THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE

(CHAPTER 31) COME RAIN COME SHINE

COME RAIN, COME SHINE

We both got on the bus No. 1 M with Meruya route – Block M, the crowd of bus passengers make us just stand while hooking our hands on the handle of the Bus. Ever since Keira left the teacher's room, she hasn't answered my questions about the success of our plan.

Every single question, Keira simply replied with a smile. And up until now, I didn't know if our plan worked or not, and it just kind of bothered my mind.

On the bus we just exchanged looks and smiles, Keira initially refused to be taken between, but I kept insisting because the night was so late. Actually it's just an excuse, I just still want to linger with him.

After wading the road for 45 minutes, due to traffic jams Jakarta. We got off in the Block M area, and after descending, we walked into an alley. I grabbed Keira's hand and we walked with the streetlight, only a smile on both of us.

“What did you chat with Mr Rifaldi?” Ask Keira.

“Soccer.” My answer.

“Emang do you know?” Ask Keira.

“Nggak.” My answer.

My answer also carved a smile on Keira's face, but suddenly a memory of me invites me to play and draw a smile from this face. Suddenly I remembered Joseph, and it hurt me.

I kept quiet for a moment about my memories, and I cursed myself again and always will after the incident happened to Joseph. Keira's hand, saved me from the whirlpool of memories.

I just looked at her and without realizing the tears on this cheek, seeing that I hurriedly wiped those tears, not wanting Keira to see it. But Keira had seen it all, and just smiled at me. Keira also tightened her grip, and I was grateful to have her.

It was just a smile I gave, a smile that expressed my gratitude to him.

There are so many things I would love to tell her, Keira would you like to see me and hear my stories. I was just a weakling pretending to be strong in front of the crowd, a mask I made in such a way as to hide my true face.

I'm just a child who left both parents to go to a place that is very far away, a place that can not be visited by train or airplane. And if I smile, it's just a mask to cover my crying heart.

“Still yes, already in anterin home.” Keira said with a smile looking at me.

I just smiled at him. Keira then looked at me and remained silent for a long time, then she bowed with a disappointed look. Seeing that, I also knew the meaning of his silence and his look.

“Sorry to me yes, I didn't make it.” Keira said while bowing.

“That's nothing, you've tried to kok.” I answered while smiling at him.

“Sama I also told you, I will also withdraw from the election market chairman osis.” Keira.

I was silent, all because of my guilt. Because I know, it was Keira's dream. And it hurt, seeing him give up his dream, I cursed myself for my inability to take care of him and his dream.

“Geer deh, not because of you anymore, I have long wanted to stop in the election market osis. Because I just realized, there are so many things that are more important and I like it besides that.” Answer Keira.

I just fell down and couldn't look at him. Because I know, it's just an excuse he made to cover up his disappointment.

“And one of the reasons, is you.” Keira said with a smile.”

Hearing that, I just looked at him. I don't fully understand the meaning of love. But I'm sure enough to give everything for love, and for Keira.

Anyone would love a honey, but it would take a lot of time to love a bee. The world goes like that, but it's different. That's why I'm so lucky to have him. He and his love taught me to look, even when these eyes were closed. And hear, when these ears are closed. It's ridiculous indeed, if I keep talking about love. But one day, you will understand and understand what I feel.

And when the time comes, I will share the pain with him. The pain I experienced in the past, which still holds me to this day. The advantages and disadvantages of a human being are that humans have a memory.

And honestly we can't forget memories from our past, and all we can do is replace them with new, better memories. And I am sure that Keira can do her job well, and turn all those poor memories into a perfect happiness.