Damar For Kinanti

this is not what I want

Winda walked in, peeking at Kinanti in the room,

and the one at the core is fast asleep.

Winda closed the door of Kinanti's room and walked towards the kitchen.

Winda found fried rice in the pan, he researched left and right.

"In front of Joseph's car, Kaila was also supposed to accompany Kinanti, where were they?" grumbling Winda while walking around, he found no one.

" This young man is right?! told to keep even wandering!" Winda walked out.

But once again he was confused to find Joseph's sandals and shoes.

" Win?! Kaila tell you to go home?!" kaila's mother's voice from the terrace.

" It looks like Mbah uti's house! just find it there!" reply Winda.

" Oh, yes wes, no need..!" kaila's mother said and then immediately went back into her room.

Kinanti woke up, she glanced at the wall clock, one o'clock at night.

Kinanti came out of her room, then walked towards the living room, her gaze bumped by Joseph who was asleep on the sofa.

" Suf..? Suf..?" Kinanti woke Joseph up.

Sayup Yusuf opened his eyes,

" Why?!" joseph asked slightly surprised and immediately got up.

" What's up. Why don't you go home?" ask Kinanti.

" It's too late, so I'm going home tomorrow.I'm not calm.."

joseph replied with a slightly different attitude,

" Why not sleep in the guest room, there are two empty rooms.."

" emhh.no, I'm just here.who knows when Damar arrives home.."

" Mais?"

Joseph suddenly fell down,

" he sleeps in the room.."

" You're not fighting anymore, are you?" quinti asked a little astonished by Joseph's attitude, it seemed that something was not right.

" Of course not.."

" is that right? you don't freak out, Suf, I've got a headache, so you don't make trouble with the fuss continue with Kaila." recalls Kinanti.

" I told you not to Nan.. Gosh..?" yusuf was nervous.

" Your face is like someone who has done something wrong." said Kinanti then walked back into his room.

Kinanti was ready to go to school, she took the keys to her vespas on the middle table.

There was a noise coming from the kitchen, a curious Kinanti walked towards the kitchen.

He found Joseph making warm milk.

" You didn't eat anything from yesterday, at least drink milk.."

Joseph handed a glass of warm milk to Kinanti.

Kinanti glanced at the table, there was another glass filled with milk.

After Kinanti drank the milk out, Joseph took another glass of milk and brought it into the guest room.

The look on Joseph's face was anxious, making Kinanti curious.

Apparently Kaila was lying there, her face looking pale.

" Why La? that hurt?!" ask Kinanti to be worried.

" I'm fine" replied Kaila, glancing at Yusuf.

" Batk!!! plaaq!!!" Kinanti hit Joseph on the back hard.

" What are you doing Kaila?! I told you not to be like that!" kinanti sprayed and hit Joseph again several times.

The two human children who were in front of Kinanti were silent, and equally bowed.

" Yourself?!" kaila's mother's voice came in, though,

Kinanti hurriedly came out of the room so that Kinanti's mother did not enter.

" It's still a bath ma'am, after a shower let me tell you that mom's here." said Kinanti hurriedly.

" Was your sister not going to college? who's car in front of it? from yesterday I saw?" ask Kaila's mother ketus as usual.

" That's my brother's car ma'am, yeah let me tell Kaila to hurry up.." Kinnanti tried to smile.

" hemm, yes it is..!" kinanti's mother replied and turned around.

Dahi Kinanti frowned in surprise, but today there was a ceremony, she must not be late.

" Oh, whatever you do, soon Yuk will come and tell her what you need." Kinanti hurriedly walked out.

Damar sat in the campus cafeteria, since the morning he had been there.

Because a few more days have started the semester break, the campus feels so relaxed.

The man in the dark blue shirt was sitting in the only canteen that was still open.

Unknowingly he had already consumed a few cigarettes.

" What do you want to eat to smoke?" ask the Canteen owner to sit not far from Damar.

The mother of the canteen was astonished, the chicken soto that Damar ordered since then was not touched either, until the sauce was absorbed by the rice.

" I'm changing the warm ones, sir?" the mother offered,

" don't ma'am.it's okay, let me eat." said Damar slightly smiling, he threw away his remaining cigarette in half.

His face did not look as bright as usual, his eye bags were so thick.

Hair that is usually neat in wax, now left just exposed to the former helmet.

" You sick, sir?" ask the mother,

" no ma'am.." replied Damar while eating the cold soto was a spoonful.

" Njenengan lethargic sir." said the mother again,

" yes, ma'am, I haven't slept in days.." Damar smiled, though,

" you know? danger sir? riding the bike again??" the mother was worried.

" A. I'm used to it, ma'am.." Damar continues the soto.

From a distance came a figure he knew well, it was Rian.

" You're here apparently.I saw your bike in the parking lot, but you're not in your room.." Rian sat down next to Damar.

" Eat.." Damar offered, though,

" may ma'am, I haven't had breakfast yet, pecel nggih buk?" Said Rian with his thick jaw log.

The mother nodded and went in to prepare Rian's order.

" You don't have any classes starting today? any other need?" ask Rian,

" just get a few things done." replied Damar.

" Don't forget the day after tomorrow, call me if you change your mind." Rian said, patting Damar on the shoulder, and Damar just kept quiet, not answering.

Yoga looked so restless, he had just come home from the hospital for checking some of his painful stitches.

Says Winda and Yudi, Damar has not returned home for 3 days, plus the day where the quarrel occurred in total 4 days.

How's this.. Yoga was anxious, he could not even rest in peace.

Winda also strictly forbids Yoga talk with Kinanti.

" Why are you pacing back and forth in front of the window so, the stitches on your back can open up if you keep tense," the sound of Winda coming in carrying food.

" Mad Damar hasn't come home yet?" tanya Yoga, please,

" not yet." replied Winda quietly,

" would I call him? is it possible to be answered by Mas Damar?"

" I have contacted him dozens of times, but always ignored. let alone you who have been considered a traitor by him." said Winda.

" What about Kinanti??"

" It's the same in chatpun not read.."

Hearing that Yoga bowed in,

how much damage he has caused.

Because he wants to live his own feelings, he turns off the feelings of others..

maybe even..

it can be said, he has broken the peace of life Kinanti and Damar.

He really doesn't want this, though,

this is not what he wants..

he behaved like this not to hurt Kinanti or Damar.

He just wanted to be next to Kinanti, and not be forgotten..

not wanting to snatch him or even make him separate from Damar.