As Strong as the Mentari, as Soft as the Moon

Episode 63's. Now I Know...

I parked my red car on the lawn that always managed to welcome my presence with green vegetables growing on his right side. Hmm..very ranum and so refreshing eyes. After pausing to look at the plant, I immediately stepped foot. In my hand, in addition to my personal equipment there is also a black box with silver ribbon on it. I threw my body on the bed with all the stuff I brought. I'm tired of feeling this whole body and soul. Considering the activities I've been running. Also because many events are so draining my mind and heart.

Six o'clock past forty-five minutes. I'm still stuck on the prayer mat. I still wear Mukena. And once in a while my eyes stared at the pink dress that had already unraveled from her container. A piece of blue paper poked out from the container and the contents were still clearly remembered. But I don't know why Hinga is currently still feeling worried. My heart has been much in balance with the perch, but all I fail to understand with certainty. Meanwhile, the sky began to make dark friends because the sun was covered with a thick blanket of night. Street lights have been fluorescent since one-on-one giving a dim color around it. I sent a message through my phone. "Sister, there's no need to pick up. I still have a show. When it's done I'll come by myself" my message to Satria's sister. "Well, Madam.." reply to Satria.

Seven o'clock past fifteen minutes. The sky began to be accompanied by stars. One-on-one began to appear and give kerling to anyone who looked at him. Meanwhile my heart was back rustling as my eyes pounded on the pink dress Mr Keanu gave me. Then I threw my body back on the mattress near the dress after tidying up my face and prayer mats. For a moment my eyes closed, but I did not sleep. My mind wanders somewhere. Suddenly one event that has become a memory drowned in my memory. Play for a moment and then disappear again.

Geck...Geck...Geck...

Room door on tap. His voice turned out to be able to disperse my daydream. Even so, I remained unmoved and kept my eyes closed. "Sister...Dara entered yes" he said as he opened the door. "Sister.." call him once. From her voice Dara was a little surprised when she found me still in bed. "Good God, Sister Olivia. Not ready yet? It's almost eight o'clock, brother" he said later. I smiled at her comment. Dara looked a little upset at my smile. "Should you come, Dara..?" I said while correcting my sitting position. "By understanding, Brother.But brother Keanu is a friend of brother. Put aside his feelings for brother. Come as her best friend" Dara assured me. "It's not really because of Keanu's feelings towards me that make a frown, but because there's another female presence next to Keanu's sister. I'm afraid there's a misunderstanding between Keanu's sister and her fiance" I said in my heart, as my lips unraveled a smile looking at Dara.

I'm speechless. My heart and mind are still weighing all the possibilities whether it is bad or not. And Dara's last words made me weigh more and more. Companions. Come as friends. "But it's been a delapa's hour" I said reluctantly. "Come, Brother. It's better to be late than not at all" he said. I also agreed to his words.

Soon I started getting ready. I cut myself into the mirror in front of me. I only wear thin face makeup. I polish my lips thinly. Also on the cheeks that I wear is just a perona. I am not a big makeup fan. "Beautiful, sister." said Dara who stared at the reflection of my reflection in the mirror. Not to forget, he also made a special smile. "May you be happy always." he said again. The next time he hugged me tight. "Thank you, honey. I hope Dara is happy always. And soon find a soul mate. Brother Roy, how?" I said what made him blush. There was a red hue on his face from embarrassment. I smiled seeing him that way. "So your brother doesn't know what happened between you two?" I said while pulling his nose. "Silver.." he said bowed.

Eight-seven o'clock, forty-five minutes. Once again I hugged Dara tightly for a moment before I sat behind the wheel. "Should I just take it with me, Sister Olivia." said Roy, who was used to calling me Olivia's sister, as were my other employees. "That's like Cinderella's daughter going to the prince's party?" it was my candlestick that made Roy and Dara chuckle. "No need to thank you." I said again later. "But I promise you, you'll call me if anything happens" said Roy, who stood looking at me.

And then I did, my red car. Leaving the two that were getting longer and further away was lagging behind me. Driving my car at medium speed through the dimness of the night to the house of Keanu. Even so, my heart is still weighing the taste that exists. Not only that, but also the worry of unwanted things happening. "I had to keep my distance from Keanu's brother in order to maintain the comfort and feeling of Keanu's fiancee" I said later, turning my red car into a magnificent courtyard between rows of luxury cars. After I got out of the car, I did not go directly to the park where the event took place. I prefer to stay silent and look at the sky so bright with a flirtatious star decoration. While on the other hand a perfectly hanging moon emits a beautiful and soothing radiance. I was still holding back my steps, especially when the goal-song sounded happy birthday. Until the song ended, I set foot in the garden.

Stand me up to the last son. My eyes were staring at the center of the current event, where Brother Keanu was. On the right-left side stood the Vienna mama who was so sumringah. There was also a beautiful girl who wore a matching colored dress with Keanu's sister. Could he be Keanu's fiancee? If so, what a perfect couple.

Then my gaze turned to a table with chairs in the garden shrinkage and seemed to be peerless. My steps are getting worried faster in advance of the other invitation. Phew, I finally managed to control the place. "Drink Mistress.." bargained a housekeeper with reverence. I took a glass of syrup and put it on the table. "Thank you." I said with a smile. My eyes stared at the entire garden so boisterous with the sound of chatter and also the rhythmic music slightly stomping.

From a place not far from the center of the event, I saw a lot of laughter shown by Keanu and his fiancee. Even with spoiled the girl wrestled with Keanu's arm or rubbed slowly Keanu's face. For a moment I cast my eyes somewhere else. Especially in a place so lively with chatter and laughter. A handsome young man became the center of attention. The young man pointed his eyes at me. He smiled at me too. I also replied with a little fuss because my father who noticed it was known by him.

"Kean..."!" call a man who stopped Keanu's footsteps. "Women this beautiful why do you treat them that way?" he said while looking at me. "Hey...how are you?" greet brother Keanu. "good. Oya, congratulations again. May you be happy always" he said with sumringah. And sometimes he looks back at me. "Yes, introduce him." said brother Keanu stopped when the man immediately mentioned my name. "Mara...I already know. Because we've met. But maybe Miss Dara has forgotten it" he said with a smile looking at me. In that moment I became angry. And strangely it seems I have seen it, but I do not remember where exactly and when. "O...?" said Brother Keanu with a smile and glanced at me. I was stunned to get such a look. The look that made my heart beat.

Eight o'clock is fifty-five minutes. I'm still trying to line Keanu's steps up to the main table. The smiling Viennese mama saw my arrival, especially when she saw Keanu's big hand clasping tightly onto my finger. And I hurriedly tried to let go of that grip. "Ma.." I said as I kissed the back of his hand with reverence. "And meet him Qory. My fiancee" said brother Keanu.

Deg.

It felt like a moment without beating my heart. Keanu's words really made my heart churn. Although I had expected it before, it still made me quite a surprise. Even so, I still try to smile as best as possible to cover the turmoil. "Keanu.." said the mother of Vienna as if to disagree with what Keanu brother just did. While Qory smiled at Keanu's brother and briefly then looked at me fixedly. "Come on, Ma.." said brother Keanu while sitting next to Qory who immediately greeted Qory Dwngan writhing spoiled on his arm. And I sat close to the Viennese mama who occasionally rubbed my head. I don't know why mama Vienna did it to me so many times.

Nine o'clock past ten minutes. I swore a great curse in my heart when I had to witness the romance of Keanu and Qory. Instead of saving my heart, I went home. And that of course is not allowed mama who stood a few steps away from me. Mama is busy with the chatter of a man and a woman. It seems like it's the business relationship of the Vienna mama family.

Then I got permission to go to the toilet. But my main goal is not that. I just wanted to avoid witnessing the romance of the two. Because of the tightness in this chest I can no longer hold. And instead of me going to the toilet, I actually set foot to the other side of the park near the parking area. Standing up I leaned against a car. My eyes stared at the lighting of the garden. For a moment I closed my eyes and the melt of the clear circle was finally freefall as well. My bowed head avoided the gazes of the few people who passed me. Then I was a little surprised when a man leaned in. His hand held out a blue handkerchief. And without seeing his face I immediately grabbed the blue handkerchief and meghapua tears. "Why here." said the man who I knew immediately from his distinctive voice. He is Keanu's brother. "Why are you crying..?" said again. I was confused as to what to answer. Because I don't know the cause myself. "Kemari.." he said while grabbing my head and holding it tightly. I put my head on his field chest. And back I sobbed. "Now I know how you feel. I'm sorry I made you like this?" said Brother Keanu who I myself do not understand the meaning of his words. I hesitated to question it because I myself was busy weighing the taste in the heart, especially when the masculine aroma of Keanu's body tickled my sense of smell.

Nine o'clock past twenty minutes. Brother Keanu asked me to return to the middle of the party. But I refused it. And I insist on going back home, going home. But again Keanu prevented me. His eyes looked at me meaningfully which I sometimes failed to understand. "I still want to talk to you. Stay a little while. Or just stay the night." said brother Keanu. I'm stunned. My eyes were slightly rounded when I heard Keanu's last sentence. "Handling, darling. But if taken seriously, I'm very happy." he said chuckling. He looked at me feelingly. That's what I feel at least from that look. Then Keanu pulled my hand back, but I held on. He looked back at me and signaled to me through his lips. "Why...?" as soon as I mean. "Go home." I said briefly while trying to release Keanu's hand.

"Fara.." Brother Keanu called out to me shortly after I managed to get my hand out of his grasp. My steps became a little faster. "Mah...!" call brother Keanu again. This time he tried to teach me my steps. But I didn't pay attention to it. My steps were getting faster and even half running. "I love you, Fara." said Keanu.

Deg.

My heart again beat erratically hearing the sentence that was thrown from him. "Wait.." said Keanu.. Again he pulled me quickly until he was jolted backwards. A little unsteady of my body because of it, but Keanu's brother managed to balance my body by embracing it. My God, our faces are only a few centimeters away. He looked at me so closely that I looked into the recesses of my heart as if looking for something in it. "I love you. Justlove you. There is nothing else." he said half a whisper while continuing to look at me. A glimpse of Qory's face recounted in memory. And just like that my hand moved slapping his face. "Never play with a woman's feelings. Qory will be disappointed, brother." said I who tried to release the grip of his hand on both of my arms. And I managed to do that. Even my body immediately turned and quickly passed towards my red car. "Wait...Stop over. So statue...?" he said a little scream. This was our childhood game. So the statue, I stopped my steps immediately. Not moving one bit. Brother Keanu is standing in front of me. His eyes are looking at me. While his lips were smiling. "I'm sorry. I've been working on you. Qory is neither my lover nor my fiancee. Qory is my cousin's sister who just came home from abroad because her education is over" Keanu said. Hearing that my heart grew more and more turbulent. Doesn't feel like even a clear circle just flows. "Don't leave my life again. I wouldn't be able to. I've seen enough of you with the others. You're just mine. From the time we were kids. You're my childhood wife. My lover...Which I always miss" said brother Keanu who immediately grabbed my head and re-buried it into his chest. "Done.." whispered to end the game so our statue. I also sobbed. "I...Me" said gagu. Keanu's lips sizzled, signalling that I didn't have to say anymore. "I knew. You're just worried about determining your attitude and understanding every feeling in your heart" he said gently rubbing my head. I'm speechless. In my heart I say all of his words. It was true that all this time I doubted my feelings, but today not after seeing solemnity in his eyes. I do like him...