As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 72's. Saying But Unspoken...

Three weeks to the day. One week ago since the proposal of brother Keanu received Brother Noah as my guardian has been used to make our main preparations, such as looking for the best WO, wedding dress to the invitation. Everything is done in a careful way and in the shortest tempo. Hehe.as the text of the proclamation alone yes. Because the time is so short. Only one month from the time of determination when the betrothed to the heart H. But isn't it also the time to proclaim our love in the Kabul hijab? Ah, can ae.

Ten o'clock past fifteen minutes. As agreed, today I will meet again Keanu's brother. This time we will meet WO for other preparations such as the selection of souvernir and other trinkets. My steps became swift as my eyes stared at the no longer-bright sky turning blue as dark clouds began to envelop him. The sun seems to have begun to hesitate to greet the earth. And the light became faint because it began to be stored behind the dark clouds.

My red car drove pretty fast through the cold gusts that started to say hello. Maybe soon the rain will rain down on the earth. Rain that gives benefit to all nature. And sure enough, before long the rainy point began to run down to the earth. The point is still rare, because this is the beginning. Even so, enough to make some people disperse and run scattering looking for shade. The birds did not escape the exposure to rain the longer the point the more frequent to infinity. Protect the bird in the shade of trees. Occasionally he flicked his body to reduce the saturation of the water that plastered the feathers on his body. In the meantime, I'm still adamant about keeping my red car going. The speed is able to break the rain to bouncy the point of rain into the air for a moment and then fall back to the earth. Amidst the rain, my daydream began to bloom. My mind wandered to form a smile. The look on my face is so sumringah. Right now my mind is with a feeling that always makes me happy.

"Sister Keanu." I said softly. Remembering all the smiles, speech and treatment made me feel special. Not a single word of his said denigrated my current status. "Thank you, brother. You're a special man. May it be forever" my gunam. Along with the pace of my red car, my daydreams also increased. Even so, my focus on the streets remained present and convincing. This was proven when a sports car stole my lane, I was able to avoid it. I was relieved even though the heart had been tight-fisted with a heartbeat that seemed to surge.

Drrt...Drrt...Drrt

Cellphone fluoresces. Ah, the beloved shoots also arrived. Just know if I'm thinking about it. "Assalamu'alaikum's chat...Sis?" sumringah. "Wa'alaikumussalam's chat...Where it is, dear" said brother Keanu on the other end of the phone. "On the road. Ten minutes to go" I said. "I'm sorry, I can't pick you up" she said. "It's okay, Brother. Fara understood" I said while keeping a smile. "Be careful, baby. Rain, the road can be slippery. Just slowly. No need to rush" said Keanu. From the way he said I'm sure there's a worry stored. Ah, brother Keanu. Thank you for worrying about me. And I promise to always be as careful as you say. Wait for me...

Ten o'clock past forty-five minutes. Still under the rain when a sports car steals my lane again. Ow. Apparently the owner of the car intends to play with me. Many times his sports car groaned fiercely as if challenging me. I didn't respond to him. Not one bit interested in the behavior that can disturb anyone. But I was intrigued when he groaned once again. My eyes were also distorted for a moment. My eyes stared at the owner of the car as we aligned. As if accidentally seen the owner of the car left the car window open. We looked before he slammed the steering wheel to the left where I was as if he wanted to hit me. "Mara.." I said softly. And it wasn't until we were fighting, but it managed to make me lose control. Realizing that my red car wasn't under my control anymore, I panicked. I tried to put it under my control again. Just a fraction of a second my car just drove off. My car was so great just before being hit by a car. I was so hysterical. My mind is soaring, maybe it's the end of my life. A moment ago, my car came into the air. Turn a few feet before finally rolling rough on a long road. His voice was so loud. I'm getting hysterical. My body was tossed around mercilessly. There is no pain I feel. I don't know how much blood flows from my wounds. All I felt was a lot of warm melt all over my body. Could it be blood? I'm ingrained. My eyes are no longer open. "Yes...Robby, please servant" I said. Either from the heart or spoken. I really don't know. I'm just trying to do what I want to do right now. But it turns out that everything is beyond the limits of my abilities.

Under the rain that every point began to break through the car that had been torn. Wet my body and of course make my whole body inflamed violently. I really think so because of it. "Please.." I just muttered that I think I've been screaming out loud. Shortly after, my ears faintly heard the commotion. Maybe some people were around the scene. Or maybe another driver. In the midst of the fanfare, my phone shimmered.

Drrt...Drrt...Drrt...

The founder is repeatedly non-stop. I'm sure Brother Keanu is worried about me. Delay is the cause. "Help me, brother." I groaned. And once again my phone shimmered. How can I answer it, while my body is difficult to move. I felt like I was crying at the time. Crying really. I was lamenting the fate. It turns out that cloudy in my life is not over because the bright sun is still always defeated cloudy. While the moonlight was no longer able to wash away the wounds in my life. For a moment my eyes stared at the noise around me. And suddenly everything went dark. Even my ears can't hear the noise anymore. Everyone became silent. And so deserted. I also tried to wake my body. Unfortunately, my body did not respond. Really quiet."Bangun Fara's...Wakes up. Move.." I shouted, which turned out to be just my wishful thinking. I was crying at that moment. So grim. So desperate. So bad, don't know what to do. And for the next I know nothing more. Everything became completely silent.

The doctors and nurses approached me. Brother Keanu is so fucked up. His eyes were endlessly staring at me from behind the window. He was obviously worried about me. I wept. I feel like I'm blaring great. Yeah, Robby.I'm gonna give me one more chance. I want to be happy with a man who has always loved me since childhood. The man to whom I had promised to be his wife when he grew up. I beg you very well, Robby 'Azza Wajalla.

Heart shock devices also act. My body repeatedly shocks violently. But there is no result. I saw Brother Keanu so sad. He repeatedly shrank the tears that had been spilled unstoppable again. Stand him at the window. His hands clenched against the side of the glass window. That semester, the efforts of the doctors continued and did not despair. They keep trying to do their best for me. I was crying hysterically. My voice felt so blaring towards the vastness of space brought prayers and prayers to the Catholic Robbul'izati. Then along with that my body again shook like it was shaken. After that my heart rhythm again filled my body. Sumringah Kak Keanu while hugging Noah's brother who had just approached him. Both of them did that for a long time. After that, they both looked at me. And Keanu's brother signaled with his lips. "I love you, Fara. Hang in. For the sake of our love" I roughly interpreted her lip gesture. I wept. Unable to see his heartache. And this time a doctor seemed to notice the presence of these tears. He immediately called Keanu's brother.

Running away from Keanu after getting the doctor's speech. He looked at me clingy. Both of his eyes glazed when he found the melt of my tears. "Alhamdulillah." he said as he rubbed my head gently, then kissed it for a while while removing the melt of my tears that were not as hard as usual.

I've already felt the rhythm of my heart beat back after the anfal just now. O God, it turns out that the distance of death is so thin with life. Things close, even very close. I'm feeling it now. And it is as easy as turning the palm of the hand, and Allah makes a decree upon a servant. I am more and more aware that life and death are in His grasp. I cannot escape the death that You were destined to die.

"Wherever you are, death will surely come to you, even though you take refuge in a very high and sturdy fortress" (Q.S. Size: 78)

"We all belong to Allah, and to Him we shall all return" (Q.S Al-Baqarah: 156).

I came back crying. After feeling this heartbeat, I felt the pleasure of life. I hope God will give me another chance to experience my life with those I love.

Still don't know when. For sure I'm getting saddened to see how Keanu's brother worries about my condition. I'm sorry, Brother. I did not keep my promise to be careful or in good condition. But this is not my will. Nor for my fault. Outside of a destiny that God has set, I see the cause of all this. Amara.ya Amara is the cause. I've realized. Even the grin shortly before the fateful event was still real I remember .

Amara your blind love has hardened your heart and blinded the eyes of your heart. Until someone's right to life wants you taken away. My one wish, may you realize it soon before it's too late.