As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 19's. My mirza...

Run me while shedding tears. Half my soul revolted and cursed me for my helplessness. Not that I gave up on the situation. But I'm not ready to deal with it, after what I've been through the last three months. Caught me up on the bed, lamenting my helplessness. "Darling.." said the father behind the door. "Can you come in?" said. I opened the room door and immediately burst into his arms. My crying broke unstoppably again. "I'm sorry, Fara. I can't take care of you" said Dad, holding me. I heard he was sobbing bitterly. His breathing went up and down irregularly because of his crying. "Rest, baby. I'll take care of you" said Dad. "Sherlly will also take care of you" Sherlly said with a cry.

Nine o'clock in two minutes. I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep. Yet failed. My efforts have been in vain. Even though my eyes were closed, my mind floated and flew somewhere. There was a shadow of a handsome figure that was interfering with my current night time. The person I always miss. The figure whose name is always that when the evil hand of Mr. Darius roars my body. "Sister Mirza." I said softly. And no more my tears flowed back. It feels like this heart. It hurts my soul. Still in my tears, suddenly the atmosphere turned silent. There was not a single sound to my ear. Not even my heart beat can I feel. Then open before me a wide place. With colorful flowers that decorate it. With each bud swaying in the wind. There, in the middle of the Chrysanthemum flower stands a male figure. He was so handsome, even so handsome. His eyes are so sad looking at me. His lips also showed a smile. And his stout body fascinated me. The masculine aroma of his body was able to make me drunk kepayang when not far from him. "Sister Mirza." I said again. He smiled to welcome my presence while expanding both of his arms. No need to think any longer, scattering me in his arms. Sensing the masculine scent of his body while occasionally smelling the soft chest of his field. And for the umpteenth time, her body language still made me so comfortable. No worry or disgust. For a long time we held each other as if we didn't want to let go of each other. And then he kissed my lips softly. My eyes were closed feeling the kiss. Not just once, but over and over again he gently kissed my lips.

And some time later, the kiss was no longer felt. His face seemed to be starting to fade. His burly body began to glow and slowly became faint and then disappeared. I started crying. I have called his name many times. But there's no answer. His figure just evaporated like smoke. "Sister Mirza....Where're you?" my yelling. "I'm here, baby. Your Mirza is here" said a voice so close to me. "Sister Mirza.." I cried out who woke up from my eyes. I cried as I clenched my knees. "Darling.." said a voice again. And how surprised I was when I saw a figure near me. On a wooden chair he sat staring at me softly. Both of his eyes had been wet with tears. "Sister Mirza." I said. The taste of kangen beats everything. I too was late in his arms. The one that always warms my heart. But suddenly I remembered the stain on my body from the hand of master Darius. Immediately I push Kak Mirza's body until it recedes a few steps. Little did Mirza's body collapse because of my sudden repulsion. "Don't come any closer, brother. I'm not your old Fara. I'm dirty" I said as I receded a few steps away from Mirza's sister.

"Darling.you keep my Fara. And I'm still your Mirza. Three months I've been looking for you like a crazy person. I have all given it up to find you. *B*odyguard my family, and the police. They've been combing the places with all the possibilities. But you disappeared like you were swallowed by the earth. Now you're back. It seems like God has returned you to me" he said as he stepped closer to me sitting in the corner of the room with tears in his eyes. He tried hard to reach me, because I kept on revolting and avoiding him. Some of my punches also stopped in his body. But he remained patient. And I finally gave up on her. I cried bitterly. I put my head on the chest of the field. While my hand just keep hitting the small chest or arm. "I'm dirty, Brother....I'm despicable" I said repeatedly. His lips were trying to calm me down. And in the end my body became hollow, helpless. I don't know how long I've been unconscious.

One o'clock in the early hours of twenty-five minutes. I opened my eyes slowly. My eyes went back around the room. A room I know very well. Because I'm still in my room. "Darling...." Mirza called me back when she found out I was conscious. His tone was so soft and distinctive. Soon I found her handsome figure right to the right of my bed. He sat down while holding my hand. While the other hand rubbed my head slowly. His eyes looked at me with sadness and affection. I'm back sobbing. "Your father told me everything. All the things that happen to you. And I stick to my stance. I've chosen you to be my life partner for as long as we can. We will continue our plan first. Married" said Mirza. My heart melted to hear his words. And my crying broke again.

Three o'clock in five minutes early in the morning. I tried to sleep, but failed. Even though my eyes closed, my mind continued to travel somewhere. My mind continues to trace back every joy or sorrow that has been present in my life. And now I'm starting to rewrite the plans that were delayed. Plan to continue living. This time there is a father who will take care of me.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow. I can't explain it. More about my relationship with Mirza. With my current condition, I'm not sure his family can accept me like Mirza. Not to mention my life. I don't know exactly how I should go about it. And finally my traveling ended at my weak point and my helplessness. Until I finally turned to God. Owner of every soul.

I hope I get through it all with a smile...

To be continued...