THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE

CHAPTER 51 (DARK HOLE)

DARK HOLE'S

After Azka was two years old, I bought a house in South Jakarta. Home to our little family, I purposely bought a house in the area because it was within close proximity of the law firm where Keira worked. Because he often complained because the distance of our previous home was very far from his office.

I sometimes regret that just by looking at Keira, she was exhausted by her work. Plus he had to take care of both of us, so I bought the house. I want him to continue to pursue his career and continue to take care of both of us. And I'm really grateful that he can do both things well.

It can be said Keira's career is quite successful as a lawyer, it happened after he handled a case of malpractice at a leading hospital in Jakarta. She defended Syahrini's mother, a single mother who had to lose her child, due to a wrong prescription.

You could say before he handled the case, he was just like other new lawyers who had difficulty getting a case. In fact, he never had a single case for six months. Seeing that, I sometimes try to help her with my connections. But he always refused, because of that, I was proud of him.

But after that case, he received a lot of attention from the public. And it works in its own way. The case began when Keira and I came to the hospital in Jakarta, at that time Keira and I wanted to do a medical check up at the hospital. And in front of the hospital, Keira and I met Syahrini's mother.

In the blazing sun, with my face he stood with a cartoon paper with the inscription protesting himself to the hospital. Syahrini's mother held the hospital accountable, because of the negligence of the hospital, she had to lose the child she loved.

Seeing that, Keira also approached Syahrini's mother. And took out his hand, to Mother Syahrini. After discussing with Keira and knowing the common thread of the matter. Keira and Syahrini's mother also agreed to sue the hospital in court.

I also did not think, why Keira really wanted to help Syahrini's mother. Even he did that without being paid, because Ibu Syahrini said that he did not have the money to pay for Keira's services. But when I asked, and knew the reason behind his intention.

I am grateful and proud of him. The reason behind his intention was that he did not want the case to be repeated again, because he was also a mother like Ibu Syahrini. He did not want the case to befall Azka, our son.

After several grueling trials, Keira managed to win with her lawsuit in court.

After successfully defeating 8 lawyers who were in the hospital rental. And make the hospital must apologize and compensate 1 Billion to Ms. Syahrini. Although that is not the main thing, because the hospital also admitted its guilt for other cases that have occurred.

The hospital is often affected by cases of malpractice and harm many patients. Hospitals always assign Koas doctors to handle big cases that should be handled by doctors who already have experience. And after the trial, it was revealed the reason the hospital did that. The reason behind that, is to reduce the costs that hospitals have to spend to pay for medical personnel.

But the hospital, always managed to get out of the various lawsuits. Because he has a lot of money to hire good lawyers. And I am grateful that Keira was finally able to win that grueling fight.

The media also raised the problem. And the problem also became headline news in various newspapers, and National TV. Because the case also made the community began to give sympathy to the families of the victims while condemning the vile deeds of the hospital.

So did Keira, he gained popularity in the community. Even the people gave him a nickname. As a lawyer for a small person. Keira was famous throughout the country, and since then also many people in droves to ask in defense by him. And that keeps Keira busier than usual.

Because previously Keira and I agreed to take care of Azka together without the help of a baby sister. I did it because I wanted Azka to get the full attention and affection of her parents. But the intention began to be hampered because of our busyness, so Azka began to become a victim. We used to leave Azka at Uncle Keira's house. Azka started to lose time with us, and I was very worried about her.

Seeing that fact, I also intend to open Keira his own law firm, so that his time is not spent where he works. And the main purpose of that intention was so that he could manage his own time, so that he could have time for me and Azka.

After four years of discourse that airs, finally the intention was carried out. Keira eventually opened her own law firm. The law firm was named KAR Lawyer, the name was derived from the initials of the three of us, namely Keira, Azka and Rasha.

But after the Law Firm stood up, Keira instead became super busy. And most of the time it's on his law firm. His busy life made him forget his duty, to be a wife to me and a mother to Azka.

Even because of Keira's busyness, Azka once asked me and the question then hurt me. He asked if she hated him. So that he never spent time with her, and that fact hurt me. How that little kid, having that thought. Seeing that, I also invited Keira to discuss this matter. But there was never a solution, only quarrels and quarrels between us.

His law firm changed him, and once the law firm was established all he thought about was his career. Working and working, I never forbade her to become a career woman, because she convinced me with a smile.

But what pisses me off, is the fact that she forgot her duties as a wife to me and a mother to Azka. I did understand and did not expect that she would be a good wife figure to me, because her smile was enough for me. But not with Azka, I don't want her to lose the mother figure in her life. I know because I've experienced it, and I don't want it to happen to Azka.

But promise abides promise, and that's what always makes our household, always peppered with arguments and quarrels.

I could not bear to see him always playing alone, making me often take time off at my company. But I realized I couldn't keep doing it, because my responsibilities were great in that company, and I didn't want to, the company that Dad and Mom and Uncle built, to be ruined because of my inability to manage it. And that day came, the day I was about to lose a child I loved, I cried as I watched the vision.

Perhaps, I had trouble reading a sign that came. For some reason, all the things that have passed, have always taught me something. About happiness, or about pain. But flowers, not a little bit hate bee colonies. Not because of it, not because it can or

not able to do it. However because

he chose not to do it.

So is my view of him.

Even after, I saw that heart-wrenching footage of fate. I'm still in the same place. And still want to walk towards him. Still want the place, even though I know it only contains a wound.

I also realized that pain may not be avoided, but suffering is a choice. Do I have to be selfish, and shamelessly go towards him. It's not the love I want, because she keeps crying while living it.