As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 90's. Angers...

"God...Fara. Where the hell's that been?" said the Viennese mama who suddenly appeared before me. "Em.." I haven't been able to answer my mother's question, I heard a coughing sound from Dania's room. But this is a male voice. I became curious. My steps immediately targeted the room occupied by Dania.

"Your brother Keanu had fallen in front of the door" said the mother who followed my steps.

Deg.

I don't care what my mom says anymore. My mind was only on Keanu's brother. I saw Keanu's leg lying with a cut on his forehead. "Sister.." I said softly as I rubbed his arm. "Where have you been, Fara? Mom came, you didn't exist. Thankfully, there was Dania. So Keanu can be helped quickly." said mama.

How many times should you say her name? Then why should be in the room occupied Dania. Can't be in our own room. "I'm sorry, brother.." I said softly. There's a sense of guilt tearing up to fill this heart niche. Why did this happen when I wasn't with him? "I'm fine, Fara.." said Brother Keanu stammeringly. "What do you feel?" I almost cried. Brother Keanu smiled at me. His hands pointed to his head. I also lightly rubbed his head

"Don't worry so. I'm it's okay. Just tired" said Keanu. Next to her hand rubbed my cheek that I did not realize was flooded with tears. "Ah, crybaby.." said brother Keanu. This time his hand pinched my nose. "We moved rooms? Or.. I don't want to be here?" I said a little manyun. "We're moving on." replied Brother Keanu quickly.

Hearing that answer, I immediately stepped in for help. At the doorstep, my steps were blocked by Dania. He smiled at me. "You will be eliminated, Fara." whispered Dania.

Deg.

Are you brave and sure about this, Dania? It turns out that there are still women who attack directly the legitimate wife of the man he said he loved. Hey. I'm still alive not to mention dead, Dania. You are shameless. I just smiled in response to Dania's words and then continued to call Mang Dudung and Pak Sobirin, our house security guard.

"Yes, Nya.." replied Mang Dudung followed by Mr. Sobirin with quick steps shortly after I called him. "We move, sir to the upper room" said I who immediately followed the two.

"But, Fara... I think it'll make it easier for doctors to check if Keanu's in this room" prevent Dania. "Just calm down, Dania. Doctors are paid to reach their patients even at the top of the volcano" I said as I prepared Mr. Keanu. At first glance I see Brother Keanu smiling even though thin. His eyes were staring at me and Dania. Maybe Keanu's sister is looking for a reaction in my face or Dania. I saw Dania with the tail of my eyes, she seemed silent. Only his gaze alone showed a hint of annoyance.

"Begging for help, sir, Mang.." I said. Mang Dudung and Pak Sobirin also helped support Keanu's footsteps. Slowly but surely, one-on-one stairs successfully passed. And occasionally Keanu's sister looks at me. At the end of his gaze, I think there was a question that was so sharp. Ask what he seems to want to say immediately. Be patient, brother, I will answer all your questions.

"Thank you Mang, sir.." I said when Keanu's brother managed to fall on the bed. "Come here." said Keanu. His eyes are looking at me. I sat down on the edge of the bed with a smile. "Where are...?" ask brother Keanu briefly. His eyes were staring at me. "Em, from the cafe" I replied as I tidied up the blanket covering her body, without looking at her. "Where are...?" ask Keanu again. This time his voice was a little high.

Hearing his question, I stopped my light activity and sat on the lip of the bed. My lips put on a smile while looking at her. There is a tightness that creeps when the question rises. Unlike usual, Keanu did that.

"Fara went to the cafe. After that to the beach. Pondering.." I replied while keeping a look on the fingers that had been playing the tip of my hood. "Mirhats...?" ask brother Keanu. "not confided. I was just trying to calm my heart. Since Dania's arrival, my feelings have been erratic" I said trying to be as calm as possible.

I saw with my tail, brother Keanu looked at me fixedly. At the end of his gaze was a hint of anger. His hands clenched. "What do you think of me as, Fara? You left without my permission. Your story is not perfect either. Where are you going, Fara...?!" said Keanu with his anger. His hand grabbed the glass vase on the nightstand and threw it at the wall until it fell apart. Finding his behavior that I was aghast until my steps receded a few steps.

"Say...! Tell me where you're going?!" yell out Keanu's brother. His eyes looked at me with anger. This is Keanu's first anger since our nearly three-year marriage. I know he was actually depressed with this situation for some time. But really I didn't expect him in the slightest if he was going to vent it at this moment.

"I...I.." I said, almost crying. "Say, Fara... Say...!" said Mr. Keanu repeatedly. This time the nearby items were subjected to his rampage. My tears broke seeing her face. "What's wrong with you, brother" I said softly as I shrank my tears.

I approached Keanu's brother who was sitting leaning against the wall. Both hands hugged his knees. While his gaze was stored on the tip of his foot. Then I managed to muster up the courage and clenched it. "I'm sorry, brother.." I said. And my tears broke again.

"In the current situation, I just want to look at you. Though temptation strikes the eye, my eyes only look at you. And my heart always calls out to you, Fara. Don't you understand the pressure I've been under for a while? Do you think you're the only one suffering?! Do you think you're the one who got hurt?! Tell Fara do you know that?" said brother Keanu with anger. "I'm sorry, brother.." I said softly.

Jeez..apparently I was wrong. Wrongly placed my judgment on Keanu's brother. I think all the laughter and language of Keanu is his acceptance of the presence of Dania. But it doesn't seem like it. His heart kept staring at me. His mind was still planning for me. And my departure at this time, is very disappointing. She felt unappreciated as a husband.

I'm sorry brother. You should be the only place I tell stories. You're the only place I complain about. And you're the only place I'm authorized to be. For indeed your service is the opening of my way to His heaven. I'm sorry brother...

Eight o'clock, five minutes. The night began to crawl away. I who was still sitting near Keanu's brother who was still sitting leaning back could only stare at him fixedly while occasionally throwing an apology. "I'm jealous, Fara.. Even if you go with your brother Noah. Because you prefer him to complain than me" said brother Keanu lirih.

"I was wrong. But can't you hear me?" my words that he immediately responded by circulating his gaze at me. "Do you think jealousy belongs only to you? Do you think I have no right to be angry like my brother right now?" I said a little annoyed. "I'm jealous too. As the laughter continued with Dania. And slowly all of Dania's behavior bears fruit to your recipient, brother. I was disappointed and hurt when I found out you were with her shopping. I was also sad when you made plans with Dania to pick up mama. I was angry to see all of your togetherness. Didn't you realize that?" saku sayu.

The door was knocked from the outside. And brother Keanu signaled that I didn't care. "It's our business. Enough of us to finish it" said brother Keanu while trying to stand up. I also intended to help him when his body was low, but again his hand signaled for me to undo my intentions. "I met Brother Noah, just a coincidence. No promise before. Then Brother Noah took me to see a friend of his. He works as a doctor. And the doctor was willing to give me therapy. He believed that I could recover. Brother knows, when he said that my hope rose again. I also want to go back to what I used to be, Brother." I said with tears that returned to freefall.

"Then why do you never say that the wood is angry, disappointed, injured for all my behavior" said Keanu, who was sitting on the edge of the bed. "I'm a gamang, Brother. Half my soul wishes you all the best, even if you have to separate from you because of my unhealed condition. But some of my soul is in revolt. Because I can't be left behind or leave my sister" I said feelingly.

Brak's...!

Room door in the break. Stand up mom and Dania. Seeing the messy situation in the room, my mother panicked. His eyes were sharply directed at me who was still sitting on the floor and leaning against the side of the bed. "You're out of your mind, Fara. Your husband is sick, you're like this..!" mama said loudly. Ah, mama thinks Keanu's brother was the victim. My mother didn't realize that I was the victim. Victims of all mama's deeds some time.

"We just moved to the room mama.." said the mother while tidying up the clothes and long hair legs Keanu who looked messy. "No, Ma..This is my room" said Keanu, who was still staring at me. "Yes, honey. But let Min clean it first. After that you will occupy it again" said the mother who occasionally looked at me. "Go, brother." I said standing up. There was a pill that snuck into the tip of my heart when I asked him to leave. "Maybe this is the best thing for you" I said as I turned my gaze away from her.

"Let's go.." take Dania sweet. Hearing that is grim the more I feel. Maybe this is the end of my marriage. After almost three years together. I sobbed bated. I don't want Keanu's brother to see my grief.

Ten o'clock at night. I heard his third step away. Go leave me alone in my sobs. As the door closed, I realized I was alone. And the more broken my cry.

Then, out of nowhere came a close embrace warmed my body. From the scent of his body I understand very well if this decapitation belongs to my own husband. "Sister Keanu." I said softly. "Yes, baby." said Keanu. My tears broke even more when I heard her voice. There was a relief that enveloped the soul as it grabbed me. The half of my soul that had originally revolted over my sincerity of letting Keanu's brother go was now cheering heavily. A cheer for the presence of Keanu's brother who tightly grabbed me.

"I'm not leaving you. Now or later" said brother Keanu who immediately rewarded me with a kiss on my forehead. "I'm sorry for being rude to you. Forgive me for hurting your feelings. Now I understand how you feel about me. It means that what Mirza is saying is not proven" said Keanu, who still holds me.

Deg.

Mirza's? Why is that name among the conversations about us. Is this all related to him. "What does this have to do with Mirza's sister, sister?" I asked while looking at her face. He just smiled and tightened his arms. "Sister.." I said with curiosity. "Come here." said brother Keanu while pointing me at the sofa.

"Since the first year of our marriage, when she learned of our relationship Mirza came to me. He said a lot about you and about him. The last few months before we moved into this house" Keanu said.

Keanu Flashback On

Two o'clock five minutes. In a corner of the cafe. I sit back and relax. My eyes are staring out the window. A message I received a moment ago, so it managed to undo my intention to leave the cafe after lunch. It has been almost thirty minutes since the message was sent, I am still faithfully waiting for the sender of the message.

"Sorry to wait a long time" said a man who sat directly in front of me. "What do you want to talk about, Mr. Mirza" I said flatly. "Fara.." he said briefly. His eyes are looking at me. I scrunched my forehead in reaction to his words. In the heart began to stir when the name of my wife was called by Mirza who actually had become 'former' for him. "What's wrong with Fara?" I said try to calm down. "Leave her. He doesn't love you. He just loves me. Her decision to choose and marry you just wanted to vent her anger on me. He wants revenge on me" said Mirza, who infuriated me. "Where do you know if he doesn't love me and only loves you?" I asked while holding back the turmoil that was rumbling.

Mirza smiled at me. He sighed, "you just look at it as he looked at me. His eyes won't lie, will they?" mirza. "Ah, that doesn't prove anything Mirza. Sometimes those eyes can lie" I said. "Well, that's right. Now contrary. Do you feel like he loves you when he sees it in his beautiful eyes" Mirza said. I'm speechless.

"One more time, how many times have you had sex with her? I he will always refuse if you ask him" he said again.

Deg.

His words are starting to make sense. Half of my heart agrees with what Mirza just said. Wait...what's the good thing he's discussing this? I'm sure Mirza is affecting my mind. Trying to erode my belief in Fara's love for me. But.why am I gamang. Because what Mirza said has a point. Ah, shit you're Mirza.

"Have you ever wondered why he would reject you more often than accept you for intercourse?" mirza said again this time accompanied by kekeh. "You know what about Fara now. You have been separated for a long time. I believe Fara's love is only for me now" I said as I stood up. Mirza still chuckled and looked at me.

"You sure Keanu...? Not even a special sign on Fara's body you don't know it" he said again. I was furious with all the words and reactions on his face every time he spoke about Fara. I want to feel like I'm floating a raw bogem on his face, but I wouldn't be as elegant as doing it. I finally chose to leave him. "Ah, fuck all your words." I said as I passed by.

"Have you ever kissed those thin, sultry lips, Keanu...!" mirza shouted like an uncivilized man. Lips...? Ah, damn why did you say all that Mirza. Is this true or is it just a tactic to separate me from Fara? "Ah, fuck...!" my grunts with a gamang that began to haunt.

Keanu Flashback Off