Damar For Kinanti

frightened

" What are you thinking?" tanya Winda stroked the head of Kinanti who was sitting on the edge of her bed.

The woman looked unwell and a little dazed.

" Don't think much.. Yoga promised to bring your husband home.."

" Don't you?" asked Kinanti in a flat tone and continued staring at the floor.

" yes, Yoga won't come home until your husband comes home.that's his promise.."

Kinanti.

" Have you done it? go to sleep. I'll have Kaila bring you some food.."

" no need to be mad, I'm not hungry." Kinanti replied still flat, and it made Winda's feelings unpleasant.

" Damar is just angry, after his anger subsides, he will go home..

all will return as usual," comfort Winda so that Kinanti's mind is not too heavy.

" No.." said Kinanti.

" What is not?" Winda asked doubtfully,

" he won't be home as long as I'm here,

can't you hear it, too. When he kicked me out?" said Kinanti arrived with tears that began to fall, Winda choked, did not expect Kinanti would say this kind of thing.

" He said, if I don't want to go, then he'll go..

and it's true..

she went..

I don't know who he's driving, me or Yoga..

I thought we were both big traitors in his eyes..

it makes no difference." Kinanti's voice was full of bitterness.

" No nduk.he said it because of the emotion of just a moment..

and I guess what he was driving out was Yoga..

Damar..

how could he possibly throw you out?" winda tried to calm down.

" Not evict yet he's been gone all this time?

what's her name mbak..?"Kinanti glanced at Winda at a glance then again stared at the room floor.

" I'm sure if he hears I'm out of here,

soon he will be home.

Of course. he must be sick of seeing me, in his mind must have come a shadow of a bad shadow about me and Yoga, either in the past or in the present.."

Winda bowed, his face was lethargic, clearly visible eye bags that began to thicken.

He really can't sleep, especially if he thinks of Damar who never came home.

His two sisters were so good at torturing him that he began to lose some of his weight.

" It's all wrong Yoga.I can't defend him even though my real sister..

and Damar, though,

I can't defend him either even if he's blood on me..

because he's been keeping his emotions in check and leaving you for two more weeks.."

look full of guilt.

The room was silent for a moment, no one spoke, until the sound of Joseph's car parked in front of the house was heard by the ears of Kinanti and Vinda.

" I'm guilty of being dishonest..

I was also guilty of being unequivocal to Yoga and not being able to dismiss her as she knelt while hugging my legs..

I know, I know,

but I never betrayed her in the slightest." - Kinanti said after a long silence.

" I know you're disappointed. But this is common in households?"

" no. This is unusual for me, ma'am,

I've been dumped before..

and now he's doing it to me.

He's my husband..

he should have trusted me more, though,

what he saw and concluded is not necessarily true,

but not coming home soon..

he would rather stay away from me out there instead." looked at Kinanti's eyes full of disappointment.

" He loves you nduk.. and will be home soon..believe me..?"

" What if he's disappointed in me for thinking I've been acting out of bounds with Yoga mbak? then looking for another woman as an impingement??" pain flashed in Kinanti's heart, making her tears come back full.

" I. I cannot accept it a second time.." The woman sobbed, a sense of pain and disappointment piled up on her chest.

I don't want to feel it a second time.

So, before he gets kicked out or dumped, he better know himself and leave.

" Let me go mbak..?"

kinanti's voice on the sidelines as hiccups,

" where?!" Winda panicked, though,

" i want to go home to my house.."

" this is your house?!" said Winda while embracing Kinanti.

" Don't be so. there will be no end if you want to hurt each other." said Winda while crying.

" Oh my God, it feels like my head is about to break thinking about this..

don't you add my burden to your departure??" looka's voice is raucous, she's been quite defeated by Damar's departure,

what would happen if Kinanti also left this house?.

" No.. no.. Don't go where..?!" Winda shook his head while releasing his embrace,

in a good look a shabby face full of tears belonged to Kinanti.

" You're part of this family, I'll educate Damar well after he gets home?!

I promise nduk, things will improve?!" Winda.

" Tok tok.." the sound of the half-open room door being knocked,

yusuf's figure was there.

" I'm sorry to bother you..

bulek insisted on wanting to come here since this morning,

so it's better that Kinanti who came home, than the bulek know that mas Damar is not home." sidelines Yusuf who has since been eavesdropping from behind the door.

" Did Kinanti's mom know?" sanya turned her eyes to Joseph.

Joseph shook his head,

" no. I keep it a secret." he said.

" Good.you're a smart boy." said Vinda,

" Well, if you want to go home for a while, but remember,

stay with things for two days..

tap after that come home okay?" Winda.

Kinanti did not answer, however,

" Yusuf?! promise you'll take her back home?!" Vinda was firm on Joseph who stood clumsily.

" Otherwise, don't even think about coming here again, don't expect to see Kaila."

Yusuf was shocked, he looked at Winda and Kinanti in turn.

Joseph drove his car with a heart, though he was riled up.

" I don't know, Bulek is very sensitive, he seems to know you're in trouble..

twice forced me to take you to meet you,

he said he kept dreaming of seeing you laughing out loud..

he said it was the opposite..

symbol of sadness." said Yusuf.

" I'm not only sad, but I'm also disappointed." said Kinanti leaning her head while staring at the street in front of her.

" You have to understand, it's only natural that a man is disappointed..

moreover, Yoga dares to touch you. Well even if only your feet, but still he is brash..

which husband doesn't have a heartache?"

Yusuf argues.

" Now just calm yourself at home bulek. while waiting for mas Damar home..

don't torture yourself with strange thoughts..

there's no way Damar's drunk and meets other women out there.."

" Suf?!" kinanti insisted that Joseph not continue his sentence.

It was the thing that Kinanti was so afraid of when she imagined why her husband would not come home and feel at home out there.

" I'm not talking so much to add to your fear,

but I just want you to think positively, though,

your husband is a learned man..

he's not the type who when angry will drink and look for women.."

" Nobody knows suf!" firm Kinanti with glassy eyes.

" It wasn't two days that he left, but two more weeks." Kinanti continued in a poignant voice.