THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE

(CHAPTER 10) ALTHOUGH SPINY, THE FLOWER REMAINS A FLOWER

DESPITE BEING THORNY, FLOWERS ARE STILL FLOWERS

A pair of eyes looked in one direction, then turned away. I'm an alien in this class, they all look at me with strange eyes. After the incident, I began to look for an excuse to escape into the afternoon sky, where I could return home and avoid their gaze.

But afternoons always come too late, and make me stuck with their eyes and assumptions in their head. It should not be this gaze that I get, after the events of Roni's guitar strings that almost hit Agus' eyes.

A lot of the kids in the class, started to approach me. They did so, just to ask me about the incident, not a few who blatantly turned away from me, and considered me a strange human being.

I should have been more able to hold myself back, as usual. It felt like I wanted to turn the clock around, and sit quietly while staring at the incident as I should.

At that time art lessons, piano twangs and guitar voice passages filled the class that day, I just sat on my bench while enjoying the rhythm of the melody that made the void began to dance.

Until the vision appears, the strings of the guitar played by Roni will break and hit the eyes of Agus who was right in front of him. At first I was just ignoring it, but I thought back. I don't want, his vision of the future, to bury my conscience as a human being.

And perhaps, this is a test that God has given me.

When I woke up, I stood up from my bench. And I saw Roni and Agus, just like the ones in my vision. In front of the class, they were both humming along with the guitar played by Roni.

I still have time to think, what should I do. And whether this action in my mind is appropriate, if I do.

Unknowingly, I walked up to the two of them.

And with a little energy, I pulled Agus' body away from Roni's guitar. And along with when I pulled Agus' body, the strings of the guitar playing Roni broke, and hit my hand.

One thing I had in mind at the time, I succeeded. But when I woke up, I saw all my eyes staring at me. Even the classroom that had been crowded turned silent, I saw all eyes looking at me.

“Kok you can?” Roni asked in surprise to see me.

I just fell silent, and didn't know how to respond to that question. If I explain the details about it, they'll think I'm weird and will think of nothing. I just returned to my seat, without answering any questions from Roni.

Please assume what I did was not a crime. And ever since then, they've all looked at me with strange eyes and I've been asked a million questions, which makes me reluctant to step on my feet in class.

I feel warm when the sun hits my skin.

And the cold I felt, when the wind blew on my face. And that, a little bit to remove my fatigue about school and its contents. This is the highest point in my school, where I can see the sky closer. A cigarette accompanied me, and this place made me look tall and strong.

And I really like this place, because in this place, I can avoid various eyes and prejudices. But the break was not long, constantly forcing me to return to class.

When I entered the classroom, the atmosphere that had been boisterous turned silent. And all the eyes looked at me, the uniform look, and I was really bothered by that look. I just ignored him and walked to my bench.

“Lu okay?” Ask Keira.

I was shocked and then looked at Keira, and subconsciously the sentence ignited a smile on my face. A sentence I really wanted to hear, a simple one. But it was as if someone understood me, that I wasn't always strong, and was fine. Combed opinion in my mind about Keira, she's not as bad as I imagined.

Soon he came back to surprise me. After that sentence, he took out a perfume from inside his bag.

“Nih ... let's not smell, you've smoked right?” Keira asked while giving me a perfume.

I just fell silent while looking at him, Keira then returned to stick the Perfume to me. A vanilla floral fragrance perfume, a fragrance that makes it stand out. I took the perfume in his hand and sprayed it into various corners of my school uniform.

“Don't do much, just a little.” Keira said while smiling at me.

Only a smile could I give her, a smile that represented my gratitude to her.

We both went back to normal, both of us. Silent and calm, then fill our seats both. And in my silence, boredom began to fill me.

I saw Keira still sitting next to me while reading a novel that was in her hands. While leaning my head he was on the table, I just stared at him.

My curiosity then filled this mind, why was that terrible fate attached to it. My mind continued to be anological, but I never got a hierarchical result.

And that vision of his future, coming back and inviting me to enter into an irony of his fate. And when I wake up, I shed tears.