THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE

CHAPTER 53 (LOVELY HORRIBLY)

LOVELY HORRIBLY

The night in front of Uncle's house, I stood with the pain in my heart. After that incident, I then packed all my clothes and rushed to this place. I'm not doing this because I hate him, my fear that he will live out his destiny for the future is what's behind him.

Get as far away from her as possible, and make her avoid that fate. Even though I knew that this choice would hurt me a lot. Even as long as I walked to this place, I had thought of ending my life.

Because I'm really tired of everything. In every moment of his life, I am grateful. But on the other hand, I also regretted everything. Because I'm gonna make her cry, and the end of this love story is all I can see.

When the door opened, a smile from Uncle could not heal this pain. I was tired, and my heart hurt. The pain made it hard for me to breathe, it would have been easier if I just threw this body down, heading for eternal peace.

In the midst of my fragile, Uncle just gave me his smile, without asking anything. My uncle invited me into his house. As I set foot in this house, silence greeted me. This house is just like my house, very big but empty. Two years after my parents left, Uncle also had to return to lose his loved ones. His wife also left him because of the illness he suffered.

When I see Uncle, I can see myself. God is unfair to both of us, he continues to take our loved ones in this life. If we think back, we do not have a great sin. Why God is so cruel to us. The gift of kindness is kindness, and vice versa.

But seeing this reality, I curse the fate line so cruel to us. Uncle once said that the best revenge is to live our lives well.

But how can I do it, if I think back I've run out of breath even if I just remember it. Sometimes we are forced to lose to a situation, and there are times when we are forced forward to a situation.

The world is like that, that's why I hate it. Not everything we want goes smoothly, goes as we wish. And I was forced to run into the dark sky, where I could not find her smile. At night, in a living room, two wounded people will be the world. Stare at each other and strengthen each other.

“You rest there, tomorrow you go to school.” Said Uncle.

After hearing Uncle's words, I also intend to express my intentions. An intention to make a smile on Keira's face, and that intention was my attempt to get away from her.

“Uncle, Rasya wants to change schools.” My answer.

Uncle then left me who was still sitting on the sofa in light brown. I was grateful because Uncle immediately agreed to my intention, but even like that I really understand that tonight will feel very long.

Like this moment, the thought of him, instantly filled my head, even though I was just staring at my phone. Even though it's only been a few hours, I've missed it. How is this, Keira continues to stimulate myself to walk towards him. While I know very well, that's impossible for me to do.

Can only bury that desire, and come back disappointing. I turned off my phone and pulled out my phone card. I'll erase all traces of me in Keira's life. We hope that the destiny line will change.

I just stared at the phone card, I wanted to throw it away and shut all access. Because I know, I can only make lara in her heart. But why can't I throw it away, even though I don't know how many times I've pushed myself hard. But it was still difficult to understand that fact, the fact that he and I were a wound.

I have managed to stop Nestapa

that was, even before it started. But why, my world seems empty.

And I have also succeeded, burning a sad chapter in your life story. But why, these tears come. This breakup is the best way, but why are the memories getting better

robust.

Maybe because I've never been and I haven't been able to, define another happiness as perfectly as when I was with him. And it might sound a little crazy. Without Keira in my life, things start

broken and messy.

And as always, this world does not stop for my grief. The wound will bitterly live, awaken a dreamer. And make him, can not dream anymore.