THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE

(CHAPTER 38) MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN

MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN

At first I did not take Keira's intentions seriously. But Keira really did what he said. Like today, I was tormented by my wishful thinking of smoking cigarettes, after the agreement that Keira and I came to my house.

And I frowned again, because after we got to my house, Keira then opened the book. And Keira again forced me to stare at the book, in the guest room I was imprisoned by an impromptu teacher named Keira. Keira taught me a method of learning that can be said to be very extreme, because every time I take my eyes off the book or yawn because of drowsiness, he then pinched my hand or waist.

Keira continued to explain the atomic theory, but I could only look at it. I didn't understand what he was saying, but Keira didn't stop and kept trying to explain it to me. He kept repeating his words, and I regretted it for not understanding.

I just looked at him, I knew he was tired of teaching me but he kept going against his limits to make me understand. I felt grateful and sorry for it, and I realized that he was an angel that God sent me. And I am grateful to have it.

“I'm sorry, because I'm stupid.” I said.

I was so sorry for my stupidity, I realized that I always made it in difficult situations. My inability rebukes this heart, and this heart weeps at him. Keira then looked at me, and soon he closed the Physics book on the table. He smiled at me, I was guilty and dared not look him in the eye.

“We eat first yes, you must be hungry.” Keira said with a smile.

It felt like I didn't deserve that smile, but I still couldn't, not to look at it. Sometimes I think it might be happier to leave me. Because I didn't really deserve him, he lost a lot of things when he was with me.

Thinking about it, I continued to curse myself. Even I have run out of harsh words, because there are too many of my flaws. Yet I still couldn't help but stare at him, that fact made me hate myself.

Keira then moved from his place, and immediately prepared – ingredients in the kitchen. Keira wanted to cook fried rice for our dinner, seeing that I didn't expect much of my dinner either. Keira looked preoccupied with chilies and onions along with stone rubs, while I just stared at her tired face.

Seeing this, I promise to be wiser. I realized that this, no longer just about me, I had to throw away this ego for himself and for myself. I just got closer to her and hugged her already defenseless body, and I was grateful to have it.

The most beautiful woman, the one that made me keep correcting myself. I want to be a man worthy of him, and I will keep trying to make that happen.

“Ih don't bother, wait at the dinner table aja.” Said Keira.

Keira always made me greedy, and always like that. I let go of my embrace and looked at him. I could feel how strong he was, because he kept smiling at my flaws. And I realized that I was really lucky to have it.

“Kalo want to kiss, must deposit formula no?” I teased Keira.

Keira smiled, silently thinking about my question. Before long he nodded his head, I just looked at him cynically and could not believe it. That I had to pay one formula to kiss her.

Feeling unfair, the annoyed me just kissed her cheek and ran away from her. I saw Keira surprised while looking at me, I just put on a shitty face and I kept teasing her. His anger was mounting, and I liked it.

“Ihhh .. Anyway you owe one formula yes the same I.” Keira said while raising her voice.

I just smiled at him and sat down at the dinner table, Keira returned to cooking with a tired look. I just looked at her and before long I realized she was so beautiful, I liked that too.

Imagining her hair turning white made this chest shake, I really wanted to see her and I really wanted to age with her.

Soon a thought came to my head, and without warning, I cursed the heavens. I protested his fate, why the heavens were so cruel to him, imprisoning himself with his nestapa.

He will be forcibly withered, for his destiny says so. Every thought about it, my hopes and confidence eroded. Can I change that, change her destiny. And can I make her happy, make her smile all her life.

And I realized that I had to change, and for the first time I wanted to fight like everyone else. I have to be great to be by his side, and stronger to change his destiny.

It didn't take long for Keira to finish her cooking because I also enjoyed my time staring at her, Keira was like a time-burning machine.

Every time I was with him, my time went very fast. Keira came with two dishes of fried rice, and sat down on the bench with me. I then ate the fried rice made, slightly frowned because the salty taste surprised my tongue. Just take some water at the table and drink it, and go back to eating this fried rice.

“Pelan-pelan ah, later choking.” Said Keira.

Just the smile I gave him, and it filled my stomach again. I saw Keira also staring at the food, and took a big spoon and put it in her mouth. Keira then fell silent, and with food in her mouth she looked at me.

After he looked at me, he then moved from the dining table and towards the sink Keira spewed out the food in her mouth, and wiped her mouth with water. Seeing this, I smiled, and then walked up to my desk and looked at me deeply.

“Do not eat again, I made a new one.” Said Keira.

I just smiled at him and went back to eating my food, no matter what the taste of this food was. I'm just grateful, because this food is part of Keira. And I love everything that has to do with her, my girl, my woman, my love. Seeing that Keira just smiled at me. I just smiled at him, and took one last spoon on my plate.

“I promise, tomorrow my cooking will be better.” Said Keira.

“Iya.” My answer.

I looked back at the plate and finished my dinner, my stomach was filled. And I saw that he was still looking at me, and I came back grateful for it. He always smiled in great and failed me, and I promised him only and there would always be him in my life.

“Still yes, you have been present in my life.” Said Keira.

“I thank you.” My answer.

We smile at each other, it's fun to be a part of her life. And I realized that I was very lucky, and that's why I'm grateful for my life.

When I was with Keira, a lot of thoughts came to my mind and I introspect a lot of myself. When I loved her, I believed that not a single thorn could hurt me. And faith in his love, made me see the door of heaven slowly opening for me. He taught me that seeking love is good, but giving love is much better.

Love is like a disease, it makes people weak in the presence of someone they love. A phenomenon that cannot be explained in any book. Love makes life seem meaningless without its presence. Love makes us survive in this dirt-like world. So don't stop dancing, before the music stops.