you back here

Homesickness

Wash off

Take with you the old self

Loving me

What is....

When lies flow, be honest...

"Haaaaaaaa.it looks like the song is roughly a jovial drum fill the space of Retno's heart right now." Ella entered Retno's treatment room while singing the song Dewa 19 and was accompanied by Isti's applause.

"What the heck do you like is there just, do not see the mood of people alone! there is no tolerance and no feeling."

"Yes very sensitive Mbak, actually we are happy Mbak there is a little bright spot from the problems that Mbak faced."

Is it also a time when I am too sensitive to look at something? perhaps from the ingratitude of my heart for the treatment of people against me so far, Retno introspects herself while smiling at the insistence of welcoming the arrival of her two best friends.

"Ssssst..have not previously discussed the other healthy focus point!" Ella rubs and holds Retno's hand and Retno smiles happily at how caring all her close friends are.

"In fact I see Retno's mother already looks fresh like it is, especially in addition there is someone with faithful waiting during the night the faster he healed huh Ma'am? heeeee..." Ismi with a happy face to see Retno who is already a bit too soon, and still want to tease all of you to entertain her goal.

"Everything like you guys imagine, I hate and don't want to talk to her, it's too painful her actions and treatment of me all this time her pretenses to me I really can't forgive."

"Bak don't hate too much because the adage of hate and love is so thin the barrier, and the difference, maybe even no barrier at all, is, sorry I do not want to give advice but rest your mind first Retno Mbak, emotional will not solve any problems, no,

introspection of ourselves, each other's faults and how much we love each other?"

Retno is silent sometimes Ella matures also in thinking and sees her problems so mature and in a sense very wise.

"Just recover quickly and recover again we all rely on Retno Mbak youho to bring the good name of KKN students can also show teeth and can be relied on in this hospital event."

"What the hell is La?" Retno doesn't understand what Ella's saying.

"Yes, yeah, yes, Ms. Retno did not know that this hospital will hold a badminton tournament between employees open to the public and KKN students were also given rations to include their players to participate in enlivening the anniversary of the house this hurts."

"I can't promise Ella, I haven't practiced in a long time and I've spent all my time on work and KKN activities, as well as my condition like this let alone my problems that occupy my mind and energy."

"Alah alaaah.The ordinary and accustomed person does not need old adaptations like those who have not been used to holding a racket, it will definitely be another, with a short training course all is usual again let the spirit heal first Maak Retnonya."

"I can't seem to continue KKN's activities here anymore Ella, Ismi..."

"Ella my problem is not that simple, and other with what you think, so easy you give a solution but living it I can not?"

"What do you mean?" Ismi looked at Retno.

"I will be more tormented and cannot pretend to be ordinary in front of them, if I accept intimidation and punishment for my mistakes I live voluntarily, I accept, I will be responsible for my own mistakes even though I think all my mistakes have been so small, but when I see Mas Prabu with his girlfriend, walking hand in hand and into the room in front of me frankly I can not Ella, and seeing their togetherness and then passing in front of my eyes, I may not be as hard as others see it, I may not be as hard as others see it, and this may be my fragile feeling."

"That means you're still in love then?"

"Honestly I was waiting for him, I still loved him five years or so with a pile of hope, that feeling that I always keep and always nourish with a very longing, but after seeing Mas Prabu holding someone in his arms maybe that was the answer to my question all along, also the treatment that was like revenge on my parents and was released to me what should I do and I defend? all beyond my expectations, do I have to be a strong spectator for them? nay! I must rise to my own future."

Ella and Ismi are silent in grief at Retno's decision.

"Ella, Ismi even if I continue this KKN will I get a grade here? with the director a Dr Prabu who was so vengeful to my parents? also his treatment like yesterday was to me? I'm not sure about all that, I looked at him and guessed that Dr. Prabu seemed to want me destroyed, wanted to fail, not-don't be nice to me too when I was just sick and just pretending to be."

"But Mbak do not be bad to think first, I saw the panic of Dr. Prabu when Mbak fainted in his room, also when mbak vomiting early yesterday, it was, looks like Mr. Prabu's been keeping Ms. Retno outside our mess room all night."

"Ah Ella's time?"

"I'm sure I hit her when I frantically searched for the nurse and the doctor."

"It's been Mbak rest alone maybe the pain of Mbak Retno there is a silver lining for all Aamiin..."

Tok tok...

Dr. Prabu came with a basket of parcels in his hand and smiled so sweetly, only this time did Ella and Ismi clearly see the tall sympathetic face that was handsome above average, wow...his smile was so stunning that it showed white teeth and neat clothes that matched the knitting vest and grooming of today's young executives.

Retno held the hands of her two best friends not to go and wanted to be accompanied, Ismi and Ella smiled at Retno's behavior, and understood the anxiety of her heart, though her soul was in uncertainty of reality.

"Where is it still limp? the morning meal did not end, now the lunch must be finished, there is already food, want to eat alone? is his friend the bribe or am I the bribe?"

Retno just kept quiet and covered her face with the tip of her veil, Ismi and Ella held back a laugh.

"Hi hai.ini meal time, a nurse does not like to be smart to tell the same patient, his own turn to be sick does not want to follow the rules, a nurse does not want to follow the rules, nih the fruit in the meal is also not a display want in the treatment room continues or want to heal?"

There is no choice for Retno but to eat alone with at the company of Dr. Prabu, because Ismi and Ella know themselves and are directly on the way out, by turning his back to dr. Prabu Retno eating his lunch rations and all spent either because of emotion or indeed hungry or also let dr. Prabu quickly go.

"Heeeee... then it must be healthy again, nih drink it, and this medicine" want it to feel Dr. Prabu turned Retno's body and looked at her face deeply just to treat her longing all this time, but in the end, he was afraid even Retno inflamed again and revolted.

It must be patient and patient so that all can clearly also understand the problems that exist.

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