As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 75's. The departure of Brother Noah

"What...?!" I said when I got the news delivered by Brother Keanu. I'm stunned. Wordless. My heart beat so hard. Heated these eyes, until my tears broke. Soon Keanu's brother might embrace me in his arms. He didn't seem to want to see me for long in sadness. Spill tightness in this chest. The news of Noah's departure was so sudden, that it made me more bitter "Sister Noah.." I cried stifled. Burning his head on Keanu's chest with all my heart makes me unconscious to beat his chest or arm. This was the second time I lamented in his arms for loss. First when I lost my father. The second one right now, when I lost Brother Noah.

Speculation of the cause of death of Kak Noah was spread quickly both on online media and television shows. This makes me more bitter. And what makes me even more sad is when Keanu's brother forbids me to take his body. It was as ordered by Brother Noah. "If anything happens to me whatever it is, then Fara or anyone else should not visit or acknowledge the relative's relationship with me. This can make Fara the next target" said Keanu repeated kak Noah's message. I just slapped him. I insisted on continuing to acknowledge the relation of relatives and taking the body, but after hearing Keanu's explanation I finally understood and obeyed him.

"Every soul will feel what is called death." (Q.S Ali Imran: 185)

Twelve o'clock, fifteen minutes. The night is getting further away. My tears are not over. I'm rebuking. My eyes were closed, but not sound. My mind is still wandering. I still remember the figure of Brother Noah. Although in a short togetherness but enough to bring us closer. And that became my deepest regret. Moreover, the way of his disappearance was so sudden and fairly tragic.

"Wherever you are, death will surely come upon you, though you take refuge in a very high and strong fortress." - (Q.S An-Nisa': 78)

"Sleep, dear.." said brother Keanu as he tightened his arms. Asked that, precisely my tears broke again, although I hold as hard as I can so that my sobs are not so clearly heard. My body is back in shock. And that made Keanu's brother calm me down. He rubbed my shoulder. Sometimes he would softly tuck my head.

Drrt...Drrt...Drrt...

Keanu's cell phone shimmered. At this hour? It's pretty weird. Then Keanu's brother grabbed the phone that was not far from him. Just look at who the caller is. "Before a minute, dear." he said to me as he got up and walked away from me. Stay away from Keanu while talking to the caller. His face was so serious. I'm curious. I shrink my tears and start to sharpen my ears. Nil. I couldn't hear the conversation because we were far away. Moreover, Keanu's brother lowered his voice.

I fixed my sitting position and shrunk my tears. Still feel this chest tightness, but I tried to immediately finish it when I saw the hardness of Keanu's brother that I had caught some time ago.

Smiling Keanu looked at me for a moment after finishing his conversation on the phone. His steps are so shaky. And his face was ordinary. Didn't show anything as serious as he was on the phone. Maybe it's just my feelings.

Eight o'clock, five minutes. On a different day. Exactly three days after the departure of Brother Noah. At that time Keanu's brother came in a hurry. After an hour ago he left for the office, now he comes back and meets me. I'm staring. There's a shambles there. On his face. I welcomed his hand and held it tight. "Em, we're going to Noah's funeral" he said, holding me and gently tucking my head. I looked at his face full of questions. Why did Keanu suddenly invite me, didn't time ban me?

"Save your questions, baby. And be prepared" said Keanu, flicking his finger at my nose. "Sister Keanu." I said annoyed. Little laugh of Keanu who was already sitting on the sofa.

Eight o'clock past fifteen minutes. I'm all set. It didn't take long for me to get ready. I just need to put on my veil and put a little polish on my face. Brother Keanu smiled at me. "We're leaving." he said, helping me advance my wheelchair. "Thank you, my handsome husband." I said trying as usual, though still sad. "Together my beautiful wife." said brother Keanu.

Shortly after, a silver Keanu sports car drove down the road. This time Satria as the controller. Although not as good as Keanu's brother, but the pace had made me wry. I grabbed Keanu's arm. "I'm not going anywhere, baby. There is no need to be this strong." said Keanu's brother near my ear. Upset at the joke, I also rewarded him with a small pinch. "Oh, dear sick." said brother Keanu until Satria and Kevin looked at us through the rearview mirror. "See what.." said Brother Keanu to the two who appeared to be smiling slightly as he slightly rounded his eyes. "No, sir.." said Satria, holding back her smile.

Nine o'clock, fifteen minutes. The car kept going. My head fell on Keanu's shoulder. While my eyes stared at the edge of the road overgrown with trees and seemed to run in pursuit. Again, there was a crash that covered my heart. As my heart beat gets more and more stiff. Even in a graveyard, my heart beat became. Circling my arm around the shoulder of Keanu's brother while walking down the streets of the cemetery. Keanu's sister would rather carry my body than see me coming in a wheelchair.

I couldn't help but cry as I looked at the still wet mound of earth with a sprinkling of dried flowers on it. A name was written on his headstone. Broke my tears unstoppable again. I sat in a wheelchair near his headstone. Sad it came back and presented a clear bulir melt that was so snaking. Although my crying was not as hysterical as it was three days ago, it still illustrates my heartache. Brother Keanu grabbed me. His hands were so tight in my body.

"We all belong to God and to Him we will all return." (Q.S Al-Baqarah: 156)

I have long been meditating. Chalking the best prayers for Keanu's brother to the Khaliq, Allah 'Azza Wajalla.

"Ah, it turns out that death is like 'Alif Lam Mim' the first verse of the letter Al-Baqarah, which means only God knows, regardless of age, position, level, and also time" I said softly while continuing to look at the mound of land that was still red with a sprinkling of flowers that were almost dry on it.

"I will always miss you, brother." I said shortly before leaving the navel of Brother Noah.

Ten o'clock past five minutes. I've been sitting back in the car. While Keanu's brother was still talking to Satria and Kevin. I don't know what they're talking about. Looking at the look on his third face it seems like there is something serious being discussed. Keanu's brother also contacted someone through his cell phone and talked for a while. The look on his face hinted at something more serious like that. Ah, maybe my feelings...

"What if we take a short walk to your cafe? It's been a while since Fara's been there?" said Brother Keanu as he was perfectly sitting next to me. I'm termangu. My eyes are staring at him. As if I couldn't believe my own hearing. But why all of a sudden?

"How's...?" ask brother Keanu again to break my daydream. I nodded and smiled. "We go to the cafe, Satria." said Keanu.

"Why...?" asked Brother Keanu when he found my gaze that was looking at the romance of his face. "Suddenly... Strange" I said, looking at him. "There is nothing." said brother Keanu without seeing me. Even so, his hand still held me in his arms. I smiled and even laughed a little at his clumsiness. "Really.." he said convincingly.