As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episodes 107. A Confession

Eight o'clock is ten minutes. I stared at the clear sky with the half moon hanging. The light so gently washed my face that kept looking up. Meanwhile, it looked around him sprinkled with stars with kerling panjanya. It is very fitting that the two things of God's creation adorn the sky.

Not budging a bit, I kept looking at the sky. Every now and then my hand wiped away the tears that one on one began to feel flat on my cheek. Restarting old habits with brother Keanu makes me unable to stem the drizzle in my heart. One piece of memory with brother Keanu milling alternately tickled the end of my memory.

Drrt...Drrt...Drrt.

A message graced my phone screen. I don't know who the sender is I don't know.

*Gazing at the sky is a happy thing, because we can greet the stars or smell the spoiled moon hanging at the horizon. Why the opposite happens to you. You're so upset. You're so gambled. So is sorrow.

Do not do so, I fear the crying and all your race will be in vain. I fear all your cries pinch your gratitude for His creation*.

As soon as the message is on my phone screen. I frowned. Know what she's about all the crying and what I feel. Who is he who dares to judge all my tears and race. Where does he get the right to all that. And who else is he...?

"Who are you? Why do you touch all the cries and feelings that I have?" so reply. Maybe I say it directly, then my annoyance will be obvious. "Only a coward who argues but hides his identity" I said again" he said. This time it felt a little taut.

"Hehe...Sorry if I didn't introduce myself. I thought you had saved my contact. I'm Aiman. How's Fara doing?" the message.

Deg.

Aiman...? Suddenly I felt a strange murmur seeping in my heart. No words I managed to write on the screen of the phone that was still glowing. I just looked at him. And repeatedly read the row of words he sent.

"Why silence, Fara...? Did something happen?" message again. "Why did you become a coward to stand before me? I knew my brother must be close to where I was. I know you're watching me" I said again. "I'd really like to see you, but it's not time yet. I'm afraid you'll be disappointed when you see me" he said. "You're turning into a coward Brother Mirza" I said. This time I called it by another name not as he confessed. Long time my phone doesn't glow. I'm sure he's enjoying the shock of my message.

I became impatient. I wonder what reaction he will give. Will he disappear because I know his guise? Or will he challenge me and look at me like nothing happened? I've been looking at phones that don't shine yet. Then I finally chose to leave the side porch of the house when the cold started to greet the body.

"I'm not a coward like you said, Fara." said one man. He stood leaning against the wall not far from where I was. His face is faint because it is only washed away by garden light. But from his voice I understand very well who the man who is now standing upright.

"I'm not a coward, Fara." he said again as he approached me. I'm silent. My tongue suddenly stifled. Only my eyes were staring at him as he tried to reconcile the heartbeat that had become timid.

Plaque.

I put a slap in his face. I don't know why I did it. For a moment he seemed surprised at my treatment. But then he smiled. "I take that as a welcome" he said as he continued to look at me. A look I have hated ever since. The look of a lion chasing prey. My steps receded as her lips turned a smile. "Now who is a coward? Me or you're Fara...?" said it.

"Don't quibble. Just answer my question." I said again, fixing my veil and sitting on a chair. At first glance I saw Mirza's sister rubbing her face that turned out to have been wet with her tears. I was stunned to look at him.

"At that time, Pandu or Keanu - your husband called me.." said sister Mirza while leaning against the wall.

The Mirza Flashback On

"Either I should call you what, but what if we just call each other by name" said Keanu who I immediately agreed. "I know you love Fara so much. That's why I'm asking you to take care of him" Keanu said. "What do you mean? I don't understand how a husband might hand over his wife's care to another man" I said in amazement.

"Everything is possible if my situation no longer allows me to maintain and give him happiness" Keanu said. I'm getting curious. "Mirza, I don't want to be Fara's burden. Therefore I approved my mother's proposal to report my death to her after the fatal accident" Keanu said, which made me even more curious. "I lost both legs and damaged some of my vital organs. My life now only relies on the support of various tools and drugs. While Fara herself lost her sight." Keanu said with a trembling voice.

Deg.

I wish I didn't believe everything I've heard. But it can't feel that way because Keanu himself said it. "Then what kind of help do you want from me?" my many. "Be with him and keep him until his eyes recover" Keanu said. From his voice I'm sure there was a stifled sob that made me feel full.

"I know you're on your own, Mirza. Your wife has preceded you. And I know, you've always loved Fara. And you're still hoping that Fara's love will come back to you. Because you never meant to let go of Fara" Keanu said.

"I don't know what to do, Keanu. Really...?" gamang kukaku. "Change your name and talk to doctor Faaz. Faaz already knew everything. I'm asking you because I believe you'll take care of Fara as well as I take care of her" Keanu said.

The Mirza Flashback Off

I'm speechless. Only my tears kept flowing. The thread fell one-on-one on my lap.

"I don't have any other intentions, Fara. I just want to keep you and make you as happy as Keanu wants. I do not involve the feelings that have always inhabited my heart. A feeling that never leaves my heart even my soul. Really am...I just want to fulfill Keanu's wish. He was my reval, but he was also my best friend" Mirza Long said. His eyes without looking at me. He just bowed lethargic.

"There's something else you're hiding...?" my words that managed to make him lift his face and look at me attached. "So you think I lied to you...?" said brother Mirza. "What can you do besides lie? Did you forget, didn't you become a liar?" I said as I left him.

"Fara..wait" he said as he quickly walked up to me. "I need time to believe all your words, brother. I'm sorry.." I said while gesturing with my hands. And he stopped his steps when he saw my gesture.

Half-running I entered the house that actually belongs to sister Mirza. I don't know why some part of my heart has revolted over my treatment of her.

No...! Don't trust Fara. That man once hurt you. Not once but repeatedly. Remember that...!