Damar For Kinanti
shopping together
During the journey Kinanti deliberately busy himself by playing HP.
Kinanti knew clearly Yoga occasionally threw a glance at her.
" What are you going to do to the market?" tanya Yoga could not stand the Kinanti residence.
" Buy by mom," replied Kinanti in a sober tone.
" Ogh.. do you live alone mean?"
" no,"
" then with whom?"
" with the household assistant trust Mas Damar"
" Which person?"
" he said it was Yuk's cousin,"
" staying?"
" of course," replied Kinanti as briefly as possible.
" It's good that you're old too." said Yoga.
" On arrival at the market just stay, I can go up," said Kinanti,
" Ah, where might I stay. What if there is what how am I responsible to Mbak Winda and mas Damar? I entered at ten o'clock.and it was still morning.." sahut Yoga did not want to leave Kinanti in the market.
Kinanti was silent, she did not want to answer anymore.
Arriving at the Kinanti market get off the Yoga car.
" I won't be long" said Kinanti,
yoga is also coming down,
" i also want to look for something.all of you I come, Bagas really like market snacks." said Yoga, said,
hearing that Kinanti sighed, she could not say anything if it was about Bagas.
The boy who grew up without his mother's affection since that baby, should not get his hatred because of his father's behavior.
So whatever it is about Bagas, he can be mentolelir.
Kinanti walked into the market, with Yoga trailing behind her.
Many eyes are looking at them, probably because of the clean and handsome look of Yoga.
Silent quiet Kinanti complained inwardly,
it is only natural that people admire the good looks of Yoga, because Kinanti used to admire it too.
But Quiet Quinti was also upset, her husband was no less handsome, even taller and masculine.
After stopping by a few stores and buying her mother a staple, Kinanti had no intention of shopping anymore.
" Here, it's heavy." said Yoga snatch some heavy groceries in Kinanti's hands.
" Luckily I delivered earlier, this much groceries are impossible to carry with a motorbike." added Yoga.
" You're noisy." grumbled Kinanti, but instead of being angry, Yoga smiled.
" We'll buy a wet cake first.." Damar walked around, looking for a wet cake vendor.
And finally they both found a market hawker place that had moved further.
" Lho Nan? long time no see? this is tho your husband?" asked an old friend of Kinanti in Junior High to greet Kinanti.
" Your..?" not yet had time to finish his sentence, Yoga said,
" Good morning.. Kinanti's friend huh?" Yoga throws a smile, though,
" Yes mas. a friend of Kinanti Junior High.." Responded Kinanti returned a smile Yoga, apparently the look of Yoga face was really unsettling the old friend.
" We're done shopping, let's say goodbye first." said Yoga caught a displeased expression on Kinanti's face.
The two walked back to the car park.
After putting in all the groceries, the two continued on their way to Kinanti's mother's house.
" Don't overdo it, if you want to have a good relationship with me again, treat me like your brother's wife,
it's all for Bagas' sake, I don't want us to continue to be hostile on account of something that's long gone.." Kinanti tried wisely.
" What kind of excess?" tanya Yoga glanced at Kinanti who was sitting next to her.
" Don't show your view hangs as if we still have a relationship, it will trigger misunderstandings,
I was also afraid that Damar would realize that,
so help me. I want to have a normal and peaceful home life with mas Damar." replied Kinanti.
Yoga takes a deep breath, then smiles.
" I also want to." he said Yoga later,
" you mean?"
" I also want to have a home life like you say.."
said Yoga while turning his car to the fork towards the road to the house of Ibu Kinanti.
" Then find a good mother for Bagas, do not be careless" said Kinanti.
Yoga was silent, the look in his eyes arrived soft and not excited.
" There's nothing I can do to change things.My heart hurts so much.." Gumam Yoga's.
" That's it.just being close and being able to see you every day I'm happy..
I should be grateful..
I'm sorry.." added more clearly so that Kinanti heard it.
Kinanti turned to the man who was focusing on driving.
If Yoga had not betrayed, perhaps they would be happy now, Kinanti thought.
Yoga is a very influential man in his life, lying that Kinanti said no, but Kinanti had given up her feelings when she knew Yoga married another woman.
And now, though there was a feeling left in the smallest corner of his heart..
when he remembered Damar the space in the corner of his little heart had vanished suddenly.
The man who became her husband, there were no two sacrifices..
he acts as a father, brother, and lover..
The simple Damar is more everything than this popular and expensive looking Yoga.
Quiet silence Kinanti complained,
" Why did you betray me?" kinanti said arriving, arriving,
the sentence that never came out of Kinanti's mouth suddenly jumped just like that.
Yoga pulled over his car instantly.
His face looks not okay, though,
after being down for a long time,
he dared to look into Kinanti's eyes.
" I was so young back then, I was just a coward in my adult body..
at that time my father and my mother were against our relationship, but I stayed for 3 years." said Yoga, who was not involved in the relationship,
" Then you give up and throw away our love and togetherness is easy?" sharp Kinanti sound.
" No..?!" tukas Yoga fast with reddened eyes, his heart hurts so much.
" I don't really want to give up on our relationship..?!"
" but the truth is you gave up.." Kinanti threw her gaze out the car window.
" I left you because I had to, my family threatened to make things difficult for you and your family,
do you remember when you came home from college when you were interrupted by a bunch of boys?" Kinanti turned her head towards Yoga.
Well it did happen twice, for no reason and because Kinanti was pulled to a quiet place and forced to kiss by some men, even treated rudely, fortunately, Yoga and his friends arrived on time.
" That's what my late father did. he threatened to ruin you if I continued with you.."
" Nonsense shit?! you're even making out with other women!" tukas Kinanti tangy.
Yoga covered her face with her Right palm,
" It was me on purpose, that I was on purpose, that you would break our relationship." said Yoga in a trembling voice.
" You're lying?!" Kinanti did not accept and did not believe.
" I swear by Bagas." replied Yoga.
" You're a liar! you're not sane!" Fierce winnow,
" you're right, I'm not sane. After parting from you I became a jerk,
and my attitude is like a crazy man who thirsts for women..
I can't forget you?!
therefore Bagas' mother was tired of me not loving her and having an affair with another man who could give her warmth..
every sleep with Bagas' mother, who in my mind is even you..
no one knows that, I'm willing to be seen as a jerk..
just so you're safe and can live well..?"
Yoga grabbed Kinanti's hand and kissed her.
" What I'm saying is the truth.I'm even willing to swear by my only son." said Yoga weakly.
" You should never ask, and I will never answer..
I should have remained an evil figure until I died..
but my heart cannot see you in front of my eyes every day..?"
Kinanti's chest rumbled, saddened and disbelieving by what he heard mixed into one, saddened,
but he knew, Yoga would not lie and swear on Bagas by his will.
" Take my hand off." said Kinanti lirih, he pulled his hand, but Yoga tightly held it.
" I still love you so much." said Yoga with eyes that can no longer hold back his tears so as not to fall.
" I'm Mas Damar's wife!" firmly Kinanti with equally wet eyes, her heart was scarred once by the reality she was receiving at this moment.
" I know. I know. I didn't ask you to repay me, I didn't ask you to treat me well..
just let me stay quiet and calm next to you..
don't throw me out, that's enough for me Nan...??"
Yoga placed Kinanti's palm on her cheek and held it tightly so that Kinanti could not pull her hand.
Kinanti was as if stifled, he was even at a loss as to what to say, this situation was completely out of his control.
