Damar For Kinanti

Ranu gumbolo

Two weeks went by, no news, Damarpun did not come home.

All phone calls and chats are ignored.

Kinanti never stop crying every night, until every morning Winda can see her eyes are swollen.

Conditions in the factory became a little chaotic, because Damar did not show himself at all, it made the workers ask questions.

" What should I do if mas Damar does not return soon..?

I can't keep covering up the real conditions..

I'm not capable enough to take over even if it's only temporary.." Umar bowed lethargic.

A Umar who incidentally is not ready who is Damar and only purely a worker who is taught directly by Damar can seresah this.

Damar's assertiveness, policy, and tenacity cannot be replaced by anyone.

Since Umar knew that Damar was leaving the house,

his sleep is not good.

" Just do your job as usual..

be calm..

mas Damar will be home soon." said Kinanti as she wiped her tears that kept dripping uncontrollably.

" I'm really worried..

as soon as I mas Damar has no close friends..

I've been thinking about where Damar's been these two weeks.."

" Don't add to my unrest Mar..

His HP was always on, but never once a phone call from me and Mbak Winda was picked up by him..

maybe he's too fed up with me..

that's why he won't go home.."

again the tears of Kinanti flowed, even more profusely.

How beautiful his heart, Damar who had not been able to separate long from him,

able to leave it in a long time according to Kinanti.

Let alone two weeks, three days it feels excruciating.

A shadow of a bad shadow always flashed through Kinanti's mind, what her husband was doing out there, she said,

and what if her husband was looking for another woman for impingement or even revenge.

" Don't talk so mbak, mas Damar can't think so narrowly..

tresnone gede nang sampaan mbak (his love is big to sampaan mbak.)"

Umar tried to strengthen the true Kinanti could not hide his sadness.

The tall man stood on the edge of Ranu Gumbolo, one of the lakes located in the middle of the semeru mountain.

The lake seemed wider than the last time he climbed.

Eve warmly touched her face, the wind greeted quite slowly this morning, the fog that enveloped her was long gone, leaving behind an amazing sight.

A few days in Ranu Gumbolo already made him better, not trembling anymore like the beginning he came, he said,

his old friends are very helpful and supportive, they patiently wait for Damar who more often stops and sits limp because attacked again by the memory of bad memories when down carrying Aji's body, and who was attacked again, and how helpless he is with the circumstances.

Not just tears, but the blood from his wound from being pierced by a twig was still so clear in his memory.

When Damar walked while crying, he sobbed with Aji on his back, hoping that his best friend would wake up and hit his head as usual.

But unfortunately, until they are both found, Aji never woke up again.

His chest often throbbed pain as those bad memories flashed, his body becoming limp and trembling.

Although the path they passed was not the same, yet still, it was,

it's not easy for Damar to come back to this place.

He has been very trying to master himself, thinking relaxed and as calm as possible..

what happened cannot be changed, and everything has passed. continue to comfort Damar himself so as not to feel too guilty, he said,

even though he knew that this happened because of his boredom..

and those bad memories still come up a lot..

stabbing a prick himself as he himself was like this.

His hands tightly holding the handle of the fishing rod, some climbers who were so young caught by his eyes were playing and taking pictures on the trunks of trees that collapsed and went into the water, not so deep..

Damar knows right, though,

because in the past, when he was so young, the fallen tree trunk was always his seat while smoking.

He did not expect his seat to monitor his friends who were joking or busy cooking in the morning, it was still there, even though dozens of years had passed..

He still stood quietly with the fishing line in his hand, even though he knew. stood until tomorrow, maybe there would be no fish pulling the hook..

because since young he never lucky greetings fishing and get fish like his friend.

But at least this is Damar's way so that he has activities while waiting for his friends to come down from the top.

The prediction of Damar, his friend may have gone down and reached death or if their steps were fast as when young, maybe they have arrived at arcopodo at this time.

But Damar hesitated when he saw some of his old friends who had gained a lot of weight,

Of course their speed decreased, except for some people who look still fit and look diligent exercise.

Silent silent Damar smiled, the most handsome man in his faculty used to be and famous as a high-class playboy, now looks more moody and less caring for himself, hear his son was three, he said, one man, and two women.

Sure enough, maybe being a father makes him happier, so he doesn't really care about his appearance anymore.

Suddenly his smile disappeared, his mind again caught the shadow of his wife.

" Till tomorrow it looks like you won't get any fish." Rian's voice shocks from behind Damar's back.

Although a little surprised but Damar did not budge, he did not turn his head and his eyes remained fixed on Ranu gumbolo black glittering, now or a dozen years ago Ranu gumbolo looked very calm as usual.

Meanwhile, the giant mound of earth that formed the hills, tightly hugging with its green in addition to the towering pine pine as if it wanted to touch the sky.

Javan eagles suddenly fly fast, Damar who is busy thinking about his wife of course does not realize it.

" You saw that?!" rian asked flabbergasted, because the bird was really hard to find to see.

" No." replied Damar,

" that much you don't see? well.. Aren't you too focused on your fishing line?"

Damar was silent,

" Come on, we're eating.. Dedy's making fried rice, man,

put that fishing line down.." Rian slightly pulled Damar's arm.

" You go first, I'll catch up." said Damar not turning his head.

" Yes already. if you're done don't blame me, huh?! cook for yourself later!" rian's voice was a little loud.

" I'm trying so hard to bring her here, her behavior is still so..!" gerutu Rian while sitting next to the nesting that has been neatly arranged by Dedy.

Hearing that Dedy just smiled, though,

" You don't see him every day anyway..in college even his behavior is like..?!" continued Rian.

" Don't expect too much." Dedy's voice was light as he turned back the crackers that had begun to expand.

" you mean?" Rian frowned.

" His development has been good.he dares to step on all the more, not that it is extraordinary..

what do you expect from someone who has a major trauma..

forcing him to heal is tantamount to inflicting a new wound,

so just follow the plot, the important thing is that he's been really trying.."

said Dedy while smiling lightly.

" For someone who doesn't have trauma, the phrase 'heals' is like something trivial, sort of..

if you fall, you must get up..

while not everyone is able to, sometimes there are those who roll first, or,

sometimes someone crawls first..

don't you see her red eyes holding back her tears from spilling in front of us?

He is our leader, the fastest and strongest among us,

but he is still an ordinary man,

his heart could also be broken to pieces..

so then..

be calm..

just follow the steps, we'll watch from behind his back.."

Rian sighed, he understood Dedy's words,

but still he was not comfortable seeing Damar who always separated himself.

" I'm afraid he's missing Ded. That's all.." said Rian.

Dedy laughed, though,

" Would that kid be possessed?,

although his body was calm, his head was noisy,

it was clear in his eyes that there was something he thought about every minute.

Sometimes the expression looks sad..

sometimes they look angry..

sometimes it seems desperate.."

Rian turned his head, dropping his gaze again on the tall figure who was walking into the edge of Ranu gumbolo.

The tall man was busy pulling his fishing line caught in a pine twig.

" The older you get, the wiser you are. Is it because you're father?" said Rian took a spoon.

" Are you praising me or mocking me?" ask Dedy,

" ah. of course two of them.." Rian smiled at a glance.

" I'll find Mas Damar bye." said Yoga behind the door, but the man did not dare to enter.

" I'm sorry, I've got the contact of the alumni, I'm sorry,

after I met one of them and got word..

I'll tell you soon..?" imbuh Yoga's.

But not a single bit did Kinanti answer.

He remained seated quietly in the living room with Kaila.

" It's funny, isn't this what you expected?" yusuf's voice arrived from behind Yoga's back.

" You disturbed the peace of their household, and now you're fighting like you care and want to reunite them..

are you playing a role or what?" yusuf ketus.

" If you don't want to help at least don't make things worse.

I was guilty of this, but I never wanted their separation..?!" firmly Yoga.

" me? make it worse?, so annoying of you..

you think because you're handsome and capable you can do as you please?

act like a man, man,

if you never dare to risk eating never go forward,

what you did to Kinanti in youth you can't pay for in the same way,

do good by always supporting whatever the choice is now, not even always a shadow of her and make her anxious about your past that is impossible to repeat." Joseph looked upset, though,

" The fact that he loves now is mas Damar, you're gone from his heart,

don't blame anyone..

you should have protected her with all your strength if you loved her,

you can go wherever you want to live together,

instead of leaving him under the pretext of fearing that both of your parents hurt him,

do you understand the point?

you must be aware..

in his heart, there was no you at all." Joseph's voice was smoother, but more piercing.

" Yusuf!" call Kaila hard.

" if you're here just to make trouble, go..!" kaila.

" Yes.iya.iya I did not make a fuss.." sahut Yusuf arrived obediently like a kitten, he looked at Kaila who was glaring at him.

Yoga clenched his hands, trying to master himself, free he was angry, he,

what Joseph said is true..

he is a coward who does not want to accept the fact that his former lover is now happier with his brother.

" Don't listen to me? better mas just go home. don't make mbak Kinan sadder to think of this.." Kaila told Yoga.

" I will try to bring Mas Damar home." the voice of Yoga in, in his view Kinanti full of guilt and pain, pangs, before the handsome man turned around and walked away with heavy steps.