As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 79's. Keanu Belief

My eyes stared at the flower buds that sometimes swung in the wind. And the fragrance had fallen on the tip of my nose. Meanwhile, the sky suddenly began to be shrouded in thin gray clouds. Mentari Puna slowly began to hide a collection of clouds that were increasingly lively. A sign that the earth will soon be called rain.

Nine o'clock, fifteen minutes. I'm still in a wheelchair on the balcony. My eyes continued to play on the white flower bed that was sometimes blown by the wind. There was a swirl filling my heart. Especially when Keanu's shadow is with the beautiful woman. These lips say that if Keanu brother is ready to find a replacement, but somehow this heart is silent if you see the togetherness of it. What kind of feeling is this? Giving permission, but the heart hurts. Giving him a chance to choose another, but this poignant haunting. Gee whiz...

Ah, what exactly is my wish? My gambang kept on going. Creeper until it meets the succum. In every swaying flower, I leave all the flavors. Until my tears fell without feeling. This mess of feelings is of course I myself who have made it. I don't know which fire door I've been stirring up Keanu's brother's anger spilled. Until now, his face has not been met. The charisma of his voice had not yet tickled the ears. Where is my handsome man? And again in the wind and then I put all the flavors that exist. I wish the owner of this heart felt what I felt.

"Darling.." said a voice so distinctive in the ear. Again, I hope to find him now. "Darling.." said the voice again. This time I was surprised. How not? The owner's burly arms sound tightly coiled to me. And...Oh, my God, my heart's really pounding. The rhythm is running and so timid. May I? I almost cried. Especially when a kiss comes on my forehead. I was blown away by my heart with joy. I have ended my wait for his presence.

Even so, suddenly just one question teases in the heart. Will his true presence bring news that will make my heart laugh? Or just give me a sprain? Yeah, God...I can't afford to explain it. What is certain is that my mind also momentarily wanders back, tracing every time that holds various events both happy and poignant. Especially when Keanu's sister was with a woman. Who with his mesra chatted and scrambled his head. If so, what should I do?

Nine o'clock past forty minutes. My eyes were still staring at the flowers that were still swaying in the wind. And once again his voice broke my wild daydream. "Honey.." he said as he continued to hold me tightly. Instead of covering up the feelings, I was indifferent. There is a wedge in my heart that I cannot reveal to cause anxiety. "Sorry, I didn't come home last night. And only now do I see you" he said, gently tucking my forehead again. "Have you started sharing?" flat say.

Brother Keanu loosened his arms. And then he chose to stand by the balcony wall. For a moment his eyes swept over the scene below. After that he twisted his body, stood leaning and looked at me. Sometimes he takes a long breath. "I never once intended to share my feelings, Fara. Since yesterday I didn't see you, doesn't mean I'm sharing this feeling. I'm trying to muffle my frustration with you" he said, looking at me. Next to his hand he put it in a bag of pants and next to him clasped tightly to the phone that occasionally shimmered "I'm sorry to me?" I was short without looking at him. "Yes. I was upset because Fara didn't believe my feelings. Our relationship becomes fragile if so, dear." he said again. "I believe in my brother's feelings. But considering my sister's conversation with my mother my heart was sanctioned. And regardless of all the suggestions I want brother to be happy. I don't want to be a big brother's burden" I said feeling almost crying. "You're sure, baby." he said looking at me. I'm sure he's looking for confidence in the deepest side of this heart from his gaze. I'm speechless. There's a storm raging and it's hard for me to clear it.

"Truly half my soul revolted, Brother. I'm not willing. I don't want it. L'm...I'm afraid of losing you" I said then just like that in between my sobs. Yes.the clear storm has fallen since. The thread is dripping on my lap.

"Honey.." said brother Keanu who immediately grabbed me and hugged me tightly. He was sobbing I guess. His breathing became a little heavy and his chest went up and down irregularly. "I can't be far from you, baby. You're my only love. Please don't say you'll take me with the others. Please don't be my only happiness you think. I want us both to be happy without anyone getting hurt

Please don't say goodbye again. Because really it will hurt both of us" he said in between tears.

It was powerless to see a man who had been so charismatic, cool, indifferent but attentive crying because of my actions. "I promise, Brother. I will never ask for your farewell. And you have to promise never to leave me" I said again, tightening my arms.

"That's my vow, baby. I will never leave you. You are my love and my life that have been my responsibility the world and the hereafter" said brother Keanu who still holds me tightly. A gentle kiss he gave me again at the top of my head made me smile happily.

There was a relief that enveloped my heart and soul. Even the leg made me able to do things I had never done while we were married. I gently kissed her lips, albeit in passing. Jiiaaahhh. Even my heart is beating so fiercely. Both my hands now cover part of my face. Be present, how brave I am. I don't know where I have the courage. To be sure Keanu's brother just became stunned. His eyes are a little round. But then he smiled at me.

"I'm happy." whispered near my ear. A little embarrassed by my treatment earlier, I chose to wrestle spoiled on his arm. And slightly buried my face in his arm. He laughed at my treatment.

Even so, my mind suddenly began to travel again. This time it was directly fixed on the figure of the woman I saw with him yesterday. I'm speechless. Only my eyes were staring at him deeply while shrinking tears. "What's wrong?" ask brother Keanu. His hand rubbed gently on my head. "I'm not calm, brother...My heart and mind are still haunted by the beautiful figure who was yesterday with my sister" I said as I stared at her who stood leaning against the balcony wall. "This is not what he said. Or my imagination. It's real because I saw it for myself. How brother ruffled his head. How she laughed with him. Everything makes this heart filled with anger" I said almost crying again.

Brother Keanu smiled. His eyes glistened at me. But in the corner of the gaze there was a horror that I managed to catch. It's real. This is the mysteriousness of a young master Keanu.

"I'm happy. You're worried about my feelings right now. You're jealous, honey." he said a little bit. His hand pinched my nose. "Look.." he said then while circling me and forwarding my wheelchair. Hey...Where will I be taken??

"He's a nobody. He's just my acquaintance. Em, my best friend in martial arts college. Sorry for my treatment of him. Just a reflex" he said again as he continued to advance my wheelchair. If you see the direction, obviously this is towards the back area of the house, especially if it is not a park. But what would Keanu want to take me to the park? Didn't it start raining outside one by one.

And in the end I closed my eyes, even though there was a little doubt. My face also looked up at the sky. One rain point came to my face. Over time it becomes frequent. In the end it is not until again because the spatter has turned into a splash. "Sister Keanu...!" I said half scream. "Yes, baby." he said, holding me tight from behind. At first glance I saw Satria smilingly staring at the behavior of her master.

I drowned in the rain. There is relief when the rain washes the whole body. Ah, young master labile clever you made me like this. A situation I rarely enjoy. Our laughter became clearer as we circled around in the middle of the park near the pond.

"The most dangerous enemy in the world is fear and worry. Whereas, the most loyal friend is only courage and confidence without a doubt."

Eleven o'clock past fifteen minutes. Satria came to us. Half of his body was wet even though the umbrella protected him. His lips poked the word near Keanu's ear. Slightly round the eyes of Keanu hearkened to every word of Satria. Not to mention the end said Satria, stepping grubby in the rain of a woman. His hand held a raised umbrella to protect the body. Even so, part of his body had been wet by the rain.

Hey, who is he? I can't explain it because his face is covered in a red umbrella that expands. The steps are getting closer. "Mas.." he said as he stood in front of Keanu's brother. And that's when I saw his face. Heart wry. "Geez..isn't she the girl Keanu met yesterday at the restaurant? What's he gonna do?" I'm ingrained. My eyes took turns staring at the woman and Keanu's sister.

"I...I'm pregnant, Mas" said the woman. From the look on his face I believe there are a million plagues that are ambushing him. "I'm gonna help you, please. Please marry me." she said.

Degs...

Suddenly my heart beat to listen to the woman's words. There was an uproar that broke my heart and tore and cut my trust in Keanu's brother. "Let's sit down first" said Brother Keanu as he stepped. His hand held the woman's arm and told her to sit on a garden chair in a gazebo. I finally followed his second step. A little distance away I stopped my wheelchair.

"I beg you, help me" said the woman I just knew named Sarah. Gaining that request, Keanu's brother looked at me. I don't know what he meant by that look. Did Brother Keanu ask my opinion on that request? Or did Keanu just want to know the reaction implied on my face? Ah, chaos...

"Please brother Fara. Let Keanu marry me. I will not demand more. I just want to be around him. The child I bear is not Keanu's son, but only Keanu can help me" said the woman as she sat down before me. Her tears began to fall. While his hand held my hand. I'm speechless.

Yes, Lord..what else is this? Should my story with sister Mirza be repeated? I'm fucked. There is a heat that inhabits these eyes and slowly but surely presents a clear grain. Even so, my fall was withstood.

"Sarah's mother." I said then as calmly as possible even though the storm was raging in the heart. "What is my reason that I should grant my wish?" flat say. He was stunned looking at me. "Because only Keanu can help me, brother. I love Mas Keanu. Since long ago while still in college" said Sarah bowed.

"Ow, so since you love Keanu's feet we're entitled to ask him to marry you? To please your heart you're going to ruin our marriage? Very funny, you..!" I said half scream. "Sister, I'll take care of Keanu. Brother Fara don't worry. Especially after seeing the condition of my brother, I make sure that Keanu mas will never be lacking" he said slicing a wound in the heart. "Supply...!" say me.

Then, I looked at Keanu's brother who had been silent since. His eyes also clashed with my gaze. He smiled slightly forcedly while sighing deeply. Keanu took a step and approached Sarah. Swiping off his head. "Sarah.sorry, I can't help you" Keanu said. "But I once said I would fulfill all my requests because I had helped people at that time" said Sarah. "Yes. I said thank you for all that. But I'm not paying off my debt right now. I can't sacrifice the heart of a woman I love to pay off my debt. Ii'm sorry. You can ask for another" said Keanu as he looked at me. I was so full of hearing it. I almost had a smile on my face.

"Then what should I do?" sarah is hysterical. "I'll help you. Really am...But not on this road. Rest assured, I will definitely fulfill my promise and repay my debt" said Keanu. "Now it's better, Sarah's home. Wait for news from me" said Keanu again. His hand signaled to Satria to immediately escort Sarah. "Well, sir.." said Satria Takzim. His eyes were on Sarah. "Let's go." said Satria, raising Sarah's arm, who was still sitting in a doldrums.

Both passed. His steps were so gontai almost powerless. Somehow he feels now. Sad, embarrassed or ordinary. Ah, I can't take it for sure. But from his steps I could tell that he was not okay. My eyes were still staring and both of them were lost at the end of the park road.

At one in five minutes. The sky began to be friendly with the wind that was willing to fly dark clouds so that the sky was clean again. The sun came back cheerful why the earth with warm. Along with that, my smile grew. There's a happy hue to Keanu's statement. "I'm sorry, baby." said Brother Keanu who again hugged me tightly.