As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 46's. Pelakor...?

The sun is not over in the west. Because its red tinge still illuminates the skyline. Only the birds were already visibly riled up and immediately returned home to the nest. Even the wind had become cold. Wiggling the leaves for a moment. I stepped foot into the big and magnificent house. My eyes rolled around the room. Slender. I found no one. "Garden.." whispered Keanu's brother. I also went straight to the park. And it's true that Mirza and Amara's sister are in the park. My steps had stopped when I saw the intimacy of both. Brother Mirza is rubbing the stomach of Amara's sister. I bite my lips to see it all. Follow my steps until Keanu's brother wakes me up. "Don't let anger dominate your love" said Keanu. "Wait here." he said then as he walked quickly toward the two. It was only a few meters away from where I was. "Master..There is a mistress" said brother Keanu who I can still clearly hear. Spontaneous sister Mirza averted her eyes and followed Keanu's brother's hand signals. Mirza smiled at me. His steps are getting to me faster. "Darling.." she said, hugging me tightly. "Don't go again. I beg you." he said which made me smile thinly. "You still angry?" ask her without letting go of her embrace. "Little bit." I answered briefly. "What's the hell angry?" he said while looking at me inside. The look that always makes my heart beat great. I'm bowed. Immerse my gaze on the ground covered with green grass. At one point, two tears fell on the end of my shoe. "I'm disappointed, brother." I said later. "I knew. I'm disappointed in myself, too." he said. "I see you happy with Amara" I said as I sat on the porch. "What you see is not what I feel, baby. I've been looking for you for two days. Where the hell is that?" said again. I smiled very thinly. And I didn't even look at his handsome face. "Follow me.." said Mirza again. This time he pulled me up a long ladder. "Does the house of the rich always have snaking stairs?" it was my oceh that made Mirza chuckle. And without any more ba-bi-bu Mirza's sister carried me to my room.

"You're growing, baby..?" he said chuckling with an irregular breath. His head fell on my lap. In the meantime, I just smiled in response to her words. And beautiful words came out of his lips. How he feels, what his expectations are. All he said. Likewise with the word sorry, he repeatedly uttered. I smile at his handsome face that is still lying on my lap.

My eyes circled the contents of the room that I felt was different. And my eyes were fixed on the pile of clothes on the bed. "Whose shirt is that?" I said while staring and pointing at a pile of clothes. "Mara. It seems he has not been able to tidy it up" said sister Mirza. "So Amara slept here?" my spoken. "Temporarily, dear.." said Brother Mirza. "While...? While I'm not around?"ketus. "Not so, dear." he said while holding me who meant to pass. "It's okay, brother. I just want to get my stuff. I only use the guest room" I said. And Mirza's sister forbade me too harshly. "No, baby, if you have to get out of this room, it's not you but Amara." he said, holding me. "Well I'll go." said a voice. "Mara...?" said brother Mirza. "Not so. You are pregnant so if you go up and down the stairs, it will trouble you" Mirza said. "Who said I bothered. Not at all...! Just tell me you want to kick me out, Fara...!" amara is hysterical. I laughed at the situation. And straight out of the room with my stuff and my gear.

"Fara.." said mama half-cried when she saw me. His steps were so quick to meet me. My mother hugged me tightly while asking me many questions. Especially when I see me carrying a suitcase. And I responded with just a smile. "Fara, just change rooms, Ma" I said as my mother asked once more when she saw my suitcase. "Why...?" ask mama briefly. "Above there are more entitled." I whispered to my mother who made her round her narrow eyes. "But." he said it hangs because I cut it. "It's okay, Ma.." I said with a smile. "alright. Mama help you clean up." said mom by carrying one of my small suitcases. I refused, but my mother insisted. And I finally gave up.

Seven o'clock in three minutes. Mama heard my babble. While his hands still help me tidy up some of my stuff. "What a Seru It looks like...?" said bang David who stood in the doorway. "Hey sir doctor." said the mother while receiving a helping hand bang David which he immediately kissed with reverence. And bang David was smiling looking at me while pointing his thumb. "Tante has come home." said Mikaela mimicking the voice of a child. Baby Keanu also thrashed when he saw me. "Here, dear.." I said as I stretched out my arms. The one-year-old boy was increasingly struggling from Mikaela's cradle. Mikaela would not let him down. "By learning the way, Auntie.." said bang David. I heard it too. I'm getting excited about baby Keanu. "Let's go, baby." I shouted, clapping. One step, two steps, three, four, five, six or even seven steps he managed to do. I clapped in joy and directly grabbed the body of the bulky boy. Shower him with a kiss in my cradle. Raise him up into the air. And baby Keanu also chuckled because of my treatment. Even so with mom, mbak Mikaela and bang David. They laughed at the sight of both of us.

"Well, if you've played with Aunt Fara, Keanu so forget mama huh. Hadeuuh. this address is mah" said Mikaela who followed our laughter all. "The urge." said brother Mirza who immediately barged in to me. In the doorway stood Amara. He's staring. At the end of his gaze was a hint of annoyance. "Come on...Za" said. "Where are you going?" said bang David while looking at Mirza's sister a little annoyed. "To the doctor, Bang" said Mirza as she looked at me. "Can...?" ask Mirza. "Take Fara and Mirza" suggested my mother as she blinked at me. "Just go to the doctor, ma. Not anywhere" said Amara. I heard his tone slightly taut. "Come, Za. It will be late." said Amara annoyed. I smiled at Amara's invitation. From his tone, I can guess he did not want me to join the departure of the two. "Go, the baby will lash again" I said ketus. "Yes, I asked for permission.I want to shop for my needs. Just for a moment" I said. "Okay, put this on. Do you remember the PIN number? and..this is your phone" said Mirza while thrusting a debit card and my phone that I did not bring when I left. "I'm leaving, yes." said Brother Mirza as he gently kissed my forehead and then passed. I stare at his back until it disappears behind the wall. There is a lot of turmoil inhabiting my heart and soul at the moment. And again almost shed my tears.

"When we go to the mall, we go to the cinema. Come on. We haven't done it in a long time" said Mikaela. "I agree.." I said a little while hiding my tears. "Keanu with the nanny first yes.mama and papa want to accompany Aunt Fara shopping first" said Mikaela while winking to the David bang. "I'm ready." I said without changing clothes. I just changed my hood. Everyone laughed at my face. "It could be that fast...Cheating nieh, Fara." said mom while pinching my nose.

Ah, thank you Ma, bang David and mbak Mikaela for comforting me this time. I'm ingrained. Twenty minutes passed and took us to the biggest cinema in my city. My steps were so heavy back then when I started to climb floor by floor. My eyes swept across the room. It was so long in line that I refused to see it myself. Even so, suddenly the attention was stolen by two figures who were standing also waiting in line. "Sister Mirza.." I muttered. Apparently Bang David and the mama sitting next to me heard my murmur. "Where..?" said it. My hands point to the line where Mirza's sister is. "Gosh...didn't they go to the doctor?" bang David stood up. Maybe he wants to approach both. "Me, bang.." I said as I took a quick step. My heart beats when I'm close to both. Then I lined up the two who were standing close together. "Fara.." said Mirza surprised. I smiled at him too. "I just found out if there's a gynecologist in this movie..?" my chirping. Red on my face Mirza heard my words. Without hearing his statement, I immediately left the two of them behind. Standing bang David lined up and immediately attracted Mikaela mom. We left the cinema without saying anything to each other.

"Ma, Fara permission to rest first yes." I said as I stepped half-run. I did so, because I was worried that my mother would see my tears that would soon be freefall. I closed the door and locked it. The clear thread that I had been holding back had finally fallen as well. I threw my body on the bed I had already tidied up. My tears broke as the words of Brother Mirza sank into my mind. My disappointment is immeasurable. I don't think I'm terpercussed.

Tok.dok...

The door was knocked repeatedly. "Darling.open. Baby.this is me, Mirza" Mirza said repeatedly. But I didn't heed it one bit. "I'm sorry. Come on, baby, open the door" said Mirza as she continued to knock on the door. But once again my heart refused to approve his request. I dissolve into my tears without caring about it. I'm lara. My heart's hurt. My soul languishes. "Fara open...!" said Mirza a little loudly. "Mah...!" this time he shouted and no longer knocked but banged on the door. But I remained silent. I put my head on the pillow and close my ears. Hope I don't hear her calls or pounding on the door. Damn it..all I can still hear despite the goals.

"Open the door, Fara...Or I'll break this door!" said Mirza Berang. And sure enough, he began to break down the door. "Mirzah...What are you doing?!" say mama. "Let,Ma. I wonder how brave this Fara is?" said brother Mirza. Worried that something happened to my mom, I finally opened the door. But before that I had already tidied up my clothes and makeup. "O... out is also the end" said brother Mirza furious. His breath goes up irregularly. His eyes are looking at me sharply. "O..so this is the character of the woman you love, Za? It's bad." said Amara. "Enough Amara...! it's my business. Don't interfere..!" scream out, Mirza. Her hand signaled for Amara to be quiet. "Get in...!" said Mirza to me. He slammed the door pretty hard. I was quite surprised by his treatment. "Now Fara wants it, what?" I've lost the way to face Amara" said Mirza, who forced me to sit on the edge of the bed. Getting the question I fell silent. I stared at him for a long time.

"We were married for ten days. And I haven't been happy about this marriage. On the contrary, within ten days my brother had given me incredible surprises and it must have disappointed me. Before it's too late, I'd like to temporarily let us not meet first. I hope each of us can dive back into his true feelings and desires. In addition, I hope that after moving away, my brother will have a definite decision when we meet later" I said long while looking at him endlessly. "What kind of advice is that, Fara? I don't agree...You mine. Only mine. I won't let you get away from me" he said firmly. His eyes were slightly rounded, but looked big because the distance of our faces was only a few centimeters. "If I stay here, my heart will be hurt even more by the dishonest hands" I said, making him smile wryly. Just this time I saw Mirza's sister that bad. He also fell silent. His eyes looked at me doubtfully. Again he said an apology so quietly repeatedly. Perhaps the regret in his heart was mastering it. "With the incident tonight, I became aware of what my position was.." I said again that made him try to look at me inside. "What...?" he said just shirk. "Women who disturb your relationship aka actors" said I lirih. Shakes his hands as if unable to support his body. He finally threw his body next to me. He sat down. His eyes sometimes looked at me with regret.

"I was wrong. Ii'm sorry. But I really don't mean that" he said again. Then he just left without saying anything else. I stared at his back until he disappeared behind the door. It feels like my heart sees that attitude. Somehow I've been reacting to it again. "Yes, Robb.help me" I said.