Let Me Choose

Let me choose

"Retno, what are you going to do now? tell me to think about the bad good"

"I'm confused Mom."

"It is better to tell your husband about your pregnancy in the beginning so as not to be slanderous."

"Defamation? what slander is Ma'am?"

"Retno, you are currently in a separate state, separated by time and space, your existence away from your husband continues if you suddenly one day come pregnant in front of your husband Mother is afraid to change the view of your husband, he said, although I don't think that's possible but we have to anticipate everything, do you understand?"

"I don't know Mom, but if it's best to tell Mas Prabu that I'm pregnant with her child. But it doesn't change my mind to stay here until I finish my final assignment."

"Retno, hopefully with your pregnancy change things up better and find the best way out of your problems."

"I've decided, Mom."

"Decide what?"

"I let go and allowed Mas Prabu to marry Alya, so to speak.

That would be the greatest sacrifice of my love for Mas Prabu."

"Do you forgive him, son?"

"From the beginning I've forgiven her Mom, loving someone we should be prepared with her sacrifice, isn't that Miss Harni?"

"Retno, your heart is so strong, you may not be like you either."

"Mother, I'm trying to accept all of this as my devotion to a husband, because I wish there was some good in my sacrifice."

"There will be wisdom behind all this, my son, I will give you hope."

"May Mas Prabu know more and more what my love for him is like."

"Retno, I know your heart as a woman can both read and feel your feelings, but we can choose what our heart wants."

"I'm not a perfect person either, ma'am, but I want to be able to love perfectly no matter what my husband's circumstances."

"How lucky a Dr. Prabu can have you Retno, I can't imagine how your husband responds when he hears about your pregnancy and also your willingness to be honeyed."

"If I don't feel it, maybe I won't let go, however much the opposition in my heart all loses to one sense of sincerity."

"Mommy seems to have to learn the same as you Retno."

"Mother, I'm pregnant, my son wants to have a father figure, and I don't want to share my household conflict with my son from the beginning still in the womb, she said, and I also want to live this pregnancy in peace and sincerity."

"Well Retno, you have found the true meaning that maybe later tonight I will tell this news to your husband."

"Yes, Mom."

"Is there any other message you can send later?"

Retno shook her head, her heart struggling with a variety of feelings that are so heavy, how not the first pregnancy will be carried out like this, in the atmosphere of household problems that are still entangling it, he said, no husband or parents also in-laws can only share with Mother Harni who incidentally is no one herself.

His heart is so longing, a place to lean and pamper, a place to complain all the worries of his heart, a place to anchor all his misery and love so deep.

"For health, also think about the fetus will be your child, do not follow reluctance, eat and rest should be enough."

Bu Harni rubbed Retno's back and left Retno's room.

Retno just kept quiet, thinking back to what her decision was right? what is said according to his heart, let him fight in his heart, against the ego and a sense of rejection.

Retno opened the laptop and found a new e-mail, shaking her heart as she began to browse the words and sentences that Mas Prabu strung for her.

A red moon was falling over my head, in the endless sky.

I swing myself lonely steps,

I enjoy a lonely night together.

The wind that blows me throws a taste for you Retno,

I don't know when your body will be real in front of me.

Millions of longings for your charms I can't turn, I can't turn away,

There's only this pain of remembering you.

The side of my heart room left no man, no man,

Waiting for the puja's apology

Retno is the only one who reigns in my heart.

- I so crave you.

Retno rubbed her tears and stroked her flat stomach, is there a sense and feeling that I am pregnant Mas?

Why am I so crybaby? is it because of a pregnant woman like this?

What was Mas Prabu's response when Bu Harni later informed him about his pregnancy?

Retno keeps thinking whether her decision is right or wrong to tell the pregnancy and allow Mas Prabu to marry Alya?

Longing sentences continued to revolve in his brain and head, how honest a word from his heart as well.

Mas, there is the fruit of our love in my womb, I will become a Mother, and Mas will become a Father, a life that changes our status, will give us a new predicate.

Yep! I have been right and made wrong decisions, but Retno imagines a life that will be on her way, there will be another woman in her household really unimaginable, all still blurry, all still blurry, would his willingness be the same as reality if one day it were real?

Will he be able to share? really, all of that has not been imagined as to what it will be. And what a choice he had before him and would face him was so heavy.

But the love and the feeling of his heart need no reason to remain in its purpose of loving, and only his heart can accept however much the whole world condemns him.

Retno is self-conscious no matter how much we hate someone, do not hate it too much because it will backfire.

Like Retno's hatred for an Alya, who looks very licked, and look for face also look for excuses and opportunities anyway will eventually become honey.

Retno could not far think when Alya really became the honey, Retno just resigned how the water flows and bring it to the estuary of what life will be like.

The one who is happy now and will make it strong and strong is the fetus that grows in his womb the fruit of love himself and Mas Prabu, proof that the taste remains to this day in his heart.

Happiness will I achieve in my own way, Let Me Choose the path that others think is wrong, but I think this is the choice of my heart.

I want to hear immediately from Bu Harni what Mas Prabu heard about my pregnancy and permission to marry Alya.

Deep in the corner of my heart I miss you Mas, you are mine, you my good husband is bad still a husband that I must cover all his shame.

Retno, there's no demand from you right now, because I'm self-aware, too many mistakes I've made.

But I won't get tired of saying that I miss you so much, and I can't live without you.

Remember a little story and struggle of our love until we are at this point, although all that will not change your decision.

Whenever I'm gonna keep hoping, just sorry you're the one I'm waiting for.

- Missed you

I miss you too Mas, softened Retno's voice while wiping away her tears.

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Let Me Choose Less than ten episodes.

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