As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 96's. The Cemetery

The smell of the burial ground with the fragrance of various flowers tickled my smell. And the chirping of birds sent me to a navel that I had come for the umpteenth time. With Aiman's help I found Keanu's sister's belly. According to Aiman, it was not far from the entrance of the cemetery. I sat facing Keanu's grave which always felt wet and fragrant flowers. It might be a Viennese mama or anyone who has decorated it with fragrant flowers. Today is even six months since the events that took Keanu's brother.

There is a clear circle that I have been holding since, now freefall. I repeatedly shed my tears, but I always fail. Because my cries always break down.

"Sister..how are you?" I opened my story this morning. "Today I came to see you. Look, I'm fine. And like your request I have laughed and become happy, even if you are not with me even once" I continued with a trembling voice. "Look, brother, I smiled. These tears are happy tears, brother. I am happy to live this life. Wh why? Because our son is coming to this world soon. Brother must know, he's twenty-eight weeks old. According to doctor Faaz, your best friend, our son. My sister must be happy to hear that. Later I will give him the name Rafan Ghifari Abdullah as you want" I said long along with the length of my tears.

The Fara Flashback

Seven o'clock past five minutes. The sun is so powerful it divides its rays. The heat was felt even though the morning had just come to pick up. The birds were busy jumping on the lush tree branches near. His great-grandson said good morning. I rushed over to Keanu's brother who had been bathed in sweat for a moment he was in a stance. Nearly thirty minutes he worked his way up. And slowly he stopped his beautiful movements when he realized my presence. I was suffocating as her hand grabbed my body. Played it for a while in his arms and then kissed my head. That time it was revolting. How not, the sweat so also wet some of my face and clothes. I'm manyun. Seeing that, Brother Keanu chuckled. And once again one of his hands played the tip of my head. Even so, I also keep putting a towel on Keanu's brother who just finished pranking me.

"Hey, father's son." he said suddenly while sitting crouching before me. His hand slowly rubbed my stomach. I chuckled at my husband's behavior. "What the hell, sister." I said as I sat on a chair in the corner of the balcony. Keanu chuckled at my reaction.

"Exercise, baby. Later if there really is our child in your womb, I will do it like this. How's it?" said Brother Keanu with a smile and kissed my stomach. There was a prayer tucked away as he went through it. "May your wishes God grant. Aamiin.." I'm full of hope. "Male or female, sister." I said with a smile. "Both.." he said chuckling. His hand this time grabbed me back in his arms.

"My man or woman will be just as happy when she welcomes him. But if it were a man I would give him the name Rafan Ghifari Abdullah. I hope our son becomes a handsome, forgiving, meek, helpful boy and serves the weak" Keanu said. There was a twinkle in his gaze as I stared at him fixedly. "If women?" my many. "Em.." muttered brother Keanu thought for a moment. His eyes looked at me a little. "Fadhilla Shaqeena's. This means that women who have the advantages and glory of life are also diligent in working" said brother Keanu sumringah. "Beautifully named. Hopefully granted. Aamiin.." I said as I kissed the chest of his field.

"Well, later if our child is born then the house becomes crowded. In addition to the sound of crowded children, your voice will decorate our homes" said Keanu, pinching my nose. "O...?" I said with a face of disbelief. " We prove it later. Rafan..mandy! Shaqeena..eat!" said brother Keanu again as if to play me. I also chuckled to see the papal running around the balcony mimicking how I would be.

"When will you take part in parenting?" I said while rubbing it with my facial expression. "When I get home from work. The kids will run. They're racing to get my arms. And I will hug and twist them until they laugh out loud" said Keanu with a distant look ahead. Again there was a twinkle at the end of his gaze. "Turning?" shortened say. "Yes. Like this." said brother Keanu while grabbing and holding me tightly. Then we went round and round. I laugh and am treated like that. I will be happy when the opportunity is real. May God grant it soon. Aami...

The Fara Flashback Off

I sighed as the memory piece approached me. Memories that always repeat and play my mind to travel far. Ah, I will fulfill your wish, brother. Whatever my situation. Indeed, Allah said our prayers in those days, just weeks before the disaster happened. I really am pregnant.

When Keanu's brother left to fulfill his duties, I actually knew that I might be pregnant. Confidence arises because my menstruation did not come at that time. I wanted to tell her at the time, but I stopped. I'm afraid Keanu's brother is becoming unfocused on his duties. So I decided to tell him when Keanu's brother returned from his duty.

And again, a thousand dear. I haven't told him yet, he's gone before me forever.

"Mara..." Call Aiman meant to remind me because right now one rain point is starting to say hello. Then I ended my one-way conversation in the cemetery. I shrink my tears and stand up. I swung my wand here and there as the opening of my path.

"Who...?" I said that directly in Aiman's reply. "Pilgrim.." said Aiman briefly. "I'm sorry." I said to the pilgrim who I believe is still near me while unraveling a smile. "It's okay." he said.

Deg.

"Em, can Fara wait a minute at this tavern?I want to get an umbrella in the car. It seems like the rain is getting heavier" said Aiman who managed to disperse my short daydream. "No need, Brother. Let's just wait for the rain to subside." I said, gesturing to prevent it by hand.

"Tea is sweet, mbak." said a waitress. "Thank you.." I said. But due to a lack of caution, I almost dropped the newly served tea. I gasped because there was heat pouring into my hands. Along with that a hand held my hand. "Be careful, Fara.." shouted a man while holding my wrist. "I mean Miss Fara." he said again. I was stunned to get such spontaneous treatment.

"Are you okay?" said again. "No.." I said as I held the hand that was splashed by the hot tea just now. "thank you. Em, I'm Fara. Who are you" I said clumsyly. "Ride, Ghifari. My name is Ghifari" he said no less clumsy. "Em, excuse me" he said later.

"Yes. Nice to meet you. Thank you again" I said with a smile. And I sharpened my ears trying to follow in his footsteps. "He's in a wheelchair, Fara. Both of his legs seem to have problems" explained Aiman. I also gave a short o in reaction to the information Aiman gave. Ah, it turns out I'm not alone. For example, the man. I'm sure we're special people. Maybe God is concocting a beautiful story in the lives of people like me right now.

The rain is starting to stop. I began my steps carefully. I swing my cane here and there. "Be careful, Fara. The streets are wet and slippery" Aiman warned me. I smiled and nodded slowly.

Then for a moment I stopped my steps. My smell was directed at such a distinctive masculine scent. "Sister Keanu." I said softly. Is impossible...! Stop expressing memories, Fara. Similar but not the same. Don't you know where your husband is now? The storm in my heart started to rage. The waves began to shake the boat that was originally calm.

Ah, right too. An impossibility. I also stepped back down the wet and slippery cemetery streets. "Fara, the car keys are left in the tavern. I'll take it first. You wait here for a moment" Aiman said as he stepped up. I just smiled and kept my frustration deep. "Maybe in a situation like this, the car keys are left behind. Hadeeuuuh.." grumbled.

"Hey, pretty... By himself? Come along Brother yuk.." said a man while chuckling. From the chuckling sounds I heard, I was sure they were more than one person. "Don't bother me. Go...! Or.." I said stalled when their chuckles sounded. "Or what? Isn't that what to do? Tell you what you gave me the money in your bag, so you can go. How's it?" he said it again while chuckling.

"Go away.or scream!" lantang. "Ah, women usually just scream" he said again. "Lelaborate boss. Just brush it.." yelled again. "Don't come any closer." I said wryly as I swung my cane around. Yes, God what should I do? My moves are blunt because of my loss of vision. Help me, Robby...

Bugs.

I managed to hit one of them. He complained. Even so, apparently there is no deterrent between the two. "That's enough...!" yell out a man. Again, my mind was targeting the peculiarities of his voice that were so fixed in my life. "Son Keanu." said I, looking for the source of his voice.

"The matching pair. The blind woman who is the man in the wheelchair" said the man, clapping and chuckling.

"Sir Ghifari." I said, shuffling my head, hoping for a voice to come into my ear. "Yes, Fara." she replied quickly. "That's enough...!" aiman's voice echoed. Such a distinctive sound to me too. Yet again the impossibility of possessing my tribe. "You guys better go. I did not hesitate to beat you up" said Aiman fierce.

"Ah, talk a lot...!" said a man. Then I heard a noise during the duel. Sometimes I hear the noise, but I'm sure it's not Aiman's voice.

The duel did not last long. At the end there was a groan and a request for forgiveness from the two men. And Aiman of course did. "Go...!" said Aiman.

Meanwhile, I stood like a statue. This darkness has limited my movement. Even to defend myself, I cannot. "We go home, Fara." said Aiman. "Ghifari...?" my many. "Just passed by with a car." said Aiman. Again I made a short nod while nodding small.