Damar For Kinanti

love is not forcing

Damar repeatedly looked at Rakha while sighing heavily,

he really doesn't think..

Rakha is the Junior High child she once taught, and,

of course they were quite close because they talked a few times.

When Rakha practice always shows a flat expression, no emotion at all, it makes Damar interested and approached him, until finally Damar knows, it's what makes Damar interested, what made the boy express himself so flat and emotionless.

" I'm willing to take a double, or even triple, senpai's punch." Rakha's voice ripped Damar's mind off.

" Don't call me senpai, " said Damar in a lazy voice.

" and what should I call senpai? you are indeed my senpai.." Rakha was bowed deeply.

Damar was silent,

" call me sir, mas, whatever." said Damar again.

" ah. it feels foreign to call senpai with mas or father.." complained Rakha felt awkward, he sometimes grimaced feeling pain in his back.

" Will I have my men help you, or do you want to go to the hospital?" ask Damar.

" I'm fine, this kind of wound won't kill me." replied Rakha trying to calm down.

Damar took out his cigarette from the leather handbag that he always carried where, where,

burning his cigarette was a stick, sucking and exhaling it slowly, while staring at the rice field before him.

" I'll assume this never happened..

but don't show yourself again in front of Dinda." Said Damar calm but full of affirmation.

Rakha was silent, he did not answer, he said,

" I will give my brother the understanding not to prolong this,

you are my protege, what you are doing now is my negligence,

I'll bear it, too" continued Damar.

" No.." Rakha's voice sounded,

" no?" Damar looked at Rakha with a frown.

" It's hard for me not to see Dinda.."

Damar got up from his seat, his emotions rose again to hear Rakha's words.

" Are you bright against me?!" damar's voice was not friendly.

" I don't dare.." Rakha is still bowing in, though,

" What do you mean by hard?!"

" I'm.." Rakha was stuck, he could not continue he said.

" I what? say?!" Damar can't be patient,

Rakha was silent for quite a while, he looked worried.

" I have long been in love with Dinda." said Rakha finally after a long silence.

" I deliberately played women because I was hurt by my mother who dumped me..

but Dinda..

dinda's presence beside me was different,

I refrained from going to college because I wasn't sure I was capable of being loyal and caring for her.."

" then why did you come back? why did you come back when she was happy with her family?!"

" is he happy senpai?? is she happy??

senpai see? her husband did not even have the strength to protect her,

in even covering up his incompetence by limiting Dinda's wiggle room,

in breaking Dinda's wings so as not to fly high and leave her?!"

Damar was silent, he was out of words, in throwing his long cigarette, putting both hands on his waist while turning his back to Rakha.

" Yoga is weak in physical terms since childhood, he is not a fighter..

but watching him survive your trained blow doesn't you understand?" said Damar let his eyes look at the expanse of green rice fields freely.

" He persevered because he would not budge on his wife, he kept his wife, he kept his wife,

any risk he will take even if it has to run out in your hands,

aren't you embarrassed? or am I the one who should be ashamed of you for having learned to educate you first?"

Damar turned around and looked at Rakha, still with both hands on his waist.

" Alright.. how do you want? fight to the death?

kill her husband and take him for your great love?" Damar sat down and tried to calm himself down.

" Love is not so, if it forces it is no longer love but obsession, if it,

if that love drives us to hurt someone to have it, then it can no longer be said to be love, but an emotional fallacy, and that fallacy can develop into a crime..

are you ready to be the bad guy?

who took his wife from her husband?

who took the mother from her child?"

Rakha was again pensive and worried,

" that's just his stepson." he said later, later,

" Bagas.The boy's name is Bagas, if you're abandoned by the time you're 12 years old, then he's been left behind as a baby, if you're left behind,

his mother, like your mother, chose to live with another man and dumped her son,

if now you take Dinda who's like her heartbeat,

what do you think is gonna happen?

you want to repeat your story? being the villain you hate?

to be the one to tear apart the future of others?

are you ready to endure it?" damar's words really pierced Rakha's heart.

Rakha's eyes began to pool, in the other direction to remove his gaze so that Damar did not find the tears.

" Don't force me not to see Dinda again senpai.. I beg you..?" rakha's voice vibrated.

" I need time.I need strength to take my eyes off me,

because for years, I never found a woman as sincere as her..

she was always in my imagination even though it was another woman I was hugging..

it was suffocating senpai..

then one day I found him being treated unfairly in the store by his ex-wife,

and her husband could not act decisively..

I could no longer stop myself from expecting it and protecting it..

is this senpai's obsession?? I really can't tell the difference..

all I know is that I just want to make her happy." added Rakha made Damar lean his back on the chair and occasionally sighed heavily.

" It feels like my chest is tight between you guys." lamented Damar,

" Punish me..

I cannot promise, but I will try to withdraw..

I don't want to be the bad guy Senpai said I was..

I want pure love, which does not step on another's body or neck for the sake of having it..

l am...

I. will love him quietly and look at him from afar.. "

Rakha's words really make Damar dizzy,

moreover, seeing the eyes that had been flooded in front of him made him even more do not know what to do.

" Whatever that form of love may be, to me it's misplaced and wrongly timed,

I cannot accept your words, promise not to appear before Dinda again, that's all the promise I need from you" Damar insisted, forced for the peace of his sister's household, he is still not satisfied with the answer to Rakha's answer that seems heavy and difficult to release Adinda.

Rakha was completely silent now, not a word came out of his mouth after Damar asked for his promise.

The tall and stout man looked agitated, his eyes unsettled and his lips completely clenched tightly.

" Can't you promise??!" ask Damar more firmly, though,

" If you don't want to back off well, fine, at the next meeting, don't blame me for being callous." Damar asserted, that he will not hesitate to hit with all his strength if Rakha is still around Dinda.

" Did you hear that?" damar's voice made Rakha worried and began to fear, his fear was based on his mind that began to open by the word Damar said.

At the moment when Rakha was enveloped in anxiety there was the sound of Kinanti running out, her face looked frightened and confused.

" your?! Dinda?!" the woman's voice was half crying, half crying,

" Why??!" Damar got up from his chair, as did Rakha, his face was no less tense looking at Kinanti's expression.