As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 83's. Meeting The Ex

Four o'clock, fifteen minutes. Time at dawn. I was so excited to see the look on Keanu's face. His closed eyes made me freely look at every detail of his handsome face. Ah, the man who became the husband when I was still snot long ago is now really my husband like he promised before he went with his parents. His behavior makes me feel special. All the evidence made me fall in love too. Not just once, but many times. A moment ago I was thinking, maybe Mirza's sister is my first husband. But I feel Keanu's brother is my first love that I once lost. And hopefully until later me and brother Keanu stay together in love. Aami...

Four o'clock, forty minutes. Adzan. I'm still looking at Keanu's brother lying down. His injuries apparently required him to stay overnight in the hospital to get incentive treatment. Same with Satria. While I, more lucky. The wound I was in was just a small scratch. And the pain in my legs went away. According to the doctor, the pain that I felt last night was a reaction to my excessive physical activity. But it is not a worry, it is quite encouraging news. This means that all muscles begin to work optimally. And my healing threshold began to set before me. Even so, it is also not justified if I force my muscle activity because it can be dangerous as well. It means again I still have to be careful and as good as possible to train my leg muscles according to the portion only. Not excessive nor lack. All fitting...

"Darling.." said Keanu, who looked at me. "Hey... How's she feeling now?" I said with a smile closer to him. "My feelings...? Em, I love you more and more." said Keanu. "Gombal.." I said with a small laugh. "Master...?"

Cup.

A kiss landed on my cheek. You young labil. It could steal an opportunity. Even so, no words were spoken. I was silent while keeping a red hue on my face. Seeing that brother Keanu chuckled. "Cheat.." I said then as it passed. "Where?" tanyakanya. I don't answer with words. I only signaled with both hands following the prayer movement, namely takbir. Brother Keanu nodded with a smile looking at me.

Not long after I was ready to perform the prayer. Same with Keanu. He was ready and ready to pray. He is my priest now. Yep...Salat is the cure for my empty soul, my worried mind, and my wounded heart. The only media that always keeps my soul calm because it managed to parse my prayers.

***يٰٓاَيُّهَا الَّذِيْنَ اٰمَنُوا اسْتَعِيْنُوْا بِالصَّبْرِ وَالصَّلٰوةِۗ اِنَّ اللّٰهَ مَعَ الصّٰبِرِيْنَ

O you who believe, make patience and prayer your help, and Allah is with those who are patient. (QS. Al Baqarah: 153**)

My prayers are over. And the doapun has been strung in such a way. There is a lot of hope in it. Because I believe that prayer can pave the hardest and most impossible way in my life. For to God, all things are possible.

Like a sage who says 'try without prayer is arrogant and prayer without effort is a lie. Therefore effort and prayer for me are like two sides of an inseparable currency. Always connected and always connected.

Five o'clock past five minutes. I folded my face and tidied the prayer mat. The prayer that had become soaked with the roar of my tears that spilled unstoppably again. And once in a while my hands rubbed the face that was still left with tears.

"What prayers do you pray, until you break into tears" Keanu said, looking at me. "Em, secret.." I said casually. "Hey, with other people you can be secretive but with your husband I won't let that happen. You're my wife, you're mine. Only mine" said brother Keanu who managed to pull my hand a little rough. "It hurts, brother.." I complained. "Tell me first, I'll let go." he said again. "Say.." he said again. This time he managed to hold me.

"So no intimidating me? It hurts, brother.." I said. "Oh yeah? If so, does it still hurt?" said Keanu's leg while kissing my cheek. "Jeez..kak Keanu" I said while trying to avoid. And that made Keanu chuckle.

"Sorry young master,.Madame. We have to leave this hospital immediately" Satria said worriedly. His eyes were waving as he looked at Keanu's brother. I'm termangu. Only my eyes were staring at the two in turn. "All right." said brother Keanu while looking at me and holding my hand. "Hospital costs?" askaku while following Keanu's quick steps. "Satria will take care of it." said brother Keanu who immediately followed Satri with a nod of his head.

"Show can you hide your woman, Keanu." said one man as we just crossed the door from the doorway. A voice I know of course. Suddenly we turned the body and found the owner of the voice. Mirza was not far from us. His hand held a stick. While his head has a bandage attached. There were some wounds on his face. Neither me nor Keanu's brother stared fixedly at Mirza's sister.

"Sister Mirza." I said softly. "Yes, Fara. Its me. Mirza mu first" said Mirza's brother who was immediately avenged by Keanu's brother. "Fara, it's mine now." said Keanu. "Yes, I know. And I certainly have my own calculations for you, Keanu" said Mirza.

"Counting..?" asked Brother Keanu slightly frowned. "First I wanted to know about your disguise so you became my bodyguard. Second, I want to know when you've loved Fara. Was it while I was still my wife? Or after my divorce?" said Mirza staring fixedly at Keanu's sister. But a moment later, he turned to look at me. Oh, my God, a gaze that is still the same. Stares like before. "Enough, Fara. Don't continue. Turn your face off from her. There's Brother Keanu here" I'm insisting. But unfortunately I didn't even blink looking at him.

My mind wanders. Especially our moments together. That hand has given me peace and compassion. That chest was once where I buried my face when my crying was unbearable. And those lips once gave off a taste in every inch of my body. "Enough, Fara...!" I'm back to the inside.

"How are you, Brother Mirza...?" my words then hesitated a little with the hand that immediately hugged Keanu's arm. Brother Mirza smiled as she stepped a little closer. "I'm good. God still gives me a chance apparently" said Mirza. "I'm sorry, I wasn't with you when you had all the trials of your life" he said, looking at me with a soft eye. My heart melted after a few years of freezing over his actions that had hurt my feelings.

"If you're curious, you can meet me later. But right now there are things that I have to do first" Keanu said. "No. I want this moment. If later, worry that there is no chance to meet again." said Mirza.

"Well, if so. We'll just go to the cafe in front of the hospital. How about...?" said Mr. Keanu who was directly approved by Mr. Mirza.

"I'm asking not to step too fast. My condition does not allow it" Keanu said. Next to her hand rubbed the back of my hand nonstop. I don't know why he did that.

"I have my own reasons. Why am I your bodyguard, Mirza" said Keanu flat. Gee whiz...So coll. Almost no expression. His gaze was so cold. Hearing that, Mirza stopped sipping coffee and immediately put it back down. His eyes were sharp looking at Keanu's brother who did not budge in the slightest.

"My father had an accident a dozen years ago. The accident happened shortly after Mr. William, your father came to our house. The anger mixed with hatred that emanated on your father's face has made me believe that your father was the mastermind behind my father's death" said brother Keanu flat.

"I'm sure it's just an accusation with no evidence from you." said Mirza. Hands clenched. "Persian. I was more precisely the wrong target. It wasn't your father, bang David or you that caused my father's death, but your eldest brother from the other mother was the cause" Keanu said. Keanu's confession made Mirza's sister round her eyes. I'm sure he was surprised by Keanu's brother's words.

"But aren't you guys friends?" ask Mirza. "Not friends. More precisely, it is only a mutual relationship. I need someone to look after Fara when I'm not with Fara. I'm sure people who love never hurt. And for Roy, besides being able to get close to Fara he also needs a job. See..relationship mutualism as I said earlier" said brother Keanu while sipping coffee at the end.

I saw Brother Mirza sigh. His eyes continued to stare at Keanu's feet without targeting the other one in the slightest. "I'm still listening. Continue to..."

"Then about Fara." said brother Keanu. This time he looked at me and smiled. "I loved her long before she met you, Mr. Mirza. We were friends in childhood. We were in a match. But separated by distance and time so we can not recognize each other" said Keanu who continued to smile at me.

"Fara, do you love Keanu...?" ask Mirza suddenly. I let out a breath. "Sister Keanu was my childhood husband. We often played as husband and wife. And it is true that we were betrothed by our two friendly parents. And maybe this is also the cause of our relationship is not long.." I said a little hide my face. "What's the cause?" asked Mirza to look at me. "Because there are men who have been waiting for me and really dare to love me with all my shortcomings" I said flatly and at first glance it might look so calm. But it really is not so. My heart was so troubled to answer Mirza's question. My heart just beat violently with a rhythm that I didn't even know.

"Did you love me a little more, Fara..?" said brother Mirza. I'm speechless. "Already, enough. No need to answer, Fara. It doesn't matter anymore." said brother Keanu half furious. "Why? You scared? Afraid to face the fact that Fara still loves me" Mirza said. "I'm not afraid. Because I know how Fara feels about me." said brother Keanu while pulling me a little rough.

"wait. I'm sure you're afraid of Keanu" said Mirza, blocking Keanu's footsteps with his crutches. "Don't go beyond your limits, Mr. Mirza...!" said Keanu's brother growled half a scream. Face hardened. Next to his hand was clenched.

Not wanting to drag on, I also intended to end the conversation this morning with my statement. I slowly pat Keanu's hands and stand up straight. I don't know where the power is that I'm able to stand without a stick. My eyes are staring at Mirza's sister.

"You know Fara, I'm still the same Mirza I was. Mirza always loved you. Mirza is always waiting for you. Until the place and time are always on our side" said Mirza while looking at me without caring about the presence of Keanu's brother who began to rile.

"We're in the same place and time, Fara. Bx Cafe. I was also one of his victims. I know your existence there. My heart feels that this heart has been called by your heart. I'm sure this feeling is true. That we still love each other. Admit, Fara.

Then when last night my soul was really in a revolt, especially when I saw you complaining. I really wanted to help you last night. I want to go and hug you. To take you forever. But all that I did. My steps are so heavy when I look at Keanu who always holds you. In addition, my condition and Amara are also the ones that make my steps stop and stop clinging and taking you along. Even so, I was still your Mirza first, Fara. It will never change" said Mirza as she continued to look at me. I know that kind of look. The gaze of a soulful Mirza.

"That's enough...!" said brother Keanu beaver. His hands were clutching the shirt Mirza's sister wore. While the other hand clenched, ready to hit Mirza's sister. Brother Mirza chuckled, without a fight. "What I'm guessing is, you're afraid of Keanu. Fear of facing reality." said Mirza in between kekehnya.

"You...!" said brother Keanu getting furious. "What..?! Wanna hit me? Please...Even though my condition is like this, I still seem able to serve your moves. Especially from someone as cowardly as you, Keanu.." said Mirza again.

"No, Mister. Do not dirty your hands even with a drop of blood.."satria said to prevent Keanu's brother. "Hey.just speak to my master...!" said a bodyguard for Mirza. And no doubt the four men were facing each other. The four of them had prepared with their respective sharp moves. Looking at it I became wry. My eyes looked at Brother Keanu and sister Mirza alternately. What is the meaning of everything Mirza does? Why did he suddenly say something that I thought was stale and unquestionable. And brother Keanu I'm sure he's jealous. Not only because of the outspoken speech of Mirza's sister, but also because of my slowness to act on the behavior and speech of Mirza's sister.

"That's enough...!" I said out loud at the seconds when the four of them were swinging at each other. Hearing my screams, the four of them clashed against the pace and immediately cut a distance. Especially when my sobs start to sound. "Enough...Don't do anything else" I said in a trembling voice. There's a storm raging in my chest.

"Honey.." said brother Keanu who almost grabbed me, but I prevented it. "Stop, brother.." I said without looking at him. Only one side of my hand was expanding as a signal for Keanu's brother to stop his steps. I'm sorry, Brother. I didn't mean to embarrass you, I just wanted to be fair before my statement was over.

"I...I.." I'm gago. Only my cries and gazes represented my current feelings. "I...I.." I said again, Gago.

The To Be Continued....