THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE
CHAPTER 46 (COME BACK TO ME)
COME BACK TO ME
After the incident on the roof of the school, I decided not to go back to class. I could not see her sad face, for I realized that I was so evil to her today. But I don't regret it, because I know, that's the only way to stop his future destiny.
I then went home to my house, and tried to escape all these problems. But I still can't get this thought out of my head. When I got home, I was still haunted by those thoughts.
Late in the afternoon in my room, I was just struggling in bed with all the hassle in this head. I keep finding solutions, to solve this. But despite how long I've been doing it, I still can't find the answer. The sky had turned dark, and so had this hope.
I miss him so much, Keira I miss you so much. I wonder what he is doing now. And how he feels right now, is he still sad? I really want to know.
I really thought, is God not being too bad for me. He kept giving me such a hard test, he kept me down and I really hated him, and today with this complexity, I am sending him an oath of expiation.
It was late at night, the sound of my doorbell stinging this whole body. And helplessly made this entire body rush to see who was behind the bell. Hope kept rising, and please her pretty face was all I could see. And at this moment, God granted my wish.
As the door opened, I saw Keira standing in front of the house with the food box in hand. I smiled, then languished. In front of my door, he stood smiling at me. This stupid girl kept smiling, even though I kept hurting her. After I looked at him, a future piece of his destiny immediately invited him to play. This time it was just a flash, but it was very impactful, and I was devastated by it.
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The night in a house, I just saw Keira sitting in the corner of the wall. Without the lights, only the rays from the phone were in his hands. The only light that illuminated his face was full of misery. It seemed really messy back then, he himself with a blank look in his eyes. The look seemed to signal that something he did not want had happened.
Nestapa groans himself, he himself is destroyed by the line of fate. And what broke me, in front of where he sat was a pair of scissors and a letter. I cried, she wanted to end her life. My heart broke into pieces, I just closed my eyes because I could not see the event.
When I see her, I'm bound to fear my destiny. But he kept going, step by step and smiled as he looked at me. How about this, what should I do. I'm really useless, because he still keeps that fate. He was like a miracle, and embracing him was my goal for the world. But why do I keep having trouble breathing, when I look at him.
“You don't want me to be a lawyer, I won't be a lawyer.” Said Keira.
Even in the middle of my arms, I still hurt him. This love story tells me who I really am. I am nothing more, just a thorn from her favorite flower.
I really don't understand where this mistake lies. So that everything becomes a mess. Why do we both, go on and on away from the dream we made.
This is a normal moment, which we often do. But why, I keep feeling anxious. Why do I feel like I lost him. At first glance about us, all things are now cliches. Is it a word, that I love her. Can bring himself back. Does our love, have an expiration date.
About where it went that day. A day when we become ourselves.
The day we laugh at our stupidity, the day we love each other. Now, our conversation is full of caution. Breathing heavily at the end of the sentence. For some reason, I am grateful for the effort we put in. So please forgive me, for the story
we end up like this.
God, I really love this woman, so please stop the fate you made for her. Give all that pain to me, like you used to do to me.
I just kept tightening my arms, and promised to keep fighting for his destiny. Whatever way I do, I'm going to break down the fate line. And painted a smile on his face. I let go of my embrace, and looked at her. It is so beautiful, and I am grateful to have it. I grabbed her hand and pulled her into the house.
