THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE

CHAPTER 48 (READY TO DROP)

READY TO DROP

My words simultaneously made Keira stop all her activities on the table, then she just fell silent while looking at me. That look was like a sword stab in this chest, and it hurt me a lot.

“When and where?” Ask Keira.

“Two days ago, on the school roof.” My answer.

Keira just stared at me. When I looked at her, I could not define the meaning of her gaze. But all I know for sure, that look bothers me a lot. Expressionless gaze, self-torturing. It would feel better if he just cursed me.

“You like her?” Ask Keira.

Unknowingly the question also hurt me, because there was only Keira in this heart. But thinking about it, I cursed myself because I was so stupid. But what I'm saying is honesty, that only he is in this heart, and forever will be.

“Engga.” My answer.

“But why did you kiss her?” Ask Keira.

Keira continued to torment me with her curiosity, and I had no choice but to answer all her curiosity. And all I know for sure, this conversation, it's hurting both of us.

“He kissed me first.” My answer.

Keira just fell silent while looking at me, and this time she tortured me with just her gaze. The look hesitated, and I just realized that it was very painful. Again, I think I'd feel better, if he just scolded me.

“Why, don't you refuse?” Ask Keira.

After getting the question, this bowed head did not dare to look at him. Because that is also my question, I do not understand myself. Why would I do that, but for sure, I regret it. I cursed my stupidity, and kept putting together an alibi in this head to make his feelings better and so that I wouldn't lose him. And I realized how selfish I was. Because after all my stupidity, I still want him.

“I gatau, it happened very sparse.” My answer.

“After you kiss her, how do you feel?” Ask Keira.

If you ask how I feel now, I am tormented even by just breathing. Every second I walk, I curse myself. I was like spring to Keira, always throwing a smile off her pretty face.

“Bersalah.” My answer.

And it's my decision, so please understand and come back the way you were, smile at me. Keira then stood up, and looked at me irritatedly. I'm sorry for this second, and for all the time when I hurt her.

“Why new story?” Ask Keira.

He stood up while looking at me, Keira gave me a hateful look. I don't know about everything, how this love turned into pain. I'm sorry I made you know that pain.

I'm so stupid, that's why I can only bow my head. Keira then fell silent, and tears began to flow from her eyes. Once again I made her cry, this conversation hurt both of us. I then dared to look at her, she was still crying with her anger. I wanted to repeat my time, and make this conversation never happen.

“Should have, you didn't tell me. And keep saving that damn event for your whole life.” Keira said while crying.

“Sorry me .. I don't want to continue tormented.” My answer.

Keira just looked at me with her anger, her tears constantly falling down her cheeks. I regretted it, for making her tears like a normal moment in her life. If I think, I can only ruin it. Before I met him, he was as bright as the sun.

Before I met him, he was tall as a mountain. Before meeting me, she rarely cried.So forgive me, for making you like this.

Keira then moved away, seeing it without shame I tried to grab her hand. But he dodged the hand, and without warning he slapped me with his angry gaze.

Unknowingly the slap was treating the sadness in this heart, I deserved the slap. Keira again swung her hand and slapped back this bastard who had always hurt her. Perhaps this way, he could make peace with his pain. Although on the other hand, I know very well that the slap also hurt him.

“We broke up!” Keira said with anger.

Tonight, he exploded with all the pain he tried to endure. And I, really did not expect. That this is the end of the love story that we always fought for. The broken sentence broke down with her tears. He gave up on this painful love story.

And I don't know what to do.

Do I have to beg him to correct that decision. Or, I should express my feelings, that I can't if I don't see it in my life. And if this is really the end of this love story.

How can I pretend I don't like him anymore.

I thought I was going to be a stranger in her life. Maybe my life will be full of tears. Because I always hoped, we'd both always be a business that would never be finished.

But it seems like this world will stop at nothing for my grief.