As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episodes 117. Mirza's Side of Life (2)

Ten o'clock past five minutes. Slowly I climbed the stairs. I followed Mirza's steps towards the roof as intended. The door is open. A cold chill rushed in, greeting me who was standing in the doorway.

"The wet part." said Mirza. His eyes circled around which looked wet because the rain had just finished flushing the earth. Even the speck one sometimes still say hello. Then I sat on a swing that was dark green. Swinging for a moment though not tight. My eyes were staring at the luminous sky. So dark. No star Kerling or soft soothing moonlight. I sighed as a face flashed in my memory. "Sister Keanu." I said very softly. His figure always came to greet me especially when sad or when I was silent looking at the sky like now. Because it is a habit of both of us.

"I really envy Keanu." said brother Mirza while sitting next to me with some hesitation. "I envy you because Keanu loves you so much. Is Keanu your first love?" said sister Mirza who made my gaze immediately turn to her.

Ah, sister Mirza. What do you want from your words? Don't tell me you're fishing in murky water or at least you're looking for answers to the questions in your heart? And what answer do you really want?

I saw Mirza's hands clenched. Don't tell me you're jealous of my love for Keanu's brother. Because I'm gonna have a hard time accepting that jealousy of yours. This wound has not healed properly. Even though my attitude has been lenient on you, it's because of all the kindness you've given me. "Is Keanu your first love, Fara...?" ask again. This time his eyes were far away.

"Why...?" I asked her to respond with a smile and a headband. "Just want to know." he said later. "Why is my sister still okay with me? Isn't it obvious that I've been asking you bad things?" my spoken. "You mean divorced...?" said staring. "Yes.." I answered briefly while swinging. "That's a choice. That'sthat's all. And I don't blame you. I should be the one who reflects." he said calmly as if without burden.

Thank you, brother has helped in my difficult time" I said sadly.

"Hey.I told you for your sake whatever I would do. Whether or not there is any relationship I will always do anything for you" he said, looking at me. "You are a good man, brother" I said. "It was my birth" he said, chuckling. "May you be happy always." I said as I got off the swing and stretched. And sister Mirza, she looked smiling and looking at me.

Then I gasped when the rain suddenly came back to say hello. Running us into a gazebo saves the body from being washed out by rain. I wiped my face with my hands, trying to remove the remaining rain points. However, my eyes looked back at Mirza who was also looking at me. Cueing his head towards the room that was being wet with rain. I smile. And nodded surely because I knew the meaning of the gesture.

It is a madness of our habits. Me and Mirza. We ran into the rain. Letting the body wash away the rain that continues to hit. Rotate for a moment and then prance your feet to break the puddle of water. Our laughter broke out in the atmosphere. There was no realisation that our hands were adrift in the dance with the rain. The dance that we always pull when the rain comes.

"Mira..!" mama Mellisa shouted from the doorway. And it managed to make us realize and go straight to the gazebo. "What are you guys doing...?" my mother said when she was near us. Then the rain started to stop.

"What time is this?!" mama said while drying our heads and bodies alternating with towels. Our little ones are treated as such. Even our laughter broke again. We laughed at the madness that had just occurred. Mom kept staring at us alternately and smiling while shaking her head.

Eleven o'clock past fifteen minutes. I've changed my clothes. A cup of ginger wedang I was enjoying. Sitting next to Mirza's sister not far from me. Occasionally his body gigil unable to withstand the ambushing cold. While his eyes sometimes look at me that I sometimes reply with a makeshift smile.

"Before the divorce, after the divorce until you go away, I'm still the same Mirza." he said without looking at me. "Sister.." I said softly.

"Let me talk, Fara. This word has been kept for a long time. And it feels pretty stifling to this chest. Not a day or two but more than enough especially since we got divorced. My life is full of regrets, Fara. I am guilty, because I have no faith and no firmness. I was blinded by humanity. But it was still an unforgivable mistake even by myself. Especially when I agree to approve your divorce request" said Mirza Long.

"Already, Brother. It's over." I said. "When it's over, but to me it feels like yesterday happened. And my regrets are not over. Maybe I'll take him dead" Mirza said. "Enough brother. Don't bring death. I just lost Keanu's brother. And I don't want to lose you anymore" I just said. Surprised, Mirza heard me.

Hey...what did I just say, so Mirza's sister was so surprised? "You really don't want to lose me anymore" Mirza said, correcting her sitting position.

Deg.

To lose? What did I say about that. I lost control of my own tongue. I really didn't realize what I was saying this time. What's wrong with me? Seeing my excitement, Mirza smiled. His hand ruffled my head. "Funny...You speak but you are a gambit of your own words" said Mirza as he passed. He left me who was still dumb. I'm really gamang.

Drrt.

Drrt.

Drrt.

My phone shimmered. There was an unanswered incoming call and a message. "I'll take Rafan. Just meet me alone. Otherwise, you'll regret it." So the message on my phone screen. But I'm sure that message was from Keenan. There was heat in my eyes as I read it. The heat that I tried to endure. Especially when I saw the shadow behind the wall at the end of the stairs. I'm sure it's Mirza's sister. It has not passed away leaving me completely. And he still watches me. Maybe he's still worried about me.

You're still like you used to be, brother. You're always worried about me. Now what should I do? Do I have to tell my creak right now? My current concern? I keep getting stuck. My hand held the cell phone in my hand.

"Give it to me." said Mirza, grabbing the phone in my hand. His eyes immediately moved to follow line by line on the phone. "It's as important as this that you're gonna hide from me?" he said while looking at me. "Sister...I'm. I.." I said gagu.