As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 44's. Kean...

"Yes, madam." said bang Pandu with a faint smile and looked at me. "How can I.." I said hanging as he signaled not to make a sound. "Yes, Sir. I immediately looked for Madam." said bang Pandu when receiving a connection from his phone. I'm sure it's Mirza's sister. Again bang Pandu looked at me from the main rearview of the car. And he smiled. "The lady doesn't have to worry. I will not inform you of the whereabouts of the Madam for the time being. I know Madam is not okay" said bang Pandu while occasionally staring at me. "Thank you.." I said softly while fixing my sitting position. I threw my eyes out the window. Facing the point of rain that increasingly flushed the earth.

"Why spin, Bang...?" I said when I woke up from my daydream. "Silence, Mistress. I intend to return this taxi to the owner. At the same time take my car" said bang Pandu with his distinctive voice. "How do you mean...?" my question while shaving my head trying to interpret every word. "I know the situation, Madam. And I think the Madam needs my help. So I borrowed this taxi to my friend" he said with a slight smile and focus on the streets. I also nodded a small sign of understanding. "Thank you.." said I, who was met with a nod of the head.

Then he stopped at the edge of the road where a black car parked under the rain. He opened the black jacket he was wearing and thrust it at me. "Wear it, ma'am." he said convincing me to see my doubts for a moment. "Thank you." I said with a smile and wearing a jacket bang Pandu.

Before long, a man in a rain suit ran over and brought an umbrella over. "Sir.." he said as the car door opened. His hand held an open umbrella. Bang Pandu grabbed him and quickly circled the car. "Mrs...Come" he said shortly after the car door opened. I smiled without looking at her face and directly lined up her steps in the shade of the same umbrella. Opened the car door, but I refused. I chose to open the front door. And sit down immediately. "But Madam." said bang Pandu who I replied with a hand gesture that it was not worth the trouble. He smiled as he nodded and closed the door. And my eyes could not be separated from his movements as long as he circled the car to sit in the steering chair. At first glance his face did not hint that he was a bodyguard like his current situation. I had thought that he was like a young master of the family being. Given the appearance and carelessness each time met, handsome, dignified, a little indifferent but considerate, neat as well as fragrant. His language is perfectly organized. Eleven twelve with sister Mirza. And the more I scrutinized her face, the more I felt closer to her long before this moment. But when and where I don't know.

Without asking my purpose, bang Pandu immediately drove the car through the torrent of rain. I don't care about it either, other than because I trust it so much. My eyes returned to the wet-looking streets. While the sky still does not show signs of rain will subside. I wipe the window glass that is opaque because of the rain point that sticks and then falls one by one.

I also did not say anything when bang Pandu turned the car on a yard from a house that was quite luxurious. A moment bang Pandu looked at me then smiled. "I know the mood of Madam is not okay. Therefore for a while maybe the Madam can stay in this house" he said without blinking at me. "Whose house?" I asked without expression. "Later also Madam knows." he said while getting out of the car and immediately around the car with an umbrella that was open. He opened the car door for me and stepped together in the same umbrella. For a moment I was again lulled by the masculine scent of his body. I believe this fragrance comes from a perfume with a certain brand. A brand commonly used by wealthy families.

Arriving at the doorway, we were greeted by the warm smile of a middle-aged woman. I see his age is not much different from father or amah. I saw Pandu smiling while looking at the woman. Bang Pandu grabbed the woman's hand and kissed her reverence. I who was standing next to the Pandu bang was a little surprised at his treatment. "What's up, Fara." said that of course to my surprise. I also try to be as calm as possible. I grabbed the middle-aged woman's hand and kissed her. "Alhamdulillah.baik Auntie" I said with a smile and looked at her face. There was a clear grain floating in both of his eyes as he looked at me and rubbed the tip of my head. Surprisingly, he landed a kiss on my forehead. This of course makes me more curious and keeps big questions in the heart. "Not now, Ma.." said bang Pandu with a smile and rubbed the shoulder of the woman he called Ma. What does she mean by mama? Mother of bang Pandu. "Oya, sorry. Aunt got carried away. Let's go in. Consider it my own home, Fara." he said, grabbing my hand and taking me to a maroon chair. In some of the handles and backrest there is a very beautiful carving. My eyes circled the entire room that looked so beautiful with modern classic-style ornaments.

"Sorry, Madam. He is my mother." said bang Pandu who made me immediately turn my eyes to him. I also nodded small, saying yes while smiling. "Call Mama like Keenan" said the middle-aged woman. "Keanu...?" I said by turning my head as a signal to ask for an explanation. "Son, you haven't told him?" said the middle-aged woman. Bang Pandu shook his head slowly while looking at me softly. "Not yet and again the time is not right" he said, still staring at me. Gaining that look I became a little confused. In my heart there are many questions. "Alright." said the middle-aged woman again who deigned to call mama. "Em, Madam rest first. No need to be confused. And.Let me take you to the Madam's room" said bang Pandu who at a glance looks a little gagu. I smiled at him briefly and prepared to follow my steps. "Em, Aunt... Ow, Mama. I permit rest first" I said carefully just before it passed. "Don't say it, son. Call mama if you need anything" said mama from bang Pandu with a smile and gently rubbed my arm. "Yes, Ma. Thank you.." I said gagu while nodding in reverence.

Again the snaking stairs I have to follow up to a room with a large carved door. The door creaked when it opened. His voice is so distinctive. A room with white walls with brown and gold ornaments. Bang Pandu also offered me a change of clothes that turned out to be prepared on the bed with a smile. His hands were cueing at a door in the corner of the room. Maybe it's the bathroom. I smiled and went straight to the place called Bang Pandu.

I splashed my body with warm water. Her gurgling water can certainly disguise my current sobs. Yes, the tears that I have been holding back from now on are back in freefall as the rush of wriggling on my body. I hugged both of my knees. My body shakes with so much crying. Sometimes I rub a slightly rough face as a form of venting my anger. "Sister Mirza...!" I screamed half-stressed. And my yell subsided a little as the Pandu bang called out to me. "Mrs...Madam is okay?!" he said half a scream while knocking on the door a little strongly. Hearing that, I answered briefly and took a shower. I was almost thirty minutes in the bathroom. I grabbed my clothes and quickly put them on.

A look at my face, I found it when I opened the door. The face is worried. "Mrs is okay...?" ask bang Pandu or Keenan or whoever it is. I'm silent. Only my faint smile graced my face in response to the question bang Pandu. Half a giggle I stepped towards the maroon-colored sofa. I see on the table there is a cup of tea that is still steaming complete with snacks. "Sorry Madam. I delivered this tea, but when I found out that Madam was still in the bathroom for so long, I became worried. Especially when he heard the cries and screams of the Madam" he said who stood not far from me. "What can I do, Bang...? If it is like this...I don't know" I said, holding back my tears. "I understand." said bang Pandu who kept looking at me.

"It doesn't feel fair. You took my problems, but your problems I must not know." I said as I reached for the cup of tea and sipped it. I saw him smiling widely. "Isn't that really the relationship between the bodyguard and the master." he said as he stood up from his seat. "Yes, if you want to call Keanu only" he said shortly before passing. "Alright bang... Keanu" I said as he turned his body. His steps became restrained because of my words. Seen from the reflection of the mirror in front of him there was a smile adorning his face. "Thank you, Madam. Em, Fara." she said later which also made me smile. I lost the burden of that call from my soul.

At seven o'clock in the night. The rain has gone. Only the fine points still cross the balcony. It was also because it was blown by a gust of wind that also brought cold until it hit my body.

Geck...Geck...Geck...

Room door knocked. "Non.." call someone behind the door. "Sorry, Non. I'm mbak Mar. The housekeeping assistant is here" she said introducing herself with a smile. I also nodded small while smiling. "Anu...Non. Non Fara is waiting for Mr. Keanu and the Madam below" he said again while serving his reverence. "Thank you, ma'am Mar. I immediately went down" I said with a smile and returned to my room. I tidied up my shirt and my hood and then stepped out of the room.

My steps were a little quick down every step of the ladder that was long enough. "Here, son." said a voice directing me. I smiled as I directed my langakh towards the dining table where Keanu and mama were. "Come, baby." said the mother who showed me my seat with her fingers. Right near the mama in front of the Pandu bang or Keanu who has not looked at me at all. Bribe by mouth I enjoy it voraciously. Once or twice I praised the dishes that were being enjoyed. Even so, it is actually the taste of food that increasingly makes the taste of each food taste much better.

Eight o'clock in two minutes. I sat next to the Viennese mama, the mother of the Pandu bang who occasionally chuckled at a comedian on a private television station. Maybe if I was okay, I'd laugh like my mom. In fact, even though my eyes were staring at a comedian on television, my mind was wandering. The one-on-one event last afternoon came back and played in my memory. And that made me even more hurt. "Follow me.." said bang Pandu as he grabbed my hand and pulled me. My steps were a little disturbed because of course my consciousness was not perfect due to my daydream earlier. Even so bang Pandu still attract me. "Where...?!" mama Vienna said as she watched us pass. "Roof.." said bang Pandu.

I was amazed when I got to the top. The sky seemed clean after almost a day of rain to the earth. There were many stars clinging to spoiled as if greeting me. Meanwhile it seemed to hang perfectly. The light is so soft and so soothing. I swirled around, my face looking up at the sky. My smile expands to see the beauty that nature presents. This beauty makes me laugh. I stretched out my hand while continuing to raise my face to the sky. I felt a slightly cold wind blow through my body. Soon I felt so weak that I sat down. My breath hunts. My body shakes holding my sobs. It didn't take long even Pandu came straight to me. I grabbed my body and grabbed it. I was shocked at his current treatment, yet I was so naive. Lara I overcame my shock. I cried in his arms. "Fara.." he said, wiping my tears. "You also cried in my arms. You may have forgotten. But I won't be able to forget it" said bang Pandu who made me even more surprised. My head was staring straight at his face. He smiled at me. "You were six years old then. I'm twelve years old. You cried in my arms when you knew I was moving to another city" he said, sitting next to me on the wet floor. I looked at him more and more. Looking for a stroke that could bring me to remember the past as he said. "Both of our parents were friends, Fara. My mother is your friend. And you know what you said when I was leaving?" said again. I nodded slowly in my confusion. "Sister Keanu is my best friend. Brother Keanu is my husband. Anyway can not go.." said bang Pandu imitating the style of a small child. "At that time we may not understand, but the words still ring in my ears. And you know what my answer is...?" he said again that I answered the headband. "I won't be long. I will definitely come back to you, my best friend and my wife" he said, chuckling at the sky.

"And I kept my promise. I'm back to you. Although the situation is different" he said, chuckling and ignoring my gaze. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say it at first. But my heart said something else. I can't keep it anymore. Seeing you with all your disappointment and grief, I felt called upon. I'm not willing. Whoever you are, you are still my best friend" he said, offering a photograph. "That's our last memory, when we're going apart first" he said, pointing to the shabby photo I was holding. My eyes were incessantly staring at that shabby photo. And right there was me who was a boy, father, Amah, mama Vienna, a man who held the hand of mama Vienna and a boy who also took my hand. I looked at him in disbelief.

"Follow me." he said and again he pulled my hand. He took me to a room not far from where I was. My eyes were again shocked by the contents of the room. My heart rippled as I stared at every photo. "Do you remember, Fara...?" her question made me look back at her face. "You.." I said doubtfully.

The To Be Continued...