As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 45's. Husband Childhood...

"Follow me." he said and again he pulled my hand. He took me to a room not far from where I was. My eyes were again shocked by the contents of the room. My heart rippled violently as I stared at every photo. "Do you remember, Fara...?" her question made me look back at her face. "You.." I said doubtfully. My eyes re-circulated on the photos hanging on the wall. "That's you, Fara." he said as he looked at each photo with a little girl in it. I nodded confidently. And my eyes are now fixed on a medium-sized photo hanging slightly in the corner of the room. Same photo as the one I always took. The photo is now gone somewhere. The photo I always took first. My memory bounced back in my childhood. "Sister Keanu." I said softly. "Yes. It's me, Fara." he said smiling sumringah because I managed to remember him back. He took me back in his arms. "Sister.so long brother left me. So that time almost erased it from my memory" I said while shedding tears. "I'm sorry. The story is so long, Fara. I am grateful that I finally found you. Even though our meeting is a little painful to me" he said while tightening his arms.

"You guys here...?" said mama Vienna who suddenly was behind us. "Ma.." said brother Keanu who immediately loosened his arms. "I'm sorry, Mama. Fara doesn't recognize mom at all" I said, hugging her. "It's okay, honey. Mama understood" said mama Vienna while gently peeling my forehead.

Ten o'clock past five minutes. I'm already in the room. There's Vienna mama and Keanu's sister. Both of them looked very serious about my story. All I've told you about is from Merry's grandmother leaving me to my grieving story. Until I was reunited with my father. "After reuniting with Mirza, of course Keanu already knows how the story of my life" I said as I occasionally wiped my tears that sometimes flowed just like that. Brother Keanu also smiled and gave a small nod of affirming signs as an answer to my question.

"Darling..sorry mama Vienna huh?" said mama while rubbing my head. "Why should you apologize?" astonished say. I heard the heavy breath of mama Vienna. His eyes looked at me with sadness. "We once promised each other that we would always look after the children if anything happened to one of us. And when your amah goes away, mama can't keep that promise" she said, wiping away her tears. "Ma, there's no one to blame. Everything has become Fara's hand line." said I who hugged my mother tightly. "Yes.for the next hopefully Fara will always be happy. Even if it is currently in trouble, hopefully quickly resolved" he said. "Aamiin.." I said with a smile looking at Keanu's brother.

Eleven o'clock past five minutes. The conversation continued even though the night continued to crawl far away. "Then why can you be Mirza's bodyguard?" my words were only answered by a smile and a swipe at the tip of my head. "It's late, the big lady's rest" he said to me. "What the hell, brother." I said as I threw him with a sofa pillow. He laughed and avoided my throw. "Tomorrow we'll tell you again. Okay...?" he said while holding his mother and passed. I stared at the backs of the two until they were lost behind the door.

Eleven o'clock past fifteen minutes. I can't close my eyes even once. My mind is really disturbed. And a series of events that I experienced also drowned in my memory. Likes, bitter-sweet to how it feels to lose was all I have gone through it seems. And this time when happiness comes, again grief comes. I should have lost Mirza's sister. After a long time I was swayed in anxiety and distrust. "Yes...Robb, what should I do?" lirih.

Tut's...Tut's...Tut's...

A voice woke me from the daydream. My eyes immediately turned to the cable phone on the left side of the bed that seemed to flicker. "Yes.." I said shortly after lifting him up. "Can't sleep...?" a voice I know well. "What should I do, brother. With everything I've been through, of course, my sleep will be disrupted" I said as I looked at myself in the mirror. "Let's talk. Five minutes I pick you up in front of the door of the room ya.." said brother Keanu who immediately I assented a sign of agreement.

At one in the morning. My bedroom door opened slowly until the creaking was barely audible. I smiled as I found a smile on Keanu's handsome face. "We just sit there, okay?" he said as he pointed at the Bean bag in the space between our rooms. In addition, the navy sofa again adorned the room. "It's cold tonight huh.." complained Keanu who immediately close his jacket. "Em, a minute." he said again later. He passed for a while and then came back with a blanket. He smiled and looked at me while giving the blanket to me. A form of attention that I think is very sweet from a man to a woman. And my question is why is Keanu's sister still single? What are his job demands? Or is there something else?

"How does Fara feel now?" his uvmca suddenly woke me up from my wild daydreams. "Em, mix it up" I answered then while grabbing the blanket to the body. The stupidest answer I ever gave. "If you feel that way, I find it hard to imagine how you are now." replied Keanu, who smiled like a potluck. Maybe he was disappointed with my answer. "Fara herself did not know what to describe her current feelings. I don't know. For sure Fara doesn't know what to do with our relationship?" I said while staring at the end of my foot. "You love Mirza?" said brother Keanu investigating my feelings. His eyes did not look at me. I nodded while stealing his gaze. There was disappointment at the end of his gaze. He also remained silent for a moment. "What else is Fara waiting for? If you really love her, keep it. Take back Mirza" he said later. Hearing that I chuckled. "How come? The woman was also his legal wife by religious law and again she was the first wife of sister Mirza. Even if I sue the state legally, I still lose. I'm the second wife, brother.." I said a little bitterly. "And again the woman was pregnant with Mirza's child" said I who made Keanu's brother surprised. It was evident from the reaction on his face. I also took a long breath. My gaze was circling the room. "Now you know how I feel?" I said with a thin smile.

"If you were in my position, what would you do" I said, laying my head on the edge of the sofa. "First I'm gonna beat Mirza up for being so dishonest. Second I'll stay with her. Because love. And I will take it back" said Keanu. "Then close your eyes to the suffering of other women?" my spoken. Keanu laughed at my statement. It was only this time that I saw it in such a way that its white teeth were clearly visible. "For a while, hang on. If the wound gets deeper because of Mirza, then talk to Mirza. If the more injured, then it would be better to finish and go as far as possible" he said again with a serious face. I'm speechless. "Can I do it?" lirih. "It's better to try than to just be quiet and be damned" Keanu said without expression or looking at me. And I fell silent, but my heart confirmed what Keanu's brother had just said. All right, I'll go back to Mirza's sister. I should try it. On humanitarian grounds, Amara managed to grab the attention of Mirza's sister. But on the basis of love I will try to understand the decision that Mirza has made. I'll take back my love. And I make sure my love is not a weak love.

Keanu Flashback On

"Indra...Come outside!" said Mr. William who forcibly entered the house. It appeared behind him three burly men and a young man of tall stature, handsome and dashing. "Nobody's home, sir." Mama's lie trembled a little. I know papa just slipped out of the house. His hand held my arm. "He's been unfair. My company is ruined because of it...! I want to hold him accountable" said Mr. William beaver. The glass table in the room was also the target of his rampage. Break apart formless no more. My mom was hysterical to see all of this. His hand gripped my arm so firmly.

Two o'clock past fifteen minutes. My mom and I who were still sitting on the couch were startled by the ringing of an unknown number. "Yes." answered the mother with a changed face. "Where...?" said mama again. His face has really changed. Even puddles of tears began to plunge freely like a waterfall. I was afraid to see my mom like that. I asked her many times, but she kept quiet. Only his hysterical screams and the sound of his sobbing filled the room. "Your father is gone, Keanu. Your papa had an accident." said mama in between her tears. "What....!" i'm surprised. I'm lunglai. My body receded and sat down. Suddenly my anger was aroused. "This must have been the work of Sir William. Goddamn it....!" I said standing up and almost passed. My mother prevented my departure. He won my anger. "Mama doesn't want to lose you either. Don't go, son.." said the hysterical mama. I hugged my mom tightly. Our cries at that time decorated the room.

Five o'clock past twenty minutes. My mom and I are still in the cemetery. Although pilgrims have long left the papa pusara. And I'm still resting on top of papa's belly button. My tears have not been able to be contained. All the advice has not been able to calm my angry heart. Not anger at God. It's anger for Mr. William. My hands are clenching great. "I'm going to get back at them, Pa.." I said repeatedly.

Five o'clock past twenty minutes. The same day and month, exactly three years ago. I sat near papa's belly button. My eyes were dry, but my anger never subsided. "Pa, I'm in fifth semester. I've been through it all so well. And look, Pa. My body is different. My body is much more contained, stocky and handsome like papa. I've been studying martial arts for almost three years. And almost perfect. In a moment I will repay the treatment of Mr. William, Pa" I said softly while sowing flowers.

The sun was getting drowned and left a red tinge on the horizon. The birds returned to the nest. I walked down the path in that red burial ground. "Master.." said Satria as she opened the car door. "Is there a way I can get into William's family?"ask Satria who is sitting behind the wheel. "Already sir...Mr. William's youngest son seemed to be one campus with a master. Her name is Mirza Adhiatma" Satria said. "Oyeah...? What semester and what courses?" manya curious. "Same as master, but different majors. Mr. Mirza business management. At this age, he already has his own company. That's the great thing about Mirza. His brother David is a doctor" Satria said. I smiled at the information. It turned out that God made it easier for me to approach William's family.

Keanu Flashback Off

I hear all of Keanu's explanations. My eyes are looking at him sharply. "And you know, what was my first assignment when I managed to become Lord Mirza's bodyguard?" said Brother Keanu who I answered directly with a headband. "Finding you.." he said while looking at me. I also gave a short time while smiling and looking at him. "But there is a reason that makes me accept it." he said again. "What...?" tanyaku brief. "You're Fara. Because I know it's you. My childhood best friend who I was also looking for" he said, shaking my head.

"Thank you for finding me. Thank you for taking care of me and always there for me" I said as I put the blanket on my body. "Then why until now the grudge of brother has not been avenged" I asked. "I'm aware that everything that happens to papa is not absolutely the fault of Mr. William, Mirza or David. Even the three have nothing to do with it at all. All pure behavior Roy, the first son of Mr. William from another wife" said Keanu with a staring look away. "So big brother's target is now Roy?" my many. "Come away." he said, turning his eyes to me. His hand rubbed my head.

"So tomorrow the princess will return to the house of Lord Mirza?" ask her a little while rounding her eyes. "Come on.." I answered briefly. "Em, brother Keanu, where are you going tomorrow?" ask me again. "Work.." she answered briefly. "Work? Any more orders from your Mirza master?" my words that make Keanu's brother laugh until his body shakes. "You think bodyguards are my main job? I have a company, too, baby. I have responsibilities there. Your childhood husband is the director, baby." she said in between her laughter. And again his hand ruffled the tip of my head.