Damar For Kinanti

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Damar felt a tickle on his toes, no matter who touched him.

Damar opened his eyes slowly, and found Bagas who was touching one by one his toes.

" Don't. om dirty feet." said Damar with a smile, occasionally he grimaced with pain because he moved his legs.

" Our sick?" bagas' voice was so opium in Damar's ear, like the entertainer this morning.

" Yes, a little bit." replied Damar.

" Want to eat? budhe cook hoto chicken?" Bagas approached, so that Damar could grab the child with his left hand.

" Say budhe, om Damar would like to eat vegetables and fried tempeh only.."

" ready. sayul and tempe..!"

Bagas immediately ran out of Damar's room.

Silently, Damar laughed at the behavior of Yoga's son.

The way to speak is really entertaining.

Damar unintentionally floated his gaze at the corner of his room, by the window.

His eyes hit a 10R photo that had been stuck on the wall for years.

There were two young men standing on the highest mountain in Java.

One young man was taller, had a charming face, but seemed stiff with a makeshift smile without showing his teeth,

and the other beautiful young man, he looks cheerful, he looks,

in the bajui with a wide and sweet smile, his face was soft and friendly.

The old Damar saw the photo, he seemed lost, and returned to a time when he and Aji were still often together.

Again there was a circle of tears that forced out, he just clicked through the two corners of the eye Damar and fell at will.

There was a sense that he could not control every look at the photo,

that friendly face of aji, and his ever sincere smile made him feel even more guilty.

Damar's stupidity that made the man die,

if Damar took good care of him as on the previous climb, maybe he could still hug Aji now, he said,

you can climb from one peak to the other.

Everyone advised him to keep the photo in a closet or drawer, to be invisible and to evoke his painful memories.

But Damar does not want to, he can not get rid of Aji in his life, let alone save his photo with a transfer to forget.

It felt inappropriate, how could he live well, while Aji died right on his back.

He will continue to bear this sense of loss and guilt, he said,

and Damar doesn't want to forget,

he did not want to forget his friend no matter how sad his heart every time he remembered what had happened.

Aji died because of his boredom, as an experienced climber, should he keep Aji beginner as best as possible, but what happened he even harmed Aji.

He will feel even more sinful if he tries to forget Aji, which is what Damar has believed in all this time.

" I hear you're falling?" there was the sound of someone entering the room, disperse the daydreams of Damar.

" Yes ma'am," replied Damar short, it was his stepmother, standing in front of the room door.

Damar could catch a glimpse, so sparkling the eyes of his stepmother saw Damar lying down, he was like happy.

" You should be careful, if this is who takes care of your work?

thankfully your wounds are light." said the stepmother.

Damar was silent and did not answer.

" You should get married soon after this, if anything bad happens to you later, someone will take care of you,

you see yourself now, Kaila went to college,

he can't be bothered with continuing to take care of you,

he's young, after college he's gonna play with his friends,

so don't burden him..

let alone making it stick to you every day,

how will he find a soul mate if he sticks to you constantly,

men will also be disinclined, too,

your 'friendly' face must have scared away the man who was about to get close to Kaila." the tone of Damar's stepmother was subtle but hurtful.

" I will recover soon, and will not trouble anyone." replied Damar flatly.

" It's good then.get well soon..! and don't keep everyone busy taking care of you..!" the stepmother threw a cynical sneering look, then walked away from Damar's room door.

Damar just closed his eyes, not commenting anything, because he was familiar and immune to Kaila's mother's attitude.

If he had held back all this time, it was solely for Kaila's sake,

he wants Kaila to live well..

it must be for him to protect Kaila even though they are not a thousand, because he is the only one you leave for him.

At least it's not kara.

Soon Winda entered to bring breakfast Damar, in accordance with what Damar ordered on the bagas.

" Don't you put it in the heart, already..ayo breakfast..?!" Sitting next to the bed.

Petrifying Damar sat down and fed him slowly.

" What do you feel?"

" my waist, back, joints hurt all.." he lamented.

" i'll get the masseuse later, now finish your meal.." Vinda still feeds Damar.

" You didn't tell your friend's sister that you fell?" ask the heart of the heart,

" didn't you fall after picking her up?"

" No. I looked for him at the boarding house, but he came home.."

" You guys got into a fight? because that's where your mind goes and falls, isn't it?"

Damar looked at Winda seriously,

" open the practice mbak. mbak now look like a fortune teller.."

" uh! I know because I was also young and there was experience.who can't guess, you're stupid in the business of hiding your facial expression.."

" is that so obvious?"

" that's.."

Damar was silent for a moment,

" then he should understand me." he lamented,

" understanding a half-man is difficult,

want but like not want..

which woman understands your unclear attitude.."

Bows down.

" What's your decision?"

" What decision?"

" about Kinanti?"

Damar froze, he could not think what was right for now.

" I don't know, it seems like I'm really clapping one hand, and amazingly I also can not recognize my feelings are limited to responsibility or really want to have it because of my own personal feelings, he said,

it's like I found Aji with him every time..

her smile, her way of speaking, was very similar to Aji..

and yet..

when I split up yesterday, I decided to stay away from him, maybe that's the best thing,

there must be a lot of men out there who want to be her husband.."

Winda even smiled to see Damar's weak lethargic face.

" Let's hope I'm strong, because I promised whoever I chose I'd marry her.."

" i don't know if you're good or stupid, Damar..

just watch out for you crying later..

don't you complain to me?!" vinda's Perspiration.

Two weeks passed.

No word on Damar at all.

Kinanti who was still not getting the new school felt something unpleasant arise in her heart.

Damar's words as he left this house cannot be forgotten.

The man said that he would stay away and would not bother Kinanti again.

" Bechelm..." Kinanti complained, eager to throw away his anxiety, even though he and Damar did not have such a relationship, then why did a strange feeling arise in his heart.

" Want to stay away just stay away.noisy..!" Kinanti spoke to himself, he was upset, because in his mind was noisy in full of Damar.

Kinanti stayed on the porch, she turned back her reading book, with absolutely no interest in reading.

It feels really bored.

Actually he can come out because Mr. Tyo several times to take him on the road, but he is not interested at all.

He knew very well that Tyo was putting his heart on him, but he could not imagine marrying Tyo, however they were friends, and Kinanti really did not have feelings for Tyo.

" Hoy! just daydream!" there was a voice so loud that it shocked Kinanti.

Joseph was walking closer to the terrace, while behind him was a man, his stature was firm and muscular.

" Where's Suf from?" ask Kinanti, please,

" From home, there happened to be Haikal at home, all of you I invited to come here, remember you guys?"

The man in brown and short pants approached Kinanti, giving her a hand for a shake.

" Oh.. Haikal's? how are you..?" Kinanti got up and shook his old friend's hand.

The two smiled at each other.

" Well Nan..are you alone?" ask Haikal, please,

" I'm not good, because I've suddenly become unemployed these two weeks ." Kinanti laughed a little.

" Oh yeah, I hear you're looking for a new school?"

" Yes, I'm looking for an Elementary School that needs a teacher.."

" Where have you proposed?"

" It's just around here, because I don't want to go too far with mom.."

" yes, it's also good to work while taking care of the elderly.." Haikal smiled, the man who used to be a bully, now has a good body.

" Eh, are you gonna let us out?" Yusuf mediates,

" Oh, yes, come on in, let me make you a drink." said Kinanti,

" Yes, there's something Haikal wants to talk about" Yusuf said, throwing a smile at Haikal.

" Something to talk about? me?" ask Kinanti, please,

" Yes." Haikal replied smilingly,

" Whoa..what is that?" ask Kinanti curiously.