As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 68's. Don't Go, Dad...

I sat in the chair in front of the operating room. Feeling fucked. And there are regrets that have enveloped my heart. "Hey.." said Keanu's brother who was sitting crouching in front of me while thrusting a bottle of mineral water. I shook weakly. But he insisted.

I sipped a little mineral water. Found my father's condition so ogah enjoy something even a mouthful of water. Then I glanced at the mami Vira who looked furious sitting next to me. In his hand was a bottle of mineral water that had not been touched. His eyes were staring at the operating room door.

"Mommy.." I said as I shifted my sitting position. I cradled on his arm while occasionally wiping his arm. "The new mom feels how to be treated as a special wife, only by your father. My mom is grateful for that. Mami feels guilty for not being able to give the best to your father" he said. And the clear circle was finally freefall as well. Once, twice I wiped her tears. Yet failed. The tears just kept running uncontrollably. "Five months of treatment, has made our finances sour. The store was getting messed up until we closed. Sorry, we are not able to maintain your mandate" said mami Vira Pilu increasingly sobbing great.

Two o'clock five minutes. Open operating room. Standing in the doorway bang David, em.I mean doctor David who has been with me since. His eyes are staring at me. There was worry at the end of his gaze. "Hey.." say hello to David while patting Keanu's shoulder. "Dad's been dealt with. We pray for faster healing." said bang David. His eyes looked at the mami Vira and brother Keanu alternately.

Then long bang David looked at me. His breathing was going down regularly. "How are you, Fara? Hey, stop crying. Dad will be fine" said bang David rubbing the tip of my head. I'm staring. There was a frustration in this heart remembering everything that happened to my father and myself. "Your family is full of intrigue, Bang" I said, upset with a little anger. Bang David's face flushed to hear my words. His eyebrows are slightly pucker. His gaze turned to Keanu's brother as if asking for clarity. And Brother Keanu only smiled to find his gaze.

"Follow.." said bang David. His hand pulled my arm and took a few steps away. He thinks he's the one who pulled me. "Darling, your brother really doesn't know anything. Explain it." he said while looking at me. With great anger I told you about what happened to Dad. How Amara was being arbitrary to Vira's father and mother for just one of my addresses. "What can I do, Bang...Evidence I didn't get. So far out of my reach" I almost cried. "Darling.." said bang David as he grabbed my head and buried it in his chest just like before, long before I knew Mirza or any other. "I knew...I'll help you. I-i promise. The same promise I made in front of Merry's grandmother" said bang David. He wiped away the tears that had almost fallen.

"Darling.." call brother Keanu. I immediately stopped crying and looked at her. I think he's jealous. I'm sure it is. There was jealousy at the end of his gaze. And that very moment the bang David passed leaving me and Keanu's brother. "I promise.." he said. His hand rubbed my head.

"Seeing you linger in David's arms, almost darkens my eyes. I have prepared my fist earlier" said Brother Keanu with a faint smile. "Sister.." I said spoiled while writhing on his arm. Brother Keanu stepped over without caring about my words. Even so, his trademark smile expands to decorate his face.

I lined up his steps while occasionally staring at his handsome face. Or tease him by going ahead of his steps and walking backwards. My face is as funny as possible. He smiled and immediately pursued my steps. Clutched my head under his arm.

"Fara.your father" said mami Vira. His face showed concern. There was an imperfect clear grain he removed. Seeing such an expression I immediately ran towards the action room (ICU). There's a mess I can't cover anymore. I stood right on the transparent window of the room. I sobbed at the strapping body that was jolting violently due to the automatic heart shock device (AED). Anfal's Father. Lunglai my body until leaning on the body of Keanu's brother. While one hand holds the hand of Mami Vira.

My lips are not constantly moving. Pray for God's help, Lord 'Azza WaJalla. I don't think I can watch everything. "Dad...!" I shouted as I stared at his body on the lid. Signs of effort have not yielded results. I revolted from Keanu's brother's arms. I ran into the room. "Dad...! wake dad. Don't leave Fara. Dad....!" pilu. I shook his body repeatedly hoping for a miracle. Nil. The provisions continue.

Mami Vira was no less hysterical. He hugged his father's body, kissed him, and invited him to talk. "Take me, Bang...Take me" he whined the pill.

What can I do if God has decided. What can I do if God has already set. It's all final. Man can only hope and pray. Expecting miracles. I want that. I'm sure it is. Prayer can turn the impossible into mustajab. But today it all faded. Because my prayers did not come true. I lost my breath and never came back.

I was silent in my tears. I didn't see the bright light, it all faded. One stranglehold on my body I felt a little tingly. "Sister Keanu." I said so bitterly. My hand jolted his chest with a glade, but surely. And he just silently accepted all my treatment. "What a day, brother. All the suffering I can bear. But if I have to lose my father, I don't think I can survive" I said long.

"Patience. God must have other plans for you" said Keanu lirih. What kind of plan? All I know is that now I have no family. "I amra.you are the cause of all this" I said suddenly. And my regret turned back into a vengeful rage. "I'll repay you, Amara. I'll get back at you...!" my screams are full of anger.

A slap hit my face. I'm slack. Don't you know the taste in this heart, brother? Don't you know the anger in this soul. Do I have to break my breath first so that you understand this turmoil? I was sobbing helplessly.

Brother Keanu also re-embraced my empty body. And clutching. Suddenly my view was cloudy. Then dark. Lost consciousness.

Four o'clock past twenty-five minutes. I was in a fast car. Next to me Brother Keanu sat behind the wheel. In front of me was an ambulance speeding by a siren roaring. The more taste this.

Lost passion. Pupus. My sorrows arise.Rubbing my anger. Rolling through the barrier, breaking through the wall and plunging into the sea of direction. All the more felt, especially when the body of the father was moved into a house that was crowded with mourners. One by one they greeted me. Showing condolences.

Not spending a stick of incense, the father was immediately carried to the cemetery to be buried after being sholatan in a mosque. My steps grew heavier as the burial ground became clearer.

Dusk is so bitter. Stand up, brother Keanu. He said as a family asking for prayer and sincerity for the khilaf and wrong father. I stared at him faintly as the clear fur regained its composure, filling the cavities of my two eyes.

Broke my tears as the body wrapped in white cloth entered the cemetery burrow. A man's relationship with all previous lives. Today it is true that the world is real and the afterlife is just a story. But after death, then the world is only a story, the afterlife is true and real. Here I am getting worse. Slowly but surely the body began to close to the ground.

Five o'clock past thirty-five minutes. I sow flowers on my father's belly button. I shed tears so long. Unheeded again there is deep sorrow in the recesses of my heart. And anger again filled all my soul until it clenched my hands. "Mara.." I said full of anger.

Stay me, mami Vira and Kak Keanu who still survive in the paternal navel in the cemetery. Suddenly I stood up. My chest is crowded. My steps are unstoppable again. And my hand was so brave that it rose into the air, landing on the face of Mirza's sister. Gaining that, Mirza's sister kept quiet. Only his eyes were staring at me feelingly. "What did you come for? To see my destruction?! Family destruction? or want to see if I will die after my father's death..?! Answer...!" I said as I put my hand on his face again. If I hadn't been reminded of Keanu's brother, I might have given him some deadly moves.

"I just want to be with you when you're grieving. No more.." he said who stood unmoved. "You should have seen your beloved wife. Whether he was laughing or crying over my grief. And you better ask him what he's done...!" my words are full of anger. "Enough...! You can insult me, but not my wife or my family" Mirza said. Your eyes are blind, Mirza. Really pity...

"Listen.do not disturb my family's tranquility." he said. Very narrow way of thinking. "Well, those words you should have said to your wife, not to me. Because he is the one who always messes with my life" I said while looking at him sharply. I don't know where the courage is until I can make such a speech. "That's enough...!" said brother Mirza. His hand was raised into the air. But it didn't touch me because Keanu's brother caught it. "Enough, Mirza." said brother Keanu firmly. His eyes were slightly rounded staring at Mirza's sister.

Brother Mirza was silent. His eyes were still as if he had realized something.

Self Reminder :

"Ibn Umar RA said, "I came to see Prophet Muhammad SAW with 10 people, and one of the Anshar asked, who is the smartest and most noble person, O Messenger of Allah? The Prophet replied, The ones who remember death the most and are most prepared to face it, they are the ones who are intelligent, they leave with the glory of the world and honor." (HR Ibn Majah).