THE PERFECT TIME TO DIE
CHAPTER 50 (I'M SORRY, I LOVE YOU)
I'M SORRY, I LOVE YOU
The man in Keira's future is me. I was struck by lightning, tears were formed from pain.The fact knocked out hope, and this love hurt like a fever. How is this, the reason I survived all this time is because I believe I can wipe away all those tears. But looking at it all, I was devastated because I was the one who carved the wound in his destiny.
The pieces of his future continued to be present, I also strengthened myself to stare at every piece of the sad story. Why it happened, and how it happened. And why it had to happen, I watched it with my eyes.
After being tormented and ripped apart by the pieces of the incident, I finally learned it all. The story behind this sad event.
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After graduating high school, we both agreed to pursue our dreams. Although initially full of debate, because we have to separate the distance between Cambridge and Jakarta. But for the sake of our dreams, and for the sake of realizing the hopes of those we care about. We hold back a little bit of our imagination, and run together to chase dreams and the future.
After graduating high school, Uncle sent me to America to continue my studies, making me have the provision to be able to manage the legacy company of Father and Mother. I also continued my studies at Harvard University, where I majored in business management.
And with a heavy heart, I had to leave Keira in Jakarta. But I was not so worried, because there he was also fighting for his dream. In Jakarta, Keira pursues her dream of becoming a lawyer. By studying law at the University of Indonesia.
Although we know that this relationship is not easy, and many love stories that end with the word break up because of a distance. Seeing that I was a little worried, the distance problem will interfere with our relationship. But we are convinced of our love, and that belief is also what makes us eagerly pursue our dreams and get back together after those ideals have materialized.
And it is not easy, because I have to go back and forth America - Jakarta to release the longing. And it can be said, our relationship does not run smoothly, we often fight and break up in the middle of the road. But the fact is, that we cannot not depend on each other. Make our relationship still exist, although often hit by a storm because it follows the ego of each.
But all those storms make our love stronger. After nearly four years of torment, I successfully completed my studies at Harvard University. And it was the happiest moment of my life, because I could see the smiles of the people I loved.
Keira was there at the moment, and I am grateful for that. I went back to Jakarta, with a smile on my face. Passing through a phase in life, and I realized that I was getting closer to my goal. And my ultimate goal is Keira, that fact makes me grateful and happy.
And one month after I got home. I took over Uncle's position and became the CEO of Father and Mother's legacy company. A company that acts as a record label and talent agency.
The company took all my time, and after five months I led it. There are a lot of problems in the company. Starting from the scandal of artists who took shelter in my agency, album sales that did not go as expected etc. It was stressful for me, and it eroded my confidence.
I kept thinking, can I lead this company. What if I destroy this company. Those thoughts were created in my mind, and made it difficult for me to breathe.
But Keira was still there when I found it difficult, when I felt that I was alone. He always gave me his smile and helped me get through all the hardships.
I was grateful to have him, and he made me believe that he was my last stop. After almost seven years together, I established myself and proposed to Keira. Adding my name behind her name, we got married.
Everything feels perfect, even in the second year of our marriage, we are sent a gift by God. A boy sent god in the middle of both of us, I named the boy, Azka Setya Negara.
In Arabic Azka has a sacred meaning, and I put my last name there which is Setya Negara. In Javanese, it means Kharisma. I want him Holy and charismatic. My first child, the result of my love with Keira.
I gave up my whole life for him, I wanted him to grow up with compassion and genuine love. A very cute and adorable kid even me and Keira often argue and claim that he looks like the two of us. The right word to describe our lives at that time was we were happy.
Now I understand why that fate didn't walk away from his life. Why does that destiny, remain. That's because I'm part of destiny itself. So stupid, for acting, to know everything. In reality, I just messed things up.
The reason I was walking towards him, was because I believed that I could change my story. But in reality, I was the one who pushed the story into being. And I'm also the one who put herself into that terrible future.
I am the man in the future Keira. the man who will lose his flesh and blood. A cruel man, who makes a smile like a sin to him. And a man who walked away, when the whole world left him.
