As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episodes 111. Hard Choice

Brak's...!

Suddenly the door of the room was opened. The door was wide open which had previously hit the wall of the room many times. A man stands in the doorway. His face was faint as it was covered in a hat and a scarf wrapped around his neck. "Who, you...?" ask me while standing.

"You forgot, honey...?" he said as he stepped up and opened his hat and scarf. Half-cried me as I stared at his face. "You...?!" my spoken. My surprise really could not be hidden until Keenan smiled when he saw my reaction.

"What do you want, Keenan...?" I said while trying to reconcile the rhythm of my new heart is still hammering. "Just you, Fara... I want you" he said, smiling as he sat on the sofa near me. "Supply....!" I said with a raised voice and slightly rounded eyes. But Keenan's reaction was unexpected. He chuckled while correcting his sitting position. I didn't see the slightest reaction on his face to my words.

"You know, Fara.I know what your love for my older brother is like. And vice versa, what kind of love my brother is to you. But I still love you with all your love for Keanu's brother. I'm sure later you'll love me too" he said casually. Flushed my face hearing her words. My hands clenched tightly holding back the anger that began to envelop the heart.

"Fara.listen to me. I'm not asking you to take Keanu's brother out of your heart. Or forgot. I just want you to accept me as someone who loves you and will make you happy" he said, trying to hold my hand. I brushed off his hand as my refusal. And this time I just saw a surprised reaction on his face. I smiled in my heart when I saw the reaction.

"I appreciate you because you're my husband's sister. And it's true that I love Keanu very much. Therefore, I can't possibly turn to you or to others." I said with a trembling voice holding back the pain. My mind is currently targeting a handsome face that is none other than Keanu's sister, my own husband.

"I told you, I'm not asking you to love me right now. Just accept me. Receiving all the love and happiness I gave her." she said looking at me fixedly. "Why do you want such a thing. Why do you love me, if I can't repay you. Why would you bother to make me happy if I refused. What do you really want?" my spoken.

"I just want to make you happy because I love you. I want your love, but not today. Someday." he said. I'm sure there's something he's hiding and the reason why he's so determined to be with me. But what is it, I myself do not know for sure.

"Fara don't want you hugging Rafan all the time?" said Keenan.

Deg.

Rafan...? Ah, that puffer boy. Hearing his name, I was silent for a moment. My mind wandered back, looking at the shoreline how her laughter filled my memory. Rafan is the only reason I'm alive right now. Even though I am not with him now, I am sure that one day God will give me that opportunity. I'm sure it is. "Rafan.Together with you is my one greatest wish. May God give you that opportunity soon" I said in my heart.

Seeing my excitement, Keenan seemed to smile. Maybe his heart started cheering on what I thought was right now.

"alright... Please think about it" Keenan said as he rubbed my head while standing up from his seat. And it made my face red. There was anger that tickled my soul. "You.." I said, clenching my hands. But Keenan did not budge. He smiled and let his face be my target should it happen.

"Do it." he said as he grabbed my fist and placed it on the right side of his face. "Based on a rancid boy" I grumbled, still putting on my annoyed face.

"The more upset you get, the more beautiful Fara is. The more in anger, the more I love you." he said, releasing his hand. Even so, unexpectedly along with he released his hand he also rubbed my chin. And my reflexes floated on his face.

"Take care of your attitude...!" azam said shortly after rejecting Keenan's body to lean against the wall. His face showed annoyance at Keenan's treatment. Next to her hand tugged at the clothes Keenan was wearing. While next to him again clenched violently preparing to strike a blow. "Enough, Azam...!" my spoken. Wal Azam also let go of his hand.

"Ows...Madam and jongos are the same. I like the violence!" said Keenan while tidying up his clothes and walking past. "I will answer you, Fara." he said shortly before passing. And until his body disappeared behind the wall, his coldness still continued to be heard.

"Fiuh.." grunted me. There was relief that enveloped the heart as Keenan passed. I immediately threw my body on the maroon-colored sofa. I'm speechless. Only my gaze broke through the window frame. Along with that, my mind wandered back. I tried to reconnect pieces to pieces of memories to form a story I could never forget. Memories that always target the figure of a man who has been the back of my life some time ago. Also on the figure of the puffer boy, Rafan.

"Non Fara is fine...?" asked Azam with a full glance. I'm sure he's worried about me right now. "You know what else, Zam. Life still has to be lived to its limit later" I said while rubbing my face.

"Should I tell this to Mr Mirza?" azam said after being silent for a while. I smiled at him thinly. "Please. You also know my personal life is not something that needs to be kept secret. I just don't know anymore which is my privacy, which is not.." I said. There's a speck of resentment inhabiting the edge of my heart. "Non Fara." said Azam.

"Leave me, Zam. I want to be alone." I said later while leaning on the back of the sofa. "Well, Non.." said Azam shortly before it passed. His steps were a little hesitant, but then came back steady for a moment I said his name. "Azaaam.." I said. He smiled and closed the door.

Again I took a long breath. "Ah, Brother Keanu if we were still together of course the current problem will never be faced" said I berandai. The clear thread returned to unstoppable freefall again. "Astaghfirullah.." I said trying to end my crying. "Strength, Fara. Don't be a pity. All are destiny" I murmured softly. And again my hand rubbed my face with a long sigh. Forgive me, Robby...