Damar For Kinanti

Hope mom

Damar was busy at the factory, driving a forklift and lifting cut wood.

" Waduh bothered if this continues.." muttered the forklift driver sitting at the security guard post.

" Sambat wae.." commented the security guard.

" Lha from this morning mas Damar who holds his forklift, and I was told to do this sir..?"

" There are others.."

" the others are wearing, sir..!"

" you are silent waiting for orders, like you do not know. mas Damar can at least be silent.."

the two men quietly watched with resignation Damar who went to and fro lifting wood with a forklift.

About 30 minutes later Damar got off the forklift and walked to the security guard.

" Tuh, I'm giving it back, sir..!" damar said with a smile, he knew the driver was a little upset with his behavior, maybe he felt his job was taken by Damar.

" Yes e, this Damar mas.I would not feel good to sit alone since..

what people say later, my boss eats a blind paycheck." lamented the driver.

" Ah, wong just for a little while sir.yeah already, I go first yeah, see you later tonight..!" pamit Damar, he patted the driver's arm, then walked away from the direction of the factory.

" Where are you going?" ask Winda who saw Damar already wearing his jacket and backpack.

" Fud? why?" ask Damar in surprise,

" I have afternoon classes.mbak please look at the factory for a bit.." he added.

" Come straight home?" ask Winda,

" where do I go?" ask Damar back.

" Who knows, come to Kinanti again.."

" Well, can you be a shaman now? how can I know I'm like this." murmured Damar.

" Don't use shamans, just look at you I understand, try to control yourself..

don't meet the girls at night,

he also has to keep his good name.."

Damar was astonished, he did not understand what Vinda said.

"What did I do to ruin his good name? we just eat?" answer Damar.

" Well, but have you ever thought, you pick her up a lot, even visit her at night,

how people around even the hostess looked, though,

other men can misunderstand..

of course there will be bad gossip about Kinanti, even though she is a teacher.."

Damar was silent to hear it, his mind really did not get there.

" So I mean don't have to pick her up anymore?" nada Damar was worried.

" Yes, if you have no intention of marrying her, stay away from her. You can meet her mother once a month, just like always..

then..

if indeed you want to sincerely let him be with other men then do not provoke him..

let the other man approach him freely,

of course you still have to stay away from him.."

sire's advice is serious.

" Why should I stay away from him? did I just take her?" damar's heart began to fail, though,

" because you're a coward, you're standing in the middle and can't make up your mind, so you better stay away..!" resolute Winda.

" Let another man marry her and make her happy if you can't!"

Damar was really worried, though,

" why can't you say this bad to me??" asked Damar with a heavy voice.

" the end I wonder about you, what do you really want Dam? just help her financially, or want to have it?"

and again Damar was silent.

" can't answer that..?" said Winda

" Keep the Distance, find out how you feel. Just take the right steps, you know,

it's not that I don't support you, but seeing your behavior right now that sometimes doesn't make me feel sorry for that woman, sometimes,

don't make her fall in love with you if you don't intend to marry her." Winda was really firm this time, he deliberately behaved like that so that his sister could distinguish his feelings, he said,

it is only the responsibility he feels, though,

or the feeling of wanting to have a Kinanti as a couple.

" Have left.heart, slow down don't speed.." said Winda calmly then walked away like innocent, leaving Damar with the burden of thought.

During teaching Damar less focus.

his mind was troubled thinking about the words of Winda.

Should stay away from Kinanti how can I do it, he thought.

But the word Winda has a point too, as a man he should not be selfish.

He was even happy to impose his will indirectly.

But what is power, Kinanti is like a strong magnet for him, whether this feeling he also can not understand it.

Is this just a responsibility that has turned into an obsession, or is there a feeling that arises after watching the woman after many years.

As Winda said..

it has been like taking care of a plant, then when the plant bears fruit, can he give up the plant even the fruit is picked by others.

Surely Kinanti cannot be equated with a plant, it is just a parable, and of course she is worth more than that.

" Fuck it.." lamented softly, making the students look at him in wonder.

He ignored the gazes of the students.

He got up from his chair, walked out, and leaned against one of the pillars.

Now Damar was standing on the 3rd floor, As if to get rid of a bit of his anxiety he threw his gaze into the blue sky which was decorated with white cloud, it looked very bright.. unlike the heart of Damar now that is not clear want and want him.

Then some time later he dropped his gaze down, watching with a fad the students and students who were going back and forth on the campus courtyard.

Some were talking, some were even two and were sitting in a chair next to the campus garden.

From above everything seems clear.

He hoped that his heart would also be as clear as his current outlook.

Whether his desire to marry Kinanti is just an obsession, or because his heart really wants it.

He let out a heavy sigh, then held his painless head with both hands, like something heavy was on his mind.

" How is this Ji. what should I do to your sister." she said in a soft voice.

Kinanti walked hurriedly out of the principal's room.

" I want to go home sir, mom is sick again..?!" kinanti replied with a troubled face, but she had already obtained permission from the principal.

" Oh..?!"

" why sir?"

" if not teaching you want me to take you??" said Tyo,

" no sir, I take the bus or public transport only." said Kinanti.

" Yes sir, let me go first?!" pamit Kinanti then immediately walked to the parking lot to pick up the motorbike.

And sure enough, Kinanti immediately returned to the boarding house to change clothes, after which she immediately headed to the highway to look for a bus that passed the highway leading to her home.

Joseph helped me sit down, both of them just got home from the doctor.

" Aren't you just lying down?" ask Yusuf.

" Just sit down. the fall is getting dizzy." said Kinanti's mother.

" Mind opo tho bulek. blood is just as sugar can be high so. stomach e genengan that too, mbok ya maem regular.."

" Wes maem le.. your mother's man routinely masakin bulek every morning. moso is not in maem.."

" but the thought of this bulek fasteng..do not have my heart look like this boulek, but Kinan I have been on the phone?!"

" don't le, I'm afraid he's teaching.."

" now she's heavy what's her mom's weight?!" Joseph was a little upset.

" I'm sorry bulek." he said later in a lower tone.

" Bulek just moved to my house nggeh. let someone watch.." Joseph was really worried, because he could not keep an eye, he was busy watching in and out of the goods in his furniture store, and the night he still had to help his father with the administration in and out of wood raw materials.

" Damar Mas not in the news?, he must be angry if you know the bulek is sick but not preaching it?" yusuf.

" Don't le. bulek ndak yang.."

" it's not good why bulek, he said it's like his own child?"

" that's because Kinan came home with his teacher's friend's man.."

Joseph thought for a long time, then looked at his Buddha whose pale face was good.

" Budhe.. May I ask?" yusuf's voice was calm,

" what is le.."

answer the bulek is calm,

" what do you really expect from Damar and Kinan?"

hearing Yusuf's question, the bullek leaned on the back of the chair while sighing softly.

It was like a heavy burden on his heart.

" If you are tired, anytime we continue this conversation." cut Joseph afraid his bulek was exhausted.

" Ndak le. mumpung you ask, bulek also never can talk freely with Kinan like with you..

you know it yourself..

since breaking up with his girlfriend he used to be a stubborn figure and not easy to accept other people's input, he became a stubborn figure,

which for us is good, not necessarily for us is good.."

" yes, I understand that.." Yusuf nodded.

" In the eyes of the bull, the male Damar in charge. whether or not, the bulek does not know how the overall attitude behind the bulek..

but at first glance bulek see,

in his eyes was storing something more than responsibility for Kinanti..

especially since she offered to marry Kinanti, the bullek became convinced she could take responsibility for Kinan's life by becoming her husband..

well. although the reason is the responsibility, he said he was happy if he could be responsible until the end to his best friend's sister.."

obviously mother kinan.

" So Mas Damar volunteered to marry you? it's not like you said to Kinan that you wanted to?"

Mother Kinanti shook her head slowly,

" He wanted Kinanti, but he did not want Kinanti to be burdened and afraid, so he asked her to hide the fact that he volunteered to marry Kinanti..

yah..

maybe it was also caused by a complaint from her mother's complaint to her.."

" what are your complaints?"

" bulek occasionally confided in him when he came here,

that Kinanti has been 25 years, and the condition of the bulek like this..

well. the unrest of the unrest, because he himself is like a replacement for Aji..

bulek said, if the bulek died.who watched Kinan and guided him, it is certain that he will live his life..

life comes from life, without purpose and hope..

you knew for yourself when Aji and his father died..

what he's like..

then betrayed his girlfriend who has been in a relationship with him for years..

as broken as his heart bulek know..

then if the arrival of the dead boulek and he is still alone.. how is the fate of le..?" kinan's mother's eyes began to look glassy.

" Am I a bullek? I can't possibly let Kinan live alone." Yusuf said.

" You will marry le. You will have a wife and children to take care of..

it can't be forever that you take care of and pay attention to Kinanti.."

Joseph was silent, he was down.

" The way out is to get married.he must be married while the mother is still alive.." said the mother was starting a raucous voice.

tears dripping little by little from the corner of his eyes, he really could not if he had to die before Kinanti really there is a guard.

Kinanti had already felt a great deal of loss, and mother did not want the child to be alone when he was also called by God.

" bulek wants to die peacefully later..

sukur sukur if given a longer life and can see grandchildren.."

" it certainly can be bulek. surely can see the grandchildren bulek.mangkannya not the mind that macem macem, macem,

about Kinan let me advise you on a plan plan..

bulek now eat first, continue to take medicine huh? let Joseph get you some food.."

Joseph could no longer hear the word from his tribe.

he was forced to cut off this conversation because he himself almost cried seeing his bulek shed tears.

He immediately got up from the chair and headed to the kitchen.